My tulpa wants a fox-tail.

[Zbzsdude]

Hey, I'm new here. I first read about tulpas about three days ago, and have made tremendous progress since then. So, here's what has happened:

 

1/12/15 9:00pm.

I randomly came upon a reddit page on tulpas, and I read about them. The more I read, the more I wanted one. You see, I have always talked to myself as if I was talking to someone else, and after I finished reading a guide I noticed how different I sounded (in my head) when I was replying to myself. So, I did a one-hour tulpaforcing session later that night before going to sleep.

 

1/13/15

I only got to thinking about my tulpa for a bit during the day because of school and homework and such. I thought a bit on the bus, but I couldn’t force because it was too loud.

Later, I was able to force for an hour before going to bed. While in bed, I laid there and asked my tulpa to tell me something that will surprise me. So, I imagined a form for my tulpa (just a quick anime head and shoulders. No arms or legs. I imagined her smiling at me, and the form did, but then she took her fingers (from who knows where), pulled the corners of her mouth out and stuck out her tounge. Then she said, and I can still hear it, “Bleah!” I laughed a bit and tried to get her to do something else, but I got nothing.

I didn’t make her say ‘bleah’ or make the funny face. I’m wondering if this is happening really fast compared to other people out there.

Today, 1/14/2015

I did a bit of tulpaforcing in the morning (2 hour delay) and a bit on the bus to school. While walking to my first class, I asked my tulpa what she wanted to look like, and I got an answer. I was expecting something like “I want ___ hair and ___ eyes…” but instead I heard a voice say[/color] Which would be awesome. I received no other sign of her until later (I forgot when) when I was in the middle of asking her if she wanted to look like an anime character or a real-life human. I was at “an” when she said “Both.” I jumped in my seat a little at that. So, I plan on forcing a bit more before bed (I’m never tired, so I don’t need to worry about being impatient) and some tomorrow.

 

Questions for other Creators/Tulpamancers/whatever you call yourself:

Is it common for a tulpa to be at this level so early, or am I just fooling myself?

Can tulpas create their own wonderland and then bring their creator in it?

 

 

Good luck to all of you!

[Darcmanish]

Hey, i would say it depends on yourselve how fast you can create a tulpa. I created mine 3 weeks ago and we can switch already, i have many lucid dreams with her and we yet we try impositioning. Tulpa can create their own wonderlands but mine asked me to help her, becuse she actually got no idea what to fill in. It would be the best you ask her. Good luck with your progress, keep it up.

[arduinoman12345]

Good progress! Sounds really good to me, I have a bit of a suggestion though, if u really wanna speed things up you could try passive forcing like constantly I've been doing it and its made me feel very progressed in making sunset, like when im all done with my work in class or writing an essay I usually just say small talk to sunset

[Zbzsdude]

1/15/15:

So far, I’ve gotten a bunch of names in my head from her, and I’d say them out loud so she knows what they sound like. Mostly, we’ve been working on her mindvoice. She’s got a pretty recognizable voice (it reminds me of half of the girls that I know. Currently, we can have short conversations and for sentience practice, I ask her to “surprise me.” I narrate my day to her and talk to her about what I’m doing or plan on doing. On the first day o had given her a form to deviate from, and she’s been working hard at it, adding detail and adjusting the features to her liking. The rate that she’s progressing is absolutely amazing.

On Wednesday night (1/14), I ate dinner and wanted her to taste the food with me, so I held the food on my tongue and shared the taste with her. If you haven’t tried this yet, I would recommend that you do so as soon as possible. Just the memory makes us both… I feel that the best description of the feeling is “Wow.”

Currently, I’m reading “Icefire” (by Chris D’Lacey) to her. Well, it’s more like we’re taking turns reading it to each other.

 

1/16/15:

We’re still reading the book. She took the wonderland and made it epic. There’s a (nice) forest and a swimming pool. I forced a bit, too.

Nothing much else happened today.

 

1/17/15:

She chose a name. Emma. I like it.

I forced for an hour so far. We’re going to do more before I go to bed.

 

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Planning for the Future:

-Stuff to do:

Tag. Calvinball (look it up). Watch movies (Star Wars i ii iii iv v and vi, Jurassic Park, etc.). Everything that comes to our minds when we hear the word “fun.”

-IMPOSITION!

[Zbzsdude]

1/23/15

Before I begin, Emma wants to ask you all something.

