Kociara's and Cyfraza's tales from Dreamspace

[sushi]

moded games give more fun

 

That's true. That's my biggest problem with the xbox -- much too hard to mod. Whenever I'm playing a game, I'm thinking "This could be better with randomly generated levels" or something like that, but there's no way for me to do that. Though I do like the speed and reliability of consoles, and how everything is in ROM.

 

I've made some simple games, simulations and command-line tools with Python. It probably helps that I tend to prefer text-only stuff.

[kociara81]

@Sushi

 

PC Vs Consoles: 1:0 :D

 

The only console I have ever played is Pegasus (Famicom/NES clone. In the 90's it was very popular in Poland).

 

The first computer I've had to deal with is Amiga. I often went to buddies from backyard's homes and I watched them played games on their Amigas.

 

Currently one of my friends often takes Amiga 500, joysticks and a floppy disks.

 

Sometimes he takes PS2 pad with usb connector. Often when we play games on emulators (mostly we use my laptop). I more prefer the keyboard than pad. I'm already accustomed to playing on the keyboard.

 

But my first computer was an PC.

 

And to me it is rather difficult for me to convince to consoles.

 

I'd rather not want start PCs vs Consoles flamewar.

 

Immediately I reminded this video:

 

 

Currently, I have very little time. I have to do a few things for school.

[kociara81]

We are back to tell you more stories about our lives.

 

Overall, I'm sluggish, tired and slow. Although usually from an early age I was sluggish and slow. This

trait is a big disadvantage in this world where everyone must be quick. Running fast like Galactic Hares (are somebody know Jazz Jackrabbit?). I feel so strongly detached from this world.

 

This post will be pure chaos. I can't take control on my thoughts. *yawn*

 

It is better to not mention too much about the objects of my obsessions. People don't like doing them lectures. The object of my obsession are hackers (just try to mention that they are a criminals. Then get ready for a lecture about white hat hackers and you will be flooded with interesting (by me) literature devoted to them. Most people are bored to death, after this), computer games: greatest obsession are about forgotten by most people Jazz Jackrabbit games (they are just platformers. Humorous also known as Sonic with the guns), cats and Egyptian mythology.

 

*yawn* *yawn* *yawn*

 

What I have to say?

 

Cyfraza: Maybe about our "Great loss of data".

 

Umm ok. *yawn*

 

It won't a nice experience. This means that I have to come back to memories of middle school.

 

Cyfraza: In the event of a panic attack I'm ready to help you. I know you really hate those memories. But you have to "tame" them.

 

People at school really hated me. And I was their favorite toy (yes, person with asperger's syndrome is the best thing that they got. Nothing can match with attacking so naive, calmly and slowly person like me (By bad experiences, Now I'm very mistrustful. Even I can't trust myself.). The perfect victim.). Contrary to my slowness I'm intelligent person. Or so many people I know think so (but my little trusting nature doesn't fully trust this words).

 

At that time, Cyfraza was fully developed her own mindvoice. But something happened that withdrew our work.

 

I hated PE. Rather, I never had the good condition. Balls was ideal object to inflict pain. Especially thrown with full force. It is best to throw into most sensitive places. Then I had the misfortune to have lesson with medical balls (they had 10 kg (silly americans and their units. I don't know your strange mass unit)). Often PE teacher went out somewhere and leave students alone. It was the perfect opportunity to try out balls on me. I got one of them with full force into my head. I felt terrible and dizzy. I ran quickly to the school's nurse. According to the nurse, I was very pale and barely able to stand on my feet. The parents immediately took me to the doctor. A doctor came to the hospital. I had a concussion. Rather, I didn't had any visible damage. It was hard but I came out of this alive. But the problem I noticed after leaving the hospital. Well, I forgot a lot of information. I forgot about Cyfraza's mindvoice. I forgot a lot of information in the field of mathematics. Lots of damaged data in my brain.

 

And it's all my fault. It's my otherness provoked them to attack. Defense against them is bad. Everyone kept telling me it was my fault. But they attacked me. It was trying to defend himself it was wrong. And after seeing how in the USA treats people like me. Everywhere people will treat you like rubbish. You see me as a burden to society. And the perpetrators of the crime are acquit.

 

As my aspie friend said "Humans are differ from the apes, that humans use tools".

 

If someone wanted to commit murder on me because of "pity", I'm ready to use my air rifle. And despite appearances, I am learning how to shoot with airguns.

 

Cyfraza: Kociara! They are just harmless weirdos!

