Doubts of a new guy to tulpas

[raderack]

First of all let me introduce myself, and explain why i want to use tulpa.

I am in a bad situation,father died a year ago, mom is going soon..and general conflicts beetween brothers..yeah a completly caos that left me in a not so good state.

I have two jobs,so i work 13 hours per day, and i study financial management but due to the currently situation, i am facing a hard time to work properly and study

 

So i decided to make a tulpa named tul (yeah,first one),that is basically a white ball with some eletricity around it.

 

I have no problems in imagining moving around..

 

I have read some guides,i am walking from work to home,imagining it around,around street moving,and repeating it qualities..that is:

 

obedient, remembers everything , brilliant writer and poet , learn fast , quiet and peaceful , hardworking , devoted to me , scholar

 

And is that,i am missing something? Im doing this for 3 days,around 3 to 4 hours at day,since i find it easy to imagine it while doing other things..and now it starting moving around places that i didnt imagine with my own will,next cars,or it appear that like the collor yellow.

 

I need a tulpa that helps me,in study,work..memory and maybe some stress relief quality? suggestions?

[arcanemagic]

It seems like you're doing things right to me. The fact that it's starting to do things that you don't expect is generally a sign of progress. The only warning that I feel that I should give you is that you shouldn't be too upset if your tulpa doesn't come out exactly as you imagined it. Deviation is to be expected and however your tulpa turns out, it's your responsibility to deal with it.

[raderack]

So is just imagine it repeat what you want it to have and do it over and over,play with it..and keep doing until it makes first contact?

[arcanemagic]

Pretty much. I'm not exactly sure how the personality thing works because I never really made a personality for Markus. I just let her develop herself.

[Linkzelda]

Seeing how your quotidian lifestyle is fairly hectic, and how you want to create a thoughtform that can supplement towards advancing yourself, and persevering and what have you, you could check out the guide on creating a servitor here. I believe it even covers on how you could assess, or at least speculate on what you can do in the event that what you thought was an intention to create a servitor ends up having attributes of a tulpa (e.g. –insert whatever a person’s ontology of a tulpa would be here-)

 

I guess it’s natural to try and find rapport when circumstances in real life just seems to put you into a complete chaos, but with most threads that intend to create a tulpa to alleviate transitory circumstances, emotive responses, and things of that nature, they end up in a series of queries of what to do now that those circumstances are gone, and the weight starts hitting them hard.

 

But again, I’m sure in the initial stages for anyone, we needed some form of closure and solace for persevering in our lives anyway with our companions. Wish you luck, and if anything, you could always find a way to be creative in adding your soon-to-be tulpa, or servitor if you wish, in your working lifestyle if there's barely any room for personal endeavors.

 

IMO, in spite of how they're created and developed, it just partially depends on how much you want to expand your imaginative horizon in seeing them more than what you expected to be; like a trip through regressed memory lane, and learning from that.

[raderack]

So since im not good at creating an completly word of imagination, im best at imagining it at every day..it makes differences?

So how many hours of work i need to be finally created?