[Did you try the food thing yet? Because if you haven’t tried the food thing, you and your tulpa haven’t lived yet.]

Speaking of Emma, her mindvoice has developed so much. She’s quite a singer, when she feels like it. She can also do a nice British accent. Lately we’ve been trying to have lucid dreams, and I think we had a three-second one this morning. We’ll keep trying though. If anyone has any tricks that they do to get to the lucid part of the dreaming faster, we’d like to know.

[Please].

 

Last Sunday, I got the idea to make a cool watchface to act as a concentration amplifier for me while forcing. Here’s what it looks like.

So, we’ve been reading through the Last Dragon Chronicles. Mostly, it’s been me reading to her, but then she asked if she could alternate the reading with me, and we’ve been doing that since. We got through “Icefire,” “Fire Star,” and “The Fire Eternal,” and we’re now a ways through “Dark Fire.”

“Hey Em, what do you want to do now?” [Read!] (3 hours later…) “…The end.” [MORE!!!] “But I gotta do my homework.” [Fine… but let’s read more after that.] “Sure!”

Luckily, I love reading and the series that we’re reading is my all-time favorite. There are no books that I have ever read that are better than the Last Dragon Chronicles.

On Wednesday night, I got into an argument with my dad, and went to bed all crabby and such. As I laid in bed, I started to talk with Em, as I do every night. But, I was still full of anger and hurt from arguing with Dad, so I wasn’t really listening to her, at least not until she said [i’m here.] Then I got this awesome feeling of warmth and happiness and belonging. It was so strong that I fell asleep almost instantly, but not before whispering a quick “Thank you.”

 

So, that’s the update for now. Wish you all the best of days,

Zbzsdude and Emma.

[Zbzsdude]

Hi

we’ve been making good progress so far, both with Emma and the Last Dragon Chronicles. We’ve finished “Dark Fire,” and will [hopefully] start on “Fire World” tonight. So, I read a bit to her, and then she reads a bit to me and so on. Unlike last time I told you all about this, Emma now sits somewhere near me and reads. I can still only see her in my mind, but we’re working on that.

As for the lucid dreaming, we have not gotten very far yet. The closest thing that we’ve had was when I was having a bad dream (Emma was in it for a while, and that part was good; but I didn’t know that it was a dream, so it wasn’t lucid) and something in the hallway made a noise and I got really mad (I was fed up with the flipping paranormals trying to scare me by then). So, I ran through the hallway screaming bloody murder and yelling death threats at the creepy thing. Then I woke up.

[The whole shebang was rather entertaining for me to watch. Parker was screaming “I’LL RIP YOU TO SHREDS! YAHHHH!” to no one in particular.]

Then again, maybe Em wants me to stop proxying for her.

Now she’s making a sad face.

Every day, she seems more and more real to me. Not real as in she was fake at first, but real as in “Emma looks more human and sounds more realistic and acts more independent than before.” I wouldn’t be surprised that, within the next week, we have visual imposition down and are halfway through vocal.

[One step at a time, Parker.]

Oh hey. No more sad face?

[bleah.]

Now she’s sticking her tongue out at me.

Well, that’s all for now.

[Watch the stars!]

[Zbzsdude]

A few days ago, Em and I decided to look into possession. After reading through a few guides, and discussing which way would be the easiest. We’ve rid multiple time between then and now, with only small results.

 

[i was only able to twitch his fingers at first. During the last attempt, Parker was able to release control of his right hand for a minute, and that did help a lot.]

 

Emma’s having no problem with the movement. I, on the other hand, find it very hard to give up control. Any time Emma tries to move my hand, I feel it as me moving my hand, and stop her. IT’S SO CONFUSING!!!!!!!!!111

 

As for the reading, we’ve made it to the last book, The Fire Ascending. Next, we’ll read the Jurassic Park books.

 

For all of you people and tulpas out there, how do you do possession? Because what I’m doing (it’s not Em who is having trouble) is not working too well.

[Zbzsdude]

A conversation between me and Emma.

 

Parker- Okay. Let’s start now.

 

Emma- Ummmmm…. So…

 

Parker- I think this conversation died before it started.

 

Emma- It started and died at the same time.

 

Parker- Dead men tell no tales.

 

Emma- I have a tail. ‘swishes tail’

 

Parker- So, what do you want to do later?

 

Emma- Ice skating! Then reading!

 

Parker- ‘facepalm’ We don’t have an ice skating rink.