 

Me: They will begin to murder of low functioning aspies and They will end on a high functioning. I can't let yourself be killed, because mercy. I'm afraid of people, very much. Hug me *crying*.

 

Cyfraza: It's all right. These people don't want to harm you. With me you are safe. Let's talk about this in private. People don't like controversial topics. Cry out, give vent to emotions. Sorry but I have to do it.

 

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Cyfraza: At the moment I must switch. Unfortunately we don't developed full switch. But what we have so far is enough. She have a panic attack. We have to stop this post.

[kociara81]

Today I feel better. Cyfraza asked me to listen to her favorite song. It immediately improved my bad humor. This song is so awesome.

 

Cyfraza doesn't consider that weird people are terrible. Contrary to appearances, I don't have to be afraid of weirdos because I'm a weirdo (and my friends too).

 

Forgive me that I panicked. Back to the bad memories and strange thoughts led me to this.

 

Today, mostly watching stupid videos on yotube. The first of them were crappy games reviews using speech synthesizer "IVONA". The demo version of this speech synth has some limitations. This is a character length limit and mispronunciation of certain phones. That's incorrect pronunciation of phones causing very comical effect. The most popular voice is Jacek.

 

We also watched YTP. This mindfucking crap makes me laugh. Once in awhile I need some kind of mindfuck. In any way, this flood of stupidity "reset" my mind. I love intelligent humor but sometimes I need something from the lowest shelf.

 

Now we playing together Minecraft and we are building a house in a magical forest.

[sushi]

I also prefer PCs to consoles. I like to make very specialized tools. Consoles are already very specialized, which I admire, but I always feel that I could have made them better.

 

Many of the games I've played were on Super Nintendo. If Jazz Jackrabbit had ever been ported to SNES, I'm I sure would have played it. I like Mega Man and Sonic, and other similar games.

 

I do play many PC games, but I like the old text-based games the most. Games like Zork and Rogue. I like the ideas of efficiency and imagination, and text-based games do both.

 

I remember a neighbor having a PC platformer game with a rabbit with guns, but I'm not sure if it was Jazz Jackrabbit.

 

I want to look it up and play it now. It sounds like fun, and it's old enough that I'm sure I can get it to work with Linux.

 

(Edit: I just tried it out, and there is no way SNES could ever have handled this game. The SNES lagged when too many things were on the screen, and I'm not sure it could handle this speed to begin with. Just another way PCs are better than consoles.)

 

I'm sorry to hear about your experience in school. I was also bullied in middle school, and I hated it so much that I dropped out of high school before finishing ninth grade.

 

I don't see you as a burden on society. You are obviously very intelligent, and I feel like you have a lot to offer the world. They were wrong to do that to you. I hope you find people who treat you as well as you deserve, and I hope you can learn to trust again.

[kociara81]

@Sushi

 

Thanks for these comforting words. I have just a small group of best friends. They are wonderful and open minded people and they are programmers too.

 

The period when I learned in middle school was a period of the greatest trauma. I still have the difficulty of reconciling with the past. It still haunt me and It don't want to leave me. I still can't accept that no one was punished and everyone around me wanted to believe it was my fault. These people almost brought me to madness. If It wasn't Cyfraza I went to psychiatric hospital. Really at that time, my psyche was severely ruined.

 

In contrast to other countries in Poland is a little different education system. Explaining this statement I was looking for the equivalent in UK's education system, so you can better understand my posts (I learned UK's English at schools . But thanks to computer games, The Internetz (I did this typo just for fun :P) and writing with US English native speakers on neopets.com I met some of the differences). I'm still learning English.

 

Jazz Jackrabbit is often confused with Bucky O'Hare. They are totally different characters and universes. Most of Jazz Jackrabbit games was PC only games (in addition to a single one, whose existence I want to forget. It was for Gameboy Advance. And it's crappy game). The third part of Jazz Jackrabbit' was planned as PS2 and PC game. But it was canceled (Oh that Curse of The Third Part). I saw pre alpha (I had it once on my hard disk but I deleted it (because having this pre-alpha is illegal) But I still have on my old screenshots) of Jazz Jackrabbit 3D. I would like to Epic Games did new Jazz Jackrabbit game (or remakes/HD versions of JJ1/JJ2). Unfortunately Epic show us (Jazz Jackrabbit fans and and former creators of this game (they still wanted to make new Jazz Jackrabbit's game)) the great middle finger. And It piss me out at times when other games companies make a remakes of their older games or resurrecting the old series. Jazz Jackrabbit fans tried to create fanmade games but Epic Games blocked them all (because Epic have copyright to Jazz Jackrabbit). And it had to be for free. IT PISS ME OUT!

