I may have started on a tulpa and not known it... what do I do now?

[whispers]

I discovered tulpas a few years ago and quickly grew too busy to give it a second thought. However, between then and now (my "re-discovery" of tulpas) I became really involved in roleplaying. It's a bit weird to admit, but I pretty much had only my character on my mind for a solid 6-7 months. Looking back, I can see some of the early signs of tulpa formation: when I thought of something she felt strongly about, I'd get head pressures or giant waves of emotion (sometimes I'd even tear up a bit), and when I was thinking, sometimes I'd hear thoughts that weren't entirely my own. I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with her--she has a very caring personality--so do you think I should just pick up where we left off? The only concern I have is I still RP pretty frequently with her, and I wouldn't want to cause an identity crisis or something of the sort. What do you suggest?

[arcanemagic]

I think that she should be fine, as long as you make sure to tell her that she doesn't have to be as she is when you're RPing with her :P

[Guest]

I've always had these personal RP's I've done at night. Insert myself into a world I find interesting, with characters I think are cool, and will just run through day-to-day life with them, usually for weeks to months, before I might switch up the cast, setting, or story.

 

Peachy was a character I liked, whom I decided to throw into the RP's, but I stopped once I decided to make a tulpa out of her. Well, until a few days ago, that is. After she finally started moving around, I asked if she'd be fine if I picked back up where I left off, and still used her character. She didn't seem to mind, so I've been at it the last few nights.

 

So far, there's a definite distinction between RP-Peachy, and Tulpa-Peachy. I'll tell Tulpa-Peachy she can sit back and watch, take anything she likes from the character, and I'll narrate some things I do in the RP to her, every while. It seems to work pretty well, and no identity-crisis so far, haha. Though who knows, I'll find out for sure if and when she starts speaking.

 

If at all possible, to get on with it, my suggestion would be to try and take a week or so off of RP'ing if you can, to see just how developed the tulpa-version of this character might be, and establish that she, and the RP character, are different. Being though, that your forcing her, or general attention, has been (I assume) mostly related to the RP, I wouldn't be surprised if beginning to tell her that she's not exactly the same character might come as a surprise, and something for her to get used to.

 

But yeah, just try to make that distinction, and try to get a feel for the tulpa as opposed to the character in your RP. If she's as developed as I think she is after several months, it shouldn't be too long until you've figured out where you stand, and how long until you can start RP'ing again without directly influencing her.

[Kaga and Company]

Maybe ask her how she feels about it? I know Ex (who was created under very similar circumstances) loves being used for roleplays. There's sort of a running joke among all of us that he's spoiled because I keep recycling him into more and more RP's. :P He certainly doesn't mind. In fact, he sort of acts like being used in roleplays makes him feel a bit more alive. He got kind of depressed when the roleplay he was originally created for ended, so he really likes getting a chance to do that sort of thing again. It certainly didn't cause any sort of "identity crisis" -- he's still aware of his existence as a tulpa even though his different RP selves often have different backstories or places in their respective stories. Honestly, I guess he just likes roleplaying. XD

 

But, again, that's just Ex. Maybe your tulpa feels the same way as him -- or maybe not. It's best to ask your tulpa yourself and see what she thinks of everything, if possible.