My Insane World...

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son no. 2 has started moving around the wonderland.. even if just crawling... whew.. I kinda thot he might be a slow learner....

 

And son no 1... well.. he's still the same... and he still hasn't got out of his whole obsession with having sex with me.... I even asked him about it.... I think part of it is cos he is motivated by curiosity and affection....

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Worked on Son no. 2 today when I had a space to breathe.... He seems to be coming along well... was too busy to work on him yesterday and when I checked on him in the evening, I found out that he fell down an hurt his knee when he tried the movement of "walking".... he was terribly upset that he cried out a long time and no one came to his aid...

 

I think he sometimes behaves like a child. but its to be expected... he has not had the long growing up human process.... and needs to be reassured that we'll be there and to learn to pick himself up.

 

I explained to him the purpose of failure in the human experience and encouraged him to learn to pick himself up... cos.. well.. we can't be there always.. and the pig I set to keep an eye on him....well.. the pig....zzzzzzzz in the middle of the day and was unaware anything was amiss....

 

Piglet was well... I had to discipline piglet for his irresponsibility.... but there was something odd with him last nite... there was this odd smile on his plush body.... somehow.. something told me... piglet either was not IN his body or it was something else..

 

well.. I found out what happened last nite.... was awoken in the middle of the night with a start.... had an odd image of some kinda strange south american mummy in the room.... yah... I put on my glasses and looked at the door.. and ... I SWEAR.. there was this strange odd, whitish thing that was on the door.. as I looked, it actually moved from the door towards me and I saw that it was a female figure.. details indistinct!!! But translucent....

 

I mean I know all my boys are BOYS.... Was so unnerved.. I grabbed piglet's plush body and hugged him to sleep... the whitish thing had vanished and cos I could not stand it.. I turned on the lights....

 

next morning I checked piglet's plush body... did a cleansing ritual...and other occult rituals and banished that "thing". whatever it was..... brrrrr..... (Fact of matter .. I was so scared.. I forgot in that instant what it was I could do to it!)

 

I think my piglet's plush body got possessed by a rogue entity... later called a few friends... talked about appropriate talismans to stick on this pig body and stuff... and tried to set up my room's spiritual security... and put son no. 1 on nighttime guard duty.... (I said to him it was about time he did his job anyway).... I think he does well with responsibility... it gives him a feeling that ppl depend on him for security and he feels good about it...

 

Oddly enough I found out that...um.... spirit possession of doll bodies is not unknown in my local spiritual community.. ALTHOUGH.. it usually happens with the deity statues and not plush toys...

 

With reference to son no. 1, I mean.... that he has something to do at nite really prevents him from wandering off to gawd knows where to meet up with all these spirit girls.... and yes.. I said to him MANY TIMES... IF they say they wanna be with him permanently and join our family.. my Answer is "NO".... cos I aren't adopting no spirits .... IF he is gonna have a permanent girl friend, he's gonna have to look after her on his own.... really....

 

I THINK that female entity that invaded our space was likely looking for a home.... cos well.. maybe the presence of all my tulpas are attracting them... :P I was thinking maybe I should hang up a sign that sayz... "no adopting of spirits in this house!!!"

 

 

Had talk with son no. 1 today about human "norms"... and not mentioning every damn thing off the top of his head.. he is terribly honest about how he feels and what he is doing.... especially not to random spirits and other people he might meet....