 

Bucky O'Hare had his own game for NES. Jazz Jackrabbit 1 and Bucky O'Hare's game are games with a high level of difficulty.

 

Distrust is a typical feature for the people of my nation. Unfortunately, this is a remnant of the communism. Over the years, the propaganda tells us to distrust. Another feature which leads to distrust is "kombinowanie" (I don't know equivalent single word in English (in common language mean). This can be explained as: "1. do something in clever way (often on the edge of the law), 2. running suspicious business, 3. manipulate, 4. thinking about solution of some problem in an unusual way 5. cheating 6. when you talk about woman and man relationship, it means establishes an intimate relationship " (I thinking about meaning at points 1, 2, 5 and 3 )). People are afraid of someone who will cheat them.

[kociara81]

In the middle of the night, We are back, after a long break. We return in order to tell you more about us. In the company of kick ass chiptune tracks during writing.

 

Today I will tell you a little bit about Dreamland.

 

According to me, It is a big place with various locations. Overall, the world can be class into a few sections. Kind kind of spawn point, my and Cyfraza's domain, Corruption domain and unexplored City in The Clouds.

 

And now time for more details.

 

Our spawn point is meadow full of fragrant wild flowers with a river which flows through the center. The River flows from the big waterfall and in the distance you can see the forest. It is usually warm and sunny (The light wind is gives a little and pleasant feeling of cold). In the background you can hear the sound of the waterfall, the sound of meadow's and river's fauna and light wind noise. Everywhere you can feel smell of wild flowers, meadow plants (herbs, grasses, wild fruits etc.) and also fresh water and air. Early afternoon during the summer.

 

This is the place where I first saw and meet Cyfraza.

 

In most resembles my favorite place from childhood (only without this big waterfall). Often, when I wanted to relax and get away from civilization, I rode on bike in this place. Then I could enjoy nature, fresh air and have a great place to reverie.

 

Today this place is overgrown and there are swamps. What a shame :(. But this improved good memory is part of Dreamland. I added waterfall because, I love watching falling water, the smell of fresh water and the sound of falling water.

 

This place calms and relaxes me.

 

Our domain (my and Cyfraza) is a forest. Forest have its own specific subsections: Magical Forest and Cyberpunkish Forest.

 

Magical Forest looks like Alice Madness Retun's Vale of Tears (overall this game have very creative and lots of beautiful locations).

 

Cyperpunkish Forest looks like it is made of parts of electronic machines, circuits, electricity, code, and cables.

 

City in The Clouds is a cluster of cloud platforms with buildings made out of white marble. In the middle of the city you can find a castle. Somehow I can't get there.

 

Near the town is another platform made of clouds. You can find there a portal for Corruption domain (to make it easier to come to it's place and kick Corruption's ass). It is also a favorite platform that we use for our favorite little game. Sooo, We jump out of the platform and we fall down. When we have almost collide with the earth, at the last minute we rise up in the air and and fly up to the highest speed as possible. And repeat. It's a bit stupid but We enjoy it.

 

And the most disliked place: Corruption's Domain. A place where there are the greatest nightmares. The place where I accumulate bad memories, fears, and everything that I want to deny. Unfortunately, in nature nothing is lost.

 

The whole place is made of bad memories, trauma and fears.

 

Before the portal was created the way to the right place (Tainted Castle), it was long and tiring journey. Interior was hit on the border of the Cyperpunkish Forest. This part of the forest is called Lost Woods. Lost Woods's look is inspired by The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask. If you get lost in the forest, you will teleport to a random place. Thanks to this forest, I found for the first time Corruption's Domain. Cyfraza didn't want me to go there. She wasn't like this place because she knew that It strongly weakens and hurts me.

 

The first area is the bloody lake and and foggy Victorian town. Around the city are walking outlines of human figures. These are dangerous and tainted beings. These are the most hurtful memories of me and concerns with the trauma of the past. I don't want to go back there.

 

When you come to the end of the city you will find when the Tainted Castle. Place of major fears, even worse bad memories and intrusive bad thoughts. The place where Corruption lives. Most of the interior reminds abandoned and neglected for years castle. But other rooms contain my bad memories, bad intense thoughts and greatest fears. Corruption is most like the throne room. Each element consists of heart tissue, general raw meat, blood and red fibers. And It moves, lives and pulse.

 

Disgusting and horrible place.

 

That's all for today.