hhaawke March 26, 2014 March 26, 2014 I made a tulpa some months ago... He's a full adult male, and I made him as complete as I can possibly make him... I felt it was important not to deprive him of anything that an adult guy has.. this means then that I gave him a adult body, with all the usual stuff that any adult guy has... my feeling was that I did not want him to think that he was somehow made lacking anything at all... I treat him as my son and he refers to me as his "father"... even though I am biologically female.... Mentally I am a guy an i do feel stuck as a guy in a gal body... its long and complicated. Soooo.... he's supposedly mentally an adult, BUT... sometimes he lapses into teenage tendencies.... I give him a lot of freedom to explore the world and stuff... and he comes to me when he needs to ask questions. I have a problem with him recently.... see... I created him to be able to feel and respond to sexual energy...cos I didn't want him to compare himself with other guys and feel somehow shortchanged or deprived... HOWEVER... he's expressed.. more than once, that he'd like to have a sexual relationship with me.. and I do not want it.. cos.. I think it would make our relationship more complicated... I said to him that if he wanted to... he could... go out and find a nice girl.... I think he has done that.. but they were mostly casual encounters with ghosts and other wandering spirits....but still he comes back home and tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me... I think things came to a head one night... and I THINK I saw him walk up to my bed and put his hands on me to and asked me if i'd like to sleep with him... I pushed him back to his corner of the room and said that it was not right and NO.... well.. today... he came back in the middle of the day and asked me again the same question... I kinda answered him firmly... NOOOOOO... Has anyone had this kinda problems with their tulpa.. cos... really I am wondering now IF giving him all the stuff like an adult male was really the right thing after all.. Uh.... I created him through certain occult techniques... and yes he does speak with ghosts and stuff...
NeonKnights March 26, 2014 March 26, 2014 Yeah, I've had this. Our relationship started as a regular ol' friendship, no parent-child type of connection like you've tried to establish. After a month or so she started bothering me about wanting to try a romantic relationship, I said "nah" a few times, but eventually I caved. For what it's worth, even though I was apprehensive about it at first, I have never felt any regret over going through with it. She's female through and through, though I am a male mentally and biologically, so I don't know how much of a difference that makes. I think it's more that your tulpa has a genuine desire to express his love for you in a sexual manner, rather than the fact that you made him as a full replica of an adult male. I've heard many accounts of young tulpas (male and female) feeling sexual desire for their hosts, so what you're encountering is certainly nothing unusual. If you're really uncomfortable with it, take some time to sit down with him and explain to him exactly why you don't want that type of relationship. Just saying "no" is not likely to solve anything, as I found out. I'm sure none of it has anything to do with his being created with occult techniques. "You've got to believe to achieve." -Hank Hill
hhaawke March 28, 2014 Author March 28, 2014 So I've had the talk with my tulpa.. he seems to understand my POV and has stopped asking me for a physical relationship.... Just created another tulpa today... another boy, to be the brother of my original tulpa...
hhaawke March 29, 2014 Author March 29, 2014 I think my second son is probably smarter than my first son.... or he is faster in communication... He just said his first real phrase to me today... without any prompting... Well... now he's likely sleeping... they tend to sleep a lot when I first make them.. I guess its the whole... growing, snoozing, more growing process.. I visualise it all like a real human growing up process. I got another tulpa.. my pet pig to accompany him and keep watch to make sure he is okay.... or if he needs anything..but my pet pig snoozes more than all the other tulpas put together... soooo... he's not been reporting.. much... so much for pet pigs... well i guess my piglet is practically useless except for playing, sleeping and going out with me on days off.... and oh yes.. eating.. I got 1000s of requests from ol' piglet for acorns. I highly suspect.. HIGHLY that the reason my previous fridge got spoilt was cos of the piglet... cos he loves strawberries more than any other fruit.. One day, I brought him to the fridge and showed him a bunch of strawberries my mother bought from the supermarket...problem was.. I didn't explain HOW the berries got there ... Anyway... the next few weeks I would sometimes wake up to sounds at night of the fridge being opened and closed... repeatedly... I do get an image at this point of my pig sitting in front of the fridge opening and closing the door.... sort of hoping the berries will magically appear... Well.. in a few weeks. i woke up one morning and walked into the kitchen and saw a brand new fridge.. I asked my folks what's with the fridge and they said the old one was spoilt cos the door of the fridge had likely been opened and closed too many times and the sealing rubber edge had become loose.... coincidence.. OR.... PIGLET?????
