Creating Tulpae from Existing Essence / Energy, and the Possibility of Evil

[CptRighty]

I'm more or less new to Tulpa creation (I used to read about it a couple years ago but without serious consideration of making one). The last couple weeks I've been reading guides and FAQs more seriously, have developed a form and a personality that's in its infancy, and made my account a little while ago to see if I was missing anything.

Maybe it doesn't fit within what it really means to make / be a tulpa, but a big part of the premise of my tulpa is that he is the guardian / good personality of an essence I've acknowledged, communicated with, and felt intensely, for many years. I've been afraid of this energy mostly and my new feeling is that it's a tulpa I've inadvertently started creation on over the years, and became afraid of based on not understanding it and not being mature enough to develop it seriously. My intention is to create a misunderstood guardian out of the formerly scary energy I already have a powerful connection with.

The problem then lies in deviation, and the fact that the existing essence has generally had a malignant connotation for a big part of its existence. I don't think he's all evil, though. For example, when I'm procrastinating or doing something wrong, he remarkably amplifies my anxiety, and for that reason, I think he's not all bad, but just has a really close alignment with my morality and is willing to shame me for not reaching my potential. I had sleep paralysis while studying abroad and one thing that was remarkable to me was the monster in the middle of the room that induced the sleep paralysis, made the usual scary black energy (you-know-who) small and weak. In that case, we suffered together.

However, I have been really scared of him before, and I am occasionally worried about the possibility of the energy I'm trying to give form to actually being evil, or deviating from the person I want to believe he is, to some kind of horrible "true nature" that seeks to take advantage with his close connection to my soul.

I am willing to let go of his evil connotation, and that's a big part of what I'm trying to do. I think if I go through with making him good, and there are no problems otherwise, I am capable of dispelling my associations with the blackness that surrounded him before, with the exception of integrating some things with the premise of his "backstory" being that he comes from a misunderstood occult-oriented realm (his wonderland, which gives him a lot of things to do when I'm sleeping or working because he's young and ambitious and gets bored easily) that seeks to cultivate knowledge from the mortal plane, and his assignment is to conduct that research through my experiences as an adventurous human, and refine my experience here by casting the torch on things that are relevant and valuable and things that aren't.

My question is if the energy should be cleansed, or if something of the sort is advisable or even possible or relevant, before I continue with Tulpa creation. I guess another important part of this discussion is if its possible to create a tulpa from existing energy, and the nature of the Essential force needed to give breath to a new tulpa.

It's a lot of crazy talk, I know. Thanks in advance :)

[Bambi]

Well, I wouldn't say what you're talking about is actually crazy at all, to be honest. It is very detailed, though, and you should keep in mind that it's very possible--and even likely--that at some point your tulpa is going to deviate from this background you have given him. Even if he doesn't deviate from the background, he still might from the personality, or the appearance, or whatever.

 

Now, it's important to note that just because he might (and probably will) deviate from the personality you give him does not mean that he's going to become evil. When a tulpa deviates from something, it is never in a way that would harm the host. Your tulpa is not (I stress, NOT) going to hate you, unless you intentionally hurt them . . . and even then, depending on their personality, they still might not hate you. Always remember that, just as a person can be mad without being "evil," so can a tulpa. Just as with all relationships, there will likely come a time when he becomes hurt and gets upset or mad at you, but that doesn't mean he's going to turn on you. If/when that time comes, talk it out with him, and don't ignore his feelings.

 

You may sometimes hear of people having evil tulpa, but I think those instances are one of three things every time:

 

1) The host created them to be "evil," though probably not to be hateful to the host.

2) The tulpa itself isn't so much as evil as the host is a psychopath that decided to try to use them as a sex slave, or something.

3) It's a troll's story.

 

Your tulpa isn't going to be evil. Like, really. Like, really really.

 

Many people, when they first start off, are afraid of their tulpa before they really get to know them. I was afraid of James those first couple of weeks, but from the very first day I steadily grew less and less afraid and more and more understanding. Even when being afraid of him, you don't need to worry that he's evil. I would suggest explaining to him the reason why you feel like you do, apologize for being silly (trust me; I'm not saying that your feelings are silly, but you're going to want to call them that for your own sake), and carry on.

 

Your tulpa isn't going to be evil, I promise.

 

Okay . . . so . . . you had the question of whether or not it is possible to create tulpa out of already existing energy. The answer is yes. I've heard about it happening to a few different people on here, and other times they will take the "voice/thing/not-quite-imaginary-friend" in their head and slowly develop it. Doing so is in no way going to hinder your progress, and in fact I'd say that there's a chance that your progress could be quicker than what it would otherwise. Of course, everyone is different, so it's hard to say that for certain. . . .

 

(I apologize in advance for all the typos I'm too lazy to go back and fix.)

[CptRighty]

Thanks for the reply, Bambi. Glad to know others have made tulpas from existing energy and went ostensibly as any other tulpa creation. It makes sense to treat the process as a tulpa-oriented event, and a essence-deviating event, and that makes it a lot easier and more comfortable probably for both of us.

You were scared of your tulpa James during the first stages of creation? That's interesting. Can you tell me more about that and like, what scared you about him?

