Final set of questions that I will ask right now, so I can stop spamming this forum.

[Quadraginta]

Ok. Let us begin.

 

1. Raid's head pressures first came to my head from behind the temples, but now, they've shifted to directly on top of the temples. That's fine, but the thing is, the head pressures usually stay and don't leave, even when I politely ask Raid to make them go away. The head pressures come and go a lot. At first, they would only come when I asked her to answer a question, but now, they're quite persistent. Do young tulpae just have a habit of giving constant pressure, or do they just have little control over giving head pressures?

 

2. Whenever I force with Raid, I usually imagine her in the Wonderland, standing still. At least, at first, it was her standing still. Now, it has changed to her sitting down. I don't recall ever changing her 'standard' position in the Wonderland to sitting down. Also, at first, giving her a hug looked a bit awkward. I stooped down and wrapped my arms around her. Then, one day, I imagined myself sitting down, and her jumping into my arms and wrapping both of her enourmous wings around me, usually with a light feeling of comfort and happiness that I feel. Now, the image of her jumping into my arms just comes more easily, and I feel as if I'm not doing it. But I can't be sure.

 

3. She gets my attention more with head pressure than with emotion. In fact, I don't really get any emotion or feelings from her unless I hug or show affection to her. Her first emotion was a strong feeling of what I confused for sadness, but turns out to be the desire to cry tears of joy. Maybe her emotions have just calmed down over the past week? Emotions usually don't last forever anyways, so that's my belief.

 

4. I asked Raid to try to visit me or contact me in my dreams. Thing is, there were several dream figures in my dream last night, but I have a hard time identifying any of them as Raid. Any good way for me to be able to?

 

5. If and when Raid finally speaks to me, will I know it's her speaking? Or will it sound, to me, as if I'm still just thinking aloud?

[LordV]

1. According to Tammy, she can't really control head pressures (which is why she stopped sending them as soon as she was capable of talking to me).

2. To quote what most people here keep saying, just trust that it's her. If it isn't, then so what? Even if it isn't real, accepting the parroted response might help to emphasize in your mind that she is a separate being from yourself.

3. I'm not sure if this is true for all people, but what I found with my tulpa was that very early in creation she started sending me tons of emotions, but that this tendency declined over time. Now I very rarely receive any but the strongest raw emotions from her (usually she'll just tell me if she's upset, happy, etc.) My theory here is that in its earliest form, a tulpa is still strongly connected to you. It takes time for the tulpa to become a completely separate entity in your mind, and you more or less feel everything it feels until it has separated itself.

4. I've got nothing, Tammy never visits me in my dreams. Though I have found that I don't have many nightmares since I started work on her.

5. I can't speak for everyone, but what I've found is that in the very early stages of verbal communication, I just sort of knew what my tulpa wanted to say, even though she couldn't figure out how to form the words.

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

1. Some tulpas can control head pressures and use them as a form of communication, some can't. Also, in my opinion I believe there are two different types of head pressure, one is tulpa communication and the other is the brain and/or mind shifting things around, trying to 'make room' for the new tulpa. In your case, it sounds like at the beginning, your tulpa used it as a form of communication, and now the brain is just trying to accommodate the new tulpa. Because of this, the new head pressure isn't really directly caused by the tulpa, will be more continuous and persistent, and may not be easily controlled by the actual tulpa. This type of head pressure was the main kind I had, literally had the continuous head pressure for a month as I was creating Forseen. Neither one of my tulpas could get rid of it, so I kinda just dealt with it. You get used to it after a while.

 

2. What Lord said is a good thing to keep in mind. By the sound of it, it's a perfectly reasonable assumption to make.

 

3. I do believe the same thing as Lord said, tulpas tend to slowly stop using emotional responses as they develop more independence and vocality. My tulpas actually never really used emotional responses in the first place, I think in my history I've only ever gotten three from all of them combined.

 

4. Dude, I never remember my dreams. Ever. Don't know much about it, sorry. Even when I get in a half dream-like state where things are very vivd, I have a hard time focusing on my tulpas and my mind just tends to wander.

 

5. Most of the time, I've seen vocality develop as a gradual thing, not a one day suddenly poof, my tulpa can speak fluently! If your tulpa does learn how to talk by itself, it may or may not use your own mind voice, but if it does talk with its own trouble then the response you hear should be very alien-feeling. If your tulpa has trouble developing vocality, like mine, it'll be something you have to help them work on. In this case, the point you're most likely get stuck on is the point where you can feel like your tulpa wants to say something and you know what they wanna say, but they just can't say it. From here people take different approaches. Some parrot their tulpa to say what they think their tulpa wants to say, some try to listen closer, etc, etc. But any way you go, the thing that will feel separate from you is the 'tulpish' you get from them and what they want to say, not the actual voice. since you're either parroting them or not actually hearing anything to begin with.