Glowcharm March 10, 2014 Share March 10, 2014 I will start off by saying I am a complete beginner to Tulpas. I have been reading many of the guides here for the past few weeks before I finally decided to start trying to make my own. Now, since I am a fan of order and easy to read things, I plan to make this list like with short paragraphs. About me My real name is Hannah, and I usually go by a different online name, but I'm a bit shy about the nature of having a tulpa so I am using a different username this time. I'm in my freshmen year of college and I live in the Northwest of America. I like drawing, writing, playing video games, and also making games. Reasons for Creating a Tulpa For little over three years I've been on and off depressed with strong suicidal feelings. Lately these feelings have returned and I am getting constant mood swings and I can often feel myself losing control of my emotions. I also have small self-confidence and a low feeling of self-worth. I tried seeing a therapist in high school but he assumed that I only had graduation jitters. Now, to try and deal with these feelings, I've decided creating a tulpa may be a great help. I'll create a tulpa that can help bring me out of suicidal thoughts and also possibly encourage me to be more confident. I also hope that having a tulpa may help me learn more about myself. My Current Method I'm currently creating my wonderland while also tulpaforcing. My tulpa will start as a nameless ball of light. I have a list of personality traits that I will force, but I consider most of these vague. To force the personality traits, I have assigned a different treat to symbolic of each trait, and I will have my tulpa eat these treats. I currently do not have any intentions of imposition, I'd rather only see my tulpa in our wonderland. Planned Traits These are the traits that I will force my tulpa with in mind along with its symbolic food and a few reasonings. Kind - Strawberry Shortcake Quiet - Oatmeal and Chocolate Chip Cookies (The reason behind this is because I consider myself an introvert, so talking with people for an extended amount of time tires me out. So if my tulpa were very talkative, I would be tired all the time, so I wish for my tulpa to an introvert as well) Confident - Chocolate Cake Good Memory - Tea (I have a terrible memory, so I hope my tulpa can help me with that haha) Cute - Sugar Cookie (I love cute things, so I would like to share a love of cute things with my tulpa) Thoughtful - Lemonade Funny: Popsicles Tulpa Progress First time My first forcing session with my tulpa was a passive one, while I was on the bus to school. At the time I explained what a tulpa is and my reasoning for creating them. I just repeated telling them what type of traits they had and asked a few questions that I don't remember anymore, but they were only simple small talk questions. Felt some slight head pressure, but that was likely from me overthinking. Second Time My first active forcing session. Happened around a week ago. I had decided to have my wonderland be heavily inspired by the Kuwadorian from Umineko. ( Admittedly, Umineko is an inspiration for some of my tulpamancy. ) I focused mostly on the small area of the outside garden while sitting at a table with my tulpa across the at the other chair. To help myself feel more immersed I tried to include more of my senses. I listened to forest sounds, I got out my rose essense oil and breathed mostly through my nose while holding it up to my face, and also touched the furniture nearby that would have a similar texture to the table in my wonderland. The only trait I worked on this time was kindness. I explained to my tulpa that the cake symbolized kindness and that they may eat as much as they wish. I then imagined my tulpa eating a few slices of the cake. Then the rest of the time was spent sitting with my tulpa and taking in the surrounding, my tulpa occasionally eating another slice of cake. Third Time This active session we still stayed outside in the garden. I listened the forest sounds and breathed in the rose essence oils. This time I gave my tulpa the quiet oatmeal and chocolate chip cookies. I explained to them the meaning of these cookies as well and also offered more kind Strawberry shortcake. I then imagined my tulpa eating many of the cookies and slices of cake. This time we walked the perimeter of the garden. I had somewhat of an unconcious tendency to imagine my tulpa being very energetic this time and imagined them running around happily in the garden. Fourth Time Yesterday, while out with friends I was feeling a lot of mood swings. To try and calm down and I tried going to my Wonderland while waiting for the bus. I was laying down there and at first I imagined my tulpa near me and I spoke to them a little. After awhile I told them they should go play in the garden instead of watching me mope. I had a difficult time imagining my tulpa leaving, but after awhile they did run off and play (sometimes coming back before leaving again shortly). → Currently working on visualization and vocalization ← Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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