Back on track with Wyrm & Adamaï

[Adamaï]

09.08.15 // Day 1

Soooooo, where do I start? It's been a long time.

I've started with this, despite every single guide's warning, way too early. To be exactly, February '15. I also had an different account (------) but changed it because my friends & famiely "maybe" would've gotten behind it (thanks google).

I really wanted to have a tulpa and nothing has changed since. The big problem: I'm the laziest shit you will ever meet. I can't get anything done. I didn't even do ANYTHING for school in the last 2 years, but thank god I'm smart enough to get barely trough it. Anyway, like I said I started in February, forced for a month and stopped. Started again in April, forced 3 weeks and, guess what, stopped again. So I tought, "Now I'm gonna rock it! This time I must stay with it!" and started again in june. Well, again, I stopped. I'm just sick of my endless lazyness, I will take this approch serious!

And the worst is, I'm quite good at tulpaforcing. I don't know why, maybe because I'm a dreamer/bookworm/lucky-bastard but even without doing much, I 'kinda' made progress.

Enough backstory, now to my Tulpa Wyrm!

He is a mix between a blue dragon and a human, and... Well, I didn't do anything else. Even without my lazyness I wouldn't give him a personality, it just feels wrong. But at least he's sentient (or he was, I don't know at this point). I even got a nice wonderland, but that's another story. Im very good at visualization (guess why I only have a form) but I really, really suck at emotions. Got kinda a problem with those... I can't estimate what people will do and figuring out what people think is just a riddle for me, so that's quite a problem when 'someone' tries to talk with me tulpish. When I write something, I just can't write in emotions in the text. It always reads in a monotone way, so if I write nonsense just tell me to correct it, I'm not biting :)

Now that all what happened is written down, I can start with what will come (aka TEH FUTuRE). I want to force for (at least) 45 minutes for the start per day.

I will try to learn meditation and maybe self-hypnosys.

I will write this pain-in-the-ass Progress-report EVERYDAY to stop me from quitting. I hope you can help me somehow with tips for motivation and stuff like that, please.

And I will, for Wyrm's sake, get him sentient and happy.

I'm in vaccances with my family, and need to be cautious (is this even a word?) but I got nearly the whole day for forcing and no PC for the next 3 weeks so I need to work on me and Wyrm.

Ok that should be it for now I think... I will try to force a bit. Day 1 done, 20 to go :)

 

TL;DR I'm lazy as hell, don't know how to mark something in color and appreciate any help in hinsight of motivation.

Edit: Damn there were so many mistakes in this text!

[Adamaï]

10.08.15 // Day 2

Ok, this will gonna be a long post.

First of all, sorry for the first post. Was a bit moody, heh :)

I made progress, heureka! I forced a bit after the first post and got good results. But I forced not long tough, because her in Germany it was 23:00 just like now. Also, in the middle of the night the fire alarm went off for no reason (YAY \_(^^)_/ )

But back to tulpaforcing. A little bit nore backstory would be good I think. I made it pretty far with Wyrm before. He was a little vocal but definitly sentient. He even made himself a nice looking house and gave me a dagger. I just call it the 'Paper-knife'.

But then, Intried to rescue my grades in school. It even worked, because I had so much luck, but I stopped working with him in this time. Well now I got plenty of time, so here we go!

 

Today, and yesterday, the forcing sessions went just good! I talked with him, visualized him etc. But today we really got *censored* done! After a while he just sayd "Lets fight a little bit" and we made some sparring, for no reasons. Well maybe I trained my 'Brain-muscle' or whatever :) Also, a funny thing that happned: I was lurking around in the forums and read about a guy (or girl) who got a dragon with a purple afro. Of course, a picture of Wyrm with that afro instantly popped in my mind. He was a bit angry, but in a funny way (I bet there is a word for this). I never really got any responses from him without active forcing, so that was another step in the right direction (Thanks purple afro).

Phew, I guess I'll force again 'till I go to bed.

Good Evening folks!

[Adamaï]

11.08.15 // Day 3

I forgot the darn Progress report. Well, I can write it now so I guess it's ok.