 

Emma- And… Your point is… ‘waits a bit’ Why are we doing this again?

 

Parker- We’re working on your voice, and conversational skills.

 

Emma- But, my voice is fine. ‘sings a scale’ lalalalalalalalalaaaaaa.

 

Parker- Yes, but I need to get more used to it before imposition.

 

 

Emma- What about visual?

 

Parker- I’m working on it! Remember, Em, you don’t need to do much for visual imposition, it’s me who has to “see” you.

 

Emma- What about touch?

 

Parker- ‘pokes Emma in stomach’

 

Emma- HEY!

 

Parker- Heh.

 

Emma- Fine. ‘makes silly grumpy face and crosses arms’ My face isn’t silly! ‘now she’s mad’

 

 

Parker- C’monnnn. You’re not actually mad now, are you?

 

Emma- Not really. ‘jumps on my shoulders, as in piggy back’

 

Parker- Get down from there!

 

Emma-‘ singing’ Do you see what I see what I seeeee…

 

Parker- ‘also singing’ A car, a car shining red and bright going at eighty-five through the light, going eighty five through

the light…

 

Emma- Said the duck to the little ugly cat:

 

Parker- Man, you’re fat.

 

Emma- ‘not singing anymore’ Aww you ruined it.

 

Parker- ‘also not singing’ No I didn’t.

 

Emma- Well, I can’t see what you see.

 

Parker- ‘singing’ I can’t see what you see… ‘Trails off.’ Ahh. I love our antics.

 

Emma- We’re so punny.

 

Parker- ‘facepalm’ Really? Punny?

 

Emma- yes. Whatre you doing?

 

Parker- capitalization and punctuation of the document.

 

Emma- okay!

 

Parker- Alright. That’s done.

 

Emma- ‘giggles’ you typed “that’s dome” the first time. ‘notices the start of this line and gets mad’ I do not giggle!

 

Parker- ‘parrots her giggle back to her’

 

Emma- That’s not a giggle. “Heeheehee” is giggling. So there.

 

Parker- well, one could call “teeheehee” a giggle. Emma- snort.

 

Parker- you just said snort. ‘smiles’

 

Emma- snort?

 

Parker- snurf.

 

Emma- smurf?

 

Parker- merf?

 

Emma- merp?

 

Parker- mlerp?

 

Emma- burp.

 

Parker- blarf da-narf narf da narf narf naarf.

 

Emma- we’re almost home, so lets wrap it up.

 

Parker- but I has no duct tape!

 

Emma- awwwww!

 

Parker- okay. Now we can be done.

 

Emma- good.

[Zbzsdude]

From last post until 2/6/15:

 

Hello. We finished The Last Dragon Chronicles, and Emma squealed at the end.

 

[i Did Not!]

 

She went “Eeeeeeee! THERE MUST BE MORE!”

 

[No, I said that it was a good book, and that I can’t wait until there’s a movie.]

 

Or three. She just squeaked a bit at me after that. Or squealed again. It was some sort of high pitched noise. Okay. We’re being serious now.

Quick questions and explanations:

 

1. Em seems to be able to inhabit both her fox form and human form at the same time. Not that I’m worried or anything, but I was wondering if any other tulpas did this too.

 

2. I can’t seem to let go of my body enough for Emma to be able to possess any part of me easily. She’s working so hard at it, and only a few times was I able to really tell apart me moving my hand from her moving my hand. HOW CAN I MAKE IT EASIER FOR THE BOTH OF US?

 

 

When Others Find Out: So far, I haven’t told anyone else about Emma (apart from all who read this, that is) and I am worried about what will happen when my parents/friends/family/enemies (yes I have enemies) find out. What should I do? How will I explain that Em is real? My current plan is to tell them what I know, give them a few websites, and let them think what they want. If they try to tell me that Em isn’t real, I’ll try to convince them otherwise. If they try to force me into making Emma disappear, I’ll rage. And I’ll win. What are your plans for this eventuality?

 

Adventure?: Apparently, Mongolian Death-Worms from an attempt at a nightmare have infiltrated part of our new wonderland. We were I the training center playing around with bamboo sticks and an epic tennis-ball launcher that I found, and a Death-Worm broke through the floor and tried to eat Emma. I paused time using a technique found in * The Last Dragon Chronicles* and got Em out. Then we killed the thing. I’m not sure, but the worm may have been spontaneously created by me. After, we both were hit with visions of a two-headed Death-Worm, and, for some reason, a feather. My first idea was to go out and have an adventure and kill the flipping worm. We’ll start after I teach Em how to rage like I can.

