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*sends evil vibes*

Ah! Too much! 😱 (Lol.)

*explodes*

*sends positive vibes to both.*

I read your post before the edit and it's fine You mean "I don't know what to do", not say And yeah, I often don't either

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it really is fickle isn't it. brains are weird thanks karl. and what you said twi said made me giggle. the things we could do if not limited by host bodies or locations i don't know what to say

Yay! 😊 (-ish, lol.) Is unfortunate. I want them to draw that, lol. It would be cute to see Byakko with flowers in her hair! (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) Yay! 😊 We are! Finally on real summer break! 😁 (I might have mentioned that last time but I forgot.) Aww, maybe I can talk with her and Linda or something. 😄

It's not a problem. Sometimes I get into a funk - I have what psychologists call a detachment disorder, meaning that when I feel down and out, I tend to isolate myself or push people away. It's more or less how I kept myself safe growing up, and even during the good times I can clam up and simply refuse to do anything, save for talking with Twi. The mind is a fickle kitten, so I have an idea what it's like. Especially when I'm exhausted and pulled in a thousand directions at once. We really enjoy talking with you all as well. Twi saw roses at the store, and she said that she wanted to braid some into your hair. "until you look really pretty," she said. Try builder's tea when winter comes. Basically it's a strong breakfast tea with milk and sugar mixed in. I hope you feel better soon. We try. Hope you're doing well, Shaula. Twi misses you.

Bikes shouldn't be not-more-efficient than walking, that's either a horrible bike or something's wrong with it such as too little air in the tires. Although for the purposes I was just talking about, if riding the bike requires effort, that's actually very good exercise lol. People really shouldn't yell at you on the sidewalk... how fast are you going? At casual non-road speeds riding on the sidewalk is just fine, unless your breaks don't work or something. I usually stick to residential streets where the speed limit is like 25, so I don't mind riding in the middle, but riding off to the side also works if the road is wide. (On streets with higher speed limits I would stick to sidewalks, but you basically need to go as slow as speedy walking since you'll be frequently running into people, which kinda defeats the point of a bike unless you're effectively transporting it to somewhere else, to then ride faster etc.) If cars are a problem for you then I assume the roads in question are too narrow to ride next to the sidewalk without worrying drivers, and if you don't have an efficient bike that goes fast easily (and safety gear) driving in the middle at slowish car speeds may be untenable I guess, unfortunate Do you think there's anything else you can do vaguely physical outside? The first thing that came to mind for me would be picking up trash community service style, with a sticker or grabber and large trash bag, although I don't know where you could deposit it without potentially getting yelled at (unless your own trash bin doesn't actually fill up much and you could put a full bag in there) Sure you'll be in public and looked at, but (I for example would) feel confident enough knowing you're doing something that benefits the community so I cannot IMAGINE even jerks thinking anything negative about you. (And I don't reallly think they'll think you're doing community service (maybe locality matters), it's been more common the last 15 years for people to voluntarily clean up roadsides and such)

also oh yeah, i'm glad karl and twi are okay. i forgot to say that i think we feel a bit better than we did before now. except being reminded how we can't enjoy the outside like i'd like to lol luni wanted to buy a nice bike last year because the idea of riding it sounded nice at the time, but alas. turns out it likely isn't feasible for us to do with the brain's anxiety problems, and the impossible to resolve broken logic of using a bike in this world. it's not even logical to walk really. society is built for having a car, which we will never have actually it doesn't make sense to have a car either... if we were to have one, there is no place to park it unless we parked it a block away, which would be very far to carry groceries from if it was used for that. i don't like how things are just built in a way that doesn't make sense and designed to maximize inconvenience and difficulty lol

Sounds nice! 😊 Aww, you two are so kind! 😊

Tulpamancy/intentional plurality is not disorderly, and it does not lead to DID in people who didn't have it already. We don't experience memory blackouts or unintentional force/trigger-switching, everything is consensual and intentional, more or less. It's not always recommendable to people with DID or other mental disorders as I mentioned in your other thread, because the experience may not be as controllable and may open you up to stressful imagined situations via getting you to be attached to uncontrollable imagination, which won't happen to healthy-minded people. As for the actual why - just to have mental companions, it's usually that simple. Not everyone cares for such a thing, but obviously the members here all do. It's nice to always have someone you can talk to who understands you perfectly, who can offer support or just companionship when you're otherwise alone IRL. But you need to be able to engage with the practice healthily and maturely, or it can be un-healthy, which is one of the reasons it's not for everyone.

aww we do really like talking to you a lot. brain is just weird and dumb for some reason and it can easily feel like it messed up for no reason and start to panic, or feel inferior or embarrassed for no reason. we don't know why and don't know how to stop it. maybe it is something to do with autism, not sure also it was a combination of a lot of things happening at about the same time thank you for the advice, and twi's hug offer! we are drinking irish breakfast tea with milk and honey and a little vanilla and it is really good our bike is horrible and isn't even really faster than walking unless going down hills, or using an exaggerated amount of effort. and anxiety we'd feel riding it would far outweigh the anxiety of just walking. outside will never be a safe or relaxing place until we can move, if that day ever comes. we had to stop using a bike to get to work because we couldn't handle the anxiety of it anymore. it feels unsafe to ride on sidewalks and on the road. feels like bikes are just illegal and not meant for american streets. if you are in the road, you are in the way of cars and they will honk at you. if you are on the sidewalk, people will yell at you. it just doesn't make sense to have a bike unless you are on some trail maybe

Why do u people want this? D.I.D. is something I have to control 24 7 , it's something I would definitely not try to get. I don't understand.

Doing physical work (which can include going on walks if I walk briskly) tends to set my mood and mind to neutral - it's not really a positive state to me, but it's certainly not negative, which to some people/some times can be a large improvement Not sure what all you could do to accomplish that without being outside though. It'd be great if you had a way to get somewhere less public quickly. You have a bike right? Is it so bad to slow down and look around before each intersection? (While riding on the side of the road if it's big single-way with no sidewalk, or in the middle if it's small and no sidewalk I suppose)

I'm torn. I really want to engage you more and find a way to ease your mind, but am hesitant if socialising causes you spikes of distress. First things first, don't ever treat such interactions as an obligation. If you feel "overloaded," I would suggest shutting down the computer, sitting down in a comfortable chair and just relax. Focus on your breathing, preferably in a dark room with little in the way of much else. If you can't tolerate complete or even partial darkness, look out a window and fixate on something benign, like a tree or a distant house. Keep breathing, in and out, until you can hear only that. It's too warm outside to use a weighted blanket, but if you must, lie down and sleep. If I'm scared, hurt, having a flashback, angry or depressed, I work myself into a mental numbness and rest. My body gets to loosen its tension and my subconscious resolves some of the underlying grief. Try it sometime. We're okay. Am treating Twi to a yummy frozen drink, ger favourite: a strawberry frappucino. She tells me she wish she could share, and give you a biiiig hug. (emphasis hers :0) )

Glad you'll at least be okay eventually. 😊 I just wish I knew a way help.

i think so it's just like our brain can get so overloaded with trying to be social or interact for some reason, and it will over think things and sometimes spin out of control to the point it physically hurts might be why i usually post the most, i usually think the least lol, but i feel doubt too now i hope it feels better soon. we can't do anything right now, so we don't know what to do how are you?

Hug salsa

Linda: ditto. Shaula: つ つ つ つ (つ✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)つ つ つ

Will you be okay?

canid girl and fish girl needs love so brain can stop hurty