What Is She?

[TheDriver]

Hello, I'm new to the forms and have some questions about this... "Entity" I have in my visualizations.

 

So, I never really was good at the whole "zen" meditation thing, I could never fully clear my head, so I started doing visualizations of places that made me feel peaceful, environments that were more or less collections of images that gave me the warm-fuzzies. I have several of them now, and they're constantly evolving and changing, getting larger, to the point at which they're almost they're own entities, like self-generating semi-fluid realities.

 

But they're not the point of this post. The point is this entity that started appearing there as part of my visualizations, a entity I've begun calling "The Manager" or "The Co-Driver" depending upon the visualization. She doesn't have a name yet, just that title, and I think she likes it that way because when I try to apply a name to her it never feels right and never sticks. I call her The Manager because I think of her as the manager of these little realities. When I'm there she walks through them with me and I channel all my subconscious thoughts through her, sort of like having a conversation with all of those total outlier/random thoughts and feelings you have throughout the day. Conversations flow fluidly and allow me to work through ideas and come to realizations in my head, but they're still at a point where it's like I'm imagining her voice, not hearing it for real.

 

Anyway, is it possible that she could become a full-fledged Tulpa? And how do I make her form more concrete (because the realities are semi-fluid she is too)?

[bunny-boi-lover]

The Manager definitely seems to have the potential for becoming a tulpa. The main things I feel would need to happen are for her to develop sentience and free will independent of you, if you so desire her to be a tulpa. As of now, she seems to be a representation of your subconscious, which is often how imaginary friends and tulpae start out. I would suggest talking to her as though she were another person. Ask her about herself. See what she wants out of the relationship. In my experience, giving a tulpa "permission" to be sentient is all it needs to actually be sentient.

[Linkzelda]

I remember someone named Susan who kept giving me cryptic reminders of her meeting me soon in active forcing sessions I did via image streaming like

. However, in spite of her having this overwhelming presence at times, I never really bothered to take an initiative in treating her as sentient outside of those forcing sessions. If she were to portray herself again in future sessions, or just even in day-to-day imagination every now and then, how I would assess myself in considering her a tulpa (without worrying all of the analogies people make with scaling and development) would be contingent on a lot of things (e.g. having time to actually consider contributing to developing my acknowledgement in referring to her, and vice versa).

 

Experiencing interactions with entities like that isn't only contingent on zen meditation, or any form of inward attention towards your imagination in day-to-day activities. You may see something like that rampant in your natural sleep, especially in lucid dreams. But the question isn't only if you're wanting to feel they're a tulpa or not, it's probably more emphasis on your initiative to further your propensity in treating them as sentient. And if you seem to have these experiences where you can get a stream of thoughts going fluidly, and building some kind of mental rapport with your cognition in general, then go for it if you want.

 

But if you don't want to further that tendency in treating them as sentient, you can recall the experiences with those potential entities as an inspiration for what you may want to do in the future if you wanted to take a different approach in creating a tulpa. From my experience, sometimes the dream experiences seem to be like an epitomized experience of how we would personally validate them as being sentient while in waking life, it seems as if they're merely shells of that epitome. And it would probably be natural for one to try and bridge the gap to where the nuances aren't as trivial and mentally taxing anymore. In other words, learning how to appreciate them in spite of who they are in wherever you shift your awareness to (e.g. not really seeing them as shells of their former selves when you can see them as expressing themselves depending on where you allocate your sense of self and all that).

 

And as for what validates a "full-fledge" tulpa, that's contingent on a lot of things, and depending on which standpoint(s) you want to theorize what makes a tulpa, a tulpa--try to think about things the brain can do to generate experiences such as what goes on in your meditation; maybe try to see that you don't always have to feel their origins have to be contingent on starting in an infantile existence that has to gradually augment by the years. Because, IMO, it's as if one is going so far in the extreme in treating them as sentient that they want to create a human being, or something like that where they can physically exist outside of one's own physiological composition, and contribute to some alteration with reality itself.

 

Or another analogue I could use is that individuals may feel it's a one way thing where the scale is always going to have to move forward without any going back along with nuances in said shifting with one's model of what validates them as sentient to them; almost like some tendency to make things deterministic while feigning, or just ignoring the probability that things like free will, and other ethical frameworks aren't as genuine to them in the first place. In other words, they want to have the best of both worlds without questioning the impasses they may create in their intellectual endeavors with creating a tulpa.

 

 

And how do I make her form more concrete (because the realities are semi-fluid she is too)?

 

I made a guide on how one can do that here, but it's not the only way. I just try to spend

(not doing it every day all day like some hardcore people here), and in my experience, fluid would be an understatement at this point.