We made good progress :)

I was rading some randome post in which thex talked about narration and asking your tulpa which is their favorite color and instantly the word green popped in my mind. Im 99% sure this wasn't me and I was happy that moment.

I never had a moment where Wyrm said a thing at randome. We forced a little etc. but nothing special happend. I guess slow n' steady is just fine for me.

[Adamaï]

12.08.15 // Day 4

They still havn't noticed I'm in the post mwahaha! Just kidding, I just wanted to make a joke :)

Man, already Day 4 and we are still making progress. Today we tried the black box forcing technic but I'm very, very bad at this game. He again showed me something, a secret door to subconciousness (I will spell this many times wrong) or something like that, I'm not sure. Well the rest of the Day was calm and I haven't forced as much as the previous Days.

See 'ya tomorrow guys!

[Adamaï]

13.08.15 // Day 5

Everyone's asleeps and I forget the fantastic progress report! Maybe It's because it is the 13th haha...

Anyway, what did today happned?

Quite much, even tough I forced not long (30 min I think). I was starting a forcing session in my 'dreamhouse' (or what you call it) and looked around for Wyrm (hes normally near me at the start). I looked out the windowband saw snow! Wyrm was out there with a scarf and building a snowman. I was supprised, as you could guess. But the snow was just made by an villan (I love to roleplay in my wonderland) as we stopped him, the snow disappeard :(

Also, I tought it would be time for a real house in the wonderland, I always used a merged creepy house with white walls and only 4 rooms. Imagineing a whole new place was difficult. I got a little headache as a reward (hoorai) but now I got a cozy plcae to do my forcing sessions in. I 'maybe' got a little overkill with that house, but hey, it's the only one I will ever build :)

As usual, see ya tomorrow folks!

(I'm geting used to the Progress reports now, but I will firget them anyway 'till I'm in bed)

[Adamaï]

14.08.15 // Day 6

Today was the best Day ever !!!1!eleven!

No, it was not. I absolutly did nothing.

The end (of the day).

[Adamaï]

15.08.15 // Day 7

And on the 7th Day he took a break. Oh wait, I already did last Day...?

A really good thing happend today. I tought about yesterday (and how I wasted it) and felt sorry for Wyrm. I kinda hated myself a bit for it and Wyrm just says clearly "Nobody said it would be easy". I was really supprised and happy at the same time. Since then, this phrase just echoes trough my toughts. Like you can guess from the prevoius reports, I'm very lazy, so this tiny phrase really motivated me.

Also, he's geting more and more active these Days (and my writing a little bit better). He changed his skin/scales color to green (his favorite color) and created a little isalnd that we deffinitly need to explore. Since I made the new wonderland house, I always find him at a new place when I enter it. Today I just found him in the kitchen eating pancakes (wat?). Was also supprised over that :)

I forged him a sword for adventuring and co. but not many more things happned.

So as usual, good evening (or morning, day, night whatsoever) and see ya tomorrow folks!

[Adamaï]

16.08.15 // Day 8

And again, a day with zero progress :(

As my defense, we got a little family drama, but thats not an excuse. I think I will at least read a little bit in a book with him as an excuse (I think he likes that (I write too often I think)).

See 'ya tomorrow guys!

[TheCrawlingCreepypasta]

Good job posting daily, Adamai! (Family drama is never fun...)

I hope he enjoys the book, and good luck!

[Adamaï]

17.08.15 // Day 9

Good job posting daily, Adamai! (Family drama is never fun...)

I hope he enjoys the book, and good luck!

 

Thanks Creepy :) (And now the only person who reads this PR will leave, because of this great nickname

I just asume he likes this book because I get headpressures every time I read it (just like when I'm on this site). I always get those when he is around in here.

Anyway, again just made little progress because of my family. They just dragged me on the sofa to watch a film, between 22:00 and 00:00 (thats exactly my forcing time). Welp.

But I can at least talk about the little progress :) I was listening to some music and just said to Wyrm "sing it with me" and it kinda worked. I can never really imagine a different voice than mine exept when I think about a song. So he just has my voice (for now), but at this moment I could make up a voice that fits him. I need to ask him if he likes it tough, because I was interrupted (thx family).

See 'ya tomorrow guys!