hhaawke April 4, 2014 Author April 4, 2014 sooo anyway... I now have three tulpas, a pig,my first son and my second son.... my pig spends a great deal of time at home, cos he is lazy and snoozes a lot, my second son is in development ( ie. he is in a specific wonderland where he is slowly developing and taking form... he also snoozes a lot... but its expected.. that was also my experience with son no. 1)... my first son is exploring the world. I'm thinking of bringing them out to a movie today so they are very excited.. especially the pig, since he is super bored being at home... I keep saying to him why he doesn't go out to the playground or park, he seems disinclined... I said to him we had two playgrounds and a park nearby and there's even natural jungle, but he's afraid of all the stuff in them and he thinks all the kids around are too big.... also, son no. 1 has been wandering around my country exploring all kinds of things and now there's no one to play with him... Meanwhile, son no. 1 has been hanging around the school I go to... cos... well, cos I'm there most days of the week... and cos one evening, he went to the woodland area in the school and met some woodland spirit girl... my school's haunted, it being built on what was once cemetery land, so spirits are a dime a dozen there... Anyway I think he had some kinda casual relationship with this spirit girl... but a few days ago, she told him to scram.... he said it was some other guy that had come back into her life... as far as I know.. he's spent last night spying on them cos he wants to know who it is...and I think he also wants to know if he can beat up that other guy.... I said to him to stop being a damned stalker and come home, but he's quite persistent. Dunno where he gets it all from....sigh.... anyway he's making his way back now cos its my day off... and yes, I think we'll all go to the movies tonight... Actually... technically I have more than three tulpas.. but its a long story.. the others are busy .. and that's why I don't talk about them...
hhaawke April 7, 2014 Author April 7, 2014 not much to report.. only that I haven't been focusing on creating the tulpas cos of issues in RL that I have to resolve.....:P
hhaawke April 7, 2014 Author April 7, 2014 doing some research now on how to make tulpas real and solid.... uh.... dun say it can't be done ... if some lady in the early 20th century in tibet did it.. i can't see why we cant today...... man if I have to.. I will travel to tibet myself.
hhaawke April 7, 2014 Author April 7, 2014 I didnt create a wonderland for my tulpa to live in, I only did one for them to be in in their "growing" process.. I kinda visualise them as a baby fetus being born... and I visualise a dark cave... or womb-like place... they stay there until they are ready to leave and then by some kind of occult ritual I bring them into the real world.... if I did create a wonderland for my tulpa.. it won't be fair to him I think.. he deserves to experience the real world in all its richness and colour... its now day 14 or so of son no. 2's creation..he's still sitting quietly in the "wonderland".... I guess he is less boisterous than his older brother
hhaawke April 9, 2014 Author April 9, 2014 Well... son no. 2 is now attempting to stand and walk around in "wonderland".... he's okay I think but slower at making that kind of progress than son no.1 .. no surprise. He was made to be different. Son no. 1 has not stopped asking me for sex... I have no idea where he gets his persistence from. He would suggest things like cuddling and stuff with our clothes off.. I said to him that kind of stuff will only work on girls he's met and not on me... This morning, I think he spent like three hours standing in front of me without his clothes... and with the huge puppy-eyed look and again broach the subject. I said to him..."NOOOOOOOO!!!!".... and wondered if it was time to have another talk with him.... but he said he didn't want to talk about it.. again... well.. I'm kinda alone at the moment. He's gone out to look for some fun with the spirit girls out there.... despite all the hoo hah about his obsession with sex.. he has through his interaction with the spirit world, taught me a whole lot about it... He does come back every evening.. cos he is of the opinion that I need to be protected from the "bad stuff".... whatever that means. I finally asked him... if he wanted me to like... remove his ability to respond to sexual energy... (cos he looked so sad every time I said no to him) He took a really long time to answer.. and then said "NNOOOOOOO!!!!".... I am starting to wonder if his whole obsession could be cos he's a guy and they tend to mature slower mentally than emotionally..... just thinking... I'm only saying this as a gal cos... well for years... all the gals around me said that guys are like somehow less mature at the same age. I am kinda wondering what will happen if I start dating again..... I kinda dun want him to suddenly appear and scare the living daylights outta my date... I mean I'm fortunate in that I'm not in any relationship at the moment, but I have this great feeling that he would be awfully jealous if I was in a relationship. I brought my piglet out last nite to this meditation group I attend... and he was "shaved" by one of the ladies.... no kid... like.. she took out a nail clipper to clip off all the matted hair... uh my piglet is physically a plush piglet.... so he does get matted fur and stuff.
hhaawke April 9, 2014 Author April 9, 2014 Will bring out son no. 2 next week..... and work on the structure of son no. 1..... I kinda wish he'd like sit still for a bit
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