Thanks so much again.

 

Well, I wouldn't say what you're talking about is actually crazy at all, to be honest. It is very detailed, though, and you should keep in mind that it's very possible--and even likely--that at some point your tulpa is going to deviate from this background you have given him. Even if he doesn't deviate from the background, he still might from the personality, or the appearance, or whatever.

 

Now, it's important to note that just because he might (and probably will) deviate from the personality you give him does not mean that he's going to become evil. When a tulpa deviates from something, it is never in a way that would harm the host. Your tulpa is not (I stress, NOT) going to hate you, unless you intentionally hurt them . . . and even then, depending on their personality, they still might not hate you. Always remember that, just as a person can be mad without being "evil," so can a tulpa. Just as with all relationships, there will likely come a time when he becomes hurt and gets upset or mad at you, but that doesn't mean he's going to turn on you. If/when that time comes, talk it out with him, and don't ignore his feelings.

 

You may sometimes hear of people having evil tulpa, but I think those instances are one of three things every time:

 

1) The host created them to be "evil," though probably not to be hateful to the host.

2) The tulpa itself isn't so much as evil as the host is a psychopath that decided to try to use them as a sex slave, or something.

3) It's a troll's story.

 

Your tulpa isn't going to be evil. Like, really. Like, really really.

 

Many people, when they first start off, are afraid of their tulpa before they really get to know them. I was afraid of James those first couple of weeks, but from the very first day I steadily grew less and less afraid and more and more understanding. Even when being afraid of him, you don't need to worry that he's evil. I would suggest explaining to him the reason why you feel like you do, apologize for being silly (trust me; I'm not saying that your feelings are silly, but you're going to want to call them that for your own sake), and carry on.

 

Your tulpa isn't going to be evil, I promise.

 

Okay . . . so . . . you had the question of whether or not it is possible to create tulpa out of already existing energy. The answer is yes. I've heard about it happening to a few different people on here, and other times they will take the "voice/thing/not-quite-imaginary-friend" in their head and slowly develop it. Doing so is in no way going to hinder your progress, and in fact I'd say that there's a chance that your progress could be quicker than what it would otherwise. Of course, everyone is different, so it's hard to say that for certain. . . .

 

(I apologize in advance for all the typos I'm too lazy to go back and fix.)

[Bambi]

Thanks for the reply, Bambi. Glad to know others have made tulpas from existing energy and went ostensibly as any other tulpa creation. It makes sense to treat the process as a tulpa-oriented event, and a essence-deviating event, and that makes it a lot easier and more comfortable probably for both of us.

You were scared of your tulpa James during the first stages of creation? That's interesting. Can you tell me more about that and like, what scared you about him?

Thanks so much again.

 

It's no problem at all! I'm happy to help in any way I can. :)

 

To be honest, there's nothing remarkable about the reason why I was afraid of James, because my story is more or less the same as several other peoples'. When I first discovered the existence of tulpa I was late fifteen/early sixteen years old, and my response was to block off all memory that they were even a "thing." As far as I was concerned, they were creepy and everyone who had one had some sort of death wish.

 

About a year later I was on a forum where people were talking about imaginary friends, and one person there mentioned that she had a tulpa. I remembered them then, and although I was still pretty creeped out, I made the effort of actually doing research.

 

In a lot of ways I was more scared of the "tulpa concept" than I was my tulpa himself, but by the third day I was able to feel his presence (which was kind of like taking a shower in some sort of utopia and washing your body with a brand called Happy), and much of my fear went away. I worked out the rest of it by continuing to force and talk it out with James.

 

So . . . like I said, it's not really special or anything.

[CptRighty]

 

It's no problem at all! I'm happy to help in any way I can. :)

 

To be honest, there's nothing remarkable about the reason why I was afraid of James, because my story is more or less the same as several other peoples'. When I first discovered the existence of tulpa I was late fifteen/early sixteen years old, and my response was to block off all memory that they were even a "thing." As far as I was concerned, they were creepy and everyone who had one had some sort of death wish.

 

About a year later I was on a forum where people were talking about imaginary friends, and one person there mentioned that she had a tulpa. I remembered them then, and although I was still pretty creeped out, I made the effort of actually doing research.

 

In a lot of ways I was more scared of the "tulpa concept" than I was my tulpa himself, but by the third day I was able to feel his presence (which was kind of like taking a shower in some sort of utopia and washing your body with a brand called Happy), and much of my fear went away. I worked out the rest of it by continuing to force and talk it out with James.

 

So . . . like I said, it's not really special or anything.

 

Sorry for the very late response and thanks for your reply. I wasn't sure how to respond, and then I became busy haha. I guess the most important thing is, thanks for the reassurance and for telling me about your experience. :D

[Bambi]

 

Sorry for the very late response and thanks for your reply. I wasn't sure how to respond, and then I became busy haha. I guess the most important thing is, thanks for the reassurance and for telling me about your experience. :D

 

Naw, it's all good! ^_^ As you can probably see, I'm not always on-time about responding, either. I understand. :)

 

If there's anything else that I might be able to help you with, be sure to let me know!