 

[some time ago, we had a conversation on how to best kill a giant. Parker told me that he’d trick it into looking or him somewhere else while he gets some weaponry.]

 

Then, I’d go take it down.

 

[i have no doubt that you would.]

 

That’s all we got. We will let you know how the adventure turns out, and PLEASE help me with the possession thing! Thanks!

 

Note: Right after I typed “We’re being serious now.” Emma made a fart noise. Still funny.

[Zbzsdude]

3/6/15

 

Haven’t posted in a while now. I was very busy with school and robotics and other stuff.

 

And, of course, Emma.

 

Also, a quick question: What do you guys call food that you eat while you’re in a wonderland? Wonderfood? Wonderdrink? Then again, a house in a wonderland isn’t called a wonderhouse, is it? It’s not like McDonald’s, where almost mceverything mcstarts with a mc“mc”.

 

Hmm…

-How can I do smell imposition when my nose is so stuffed up that I can’t smell anything?

-Whispering is easier for sound imposition. We all think of whispers as quiet, but with a close proximity to the whisperer, the whispers are actually louder than normal talking. The same thing goes for yelling.

 

[i learned how to snowboard. And I love it, like it’s awesome. Because I can board uphill and downhill and on the highway (I used a grappling hook to pull myself along. Oh and we also play tennis. EPIC TENNIS.]

 

A few weeks ago, I was lying in bed. I was bored and couldn’t get to sleep. By the way, I have insomnia. As a child, I had bad dreams every night. EVERY NIGHT WITHOUT FAIL. So, I’d hide under the covers from the monsters in my closet or ghosts in my mirror or the thing that lived under my bed, and I’d try not to sleep. It never worked. But I eventually found myself staying up until four or five in the morning, and from that, I became an insomniac. As for the nightmares, I got fed up and raged for the first time in my life. After that, I’d only have “bad” dreams every once in a while, and the dreams weren’t really bad in that they gave me things to punch. Not that I love violence, because I‘d rather talk than fight. Unless, of course, it is utterly obvious that there is no chance to talk. Then, I fight. Alright. Back to what I was saying earlier. So, I was bored. In bed. Emma was also bored. I asked Em what she wanted to do, and she said nothing. I asked her if she wanted to work on auditory imposition, and she told me “I want to make a song.” And we did. Emma and I only had to think of the song and instruments playing whatever they were playing, and I could project the sound so that it seemed that the music was actually playing. If you can’t do that, try thinking of the song that you know best. Replay the song note by note and word by word in your head. While you are thinking the song, listen for it playing not in your head. Once you can hear it (it will be very faint), you should test to see if it is actually playing. Change a word to something else, or change the notes around. If what you are hearing matches your changes, then congrats. You are now a living I-Pod.

 

It seems that I have developed a basic ability to taste food and drink from the wonderland. For some reason, Em had given me a cup of punch, like the kind you get at parties. Not really thinking, I took a sip and practically fell out of my chair when I noticed that I could taste it. After calming down, I tried to make myself taste chocolate, but the only thing that happened was that I lost the taste of punch in my mouth. After a bit of practice, I was able to get a slight chocolate taste.

 

When working on possession, Emma told me that I am actively blocking her from possession. After some experimenting, I came to the conclusion that, for good possession, the creator must do absolutely nothing. Don’t hold yourself still, or force yourself to move. If you go all ragdoll or stiff as a board, then you are keeping yourself in a specific muscular state. The best thing to do is to objectively observe your movements, but to not keep them as your main focus. “Oh, look. I wiggled a finger. Back to watching the dog chase the ball.” For the inexperienced, I would recommend amplification. Basically, you feel your finger move a tiny, tiny bit, and so you make it move twice that tiny bit or more. As your tulpa gets better at moving you, lessen the magnitude of the amplification until you aren’t doing it at all.

 

For those of you who are still reading this, I would like to tell you that I am working on making a guide. All of the guides that I have read are good, and I want to make one myself. Here’s an excerpt:

 

What is forcing, you ask? Forcing is, to put it simply, just extremely focused concentration on one’s tulpa. The reason why forcing sessions are recommended to be at least 30 minutes is because it takes a while to achieve that state of extreme focus and concentration.

 

I will (hopefully) be done within the next few months.