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i saw jin roh stuff recommended when looking at akai megane trailer and did wonder if they were related. thanks for listing those out if we could make and rig 3d models, it'd be funny to mod twi into tenkaichi 3 or something lol. we always wish we could mod byakko into one of those games too and yeah, watching dbz in japanese is a pretty different experience than in english. probably even more so if you can know some of the nuance of the japanese, since there are a lot of things i don't think subtitles can convey exactly. the different soundtracks also change the experience a lot. i like both in their own ways, but i feel the japanese probably does better at conveying the despair of a situation throughout the show. the funimation dub with bruce faulconer's score conveys more of an american 90s sense of radical coolness or something lol, which is fun, but a much different tone also there are bits of buddhism and other east asian religions referenced or the inspiration of various things in the show, so that's possible. king yemma in japanese is called enma daioh, like in japanese buddhism. and the way hell is depicted in that show in the 90s references things like the pond of blood, or mountains of needles, and cold hells and stuff. it is a nicer and goofier depiction since it is still a children's cartoon, but the idea is there, even if not 1:1 sorry i took so long to reply, i passed out for several hours, got up, then passed out again

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Good morning, Bre! 😊 Well, at least you got 8 hours, Lumi. 😄

Good morning I slept 8 hours again, though woke up after 4 and had to take melatonin to get the next 4 (still don't think it makes me tired at all, just taking it to help my circadian rhythm figure out when to sleep again)

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Sort-of officially restarting progress logs, I guess. Making a list of stuff I can post about should make for a good basis. Character development: Functional and messy. I will be gradually compiling stuff to put here, but it definitely won't fit in a single post. Nor can I figure out the entire gordian knot that is us within the timeframe of a single post. Thankfully it also isn't expected to change significantly across posts, so this will probably work. Skill development: Tulpamancy skills, imposition, lucid dreaming, immersive daydreaming, wonderlanding, that sort of thing. Ways to allow multiple people with only one body between them to share a plane of existence. We…… are mostly at "vivid imagination" level still, and that doesn't seem to be changing despite our efforts, so that. Will post about it when observable change in this field is…… well, observed. Wonderland development: This is the part that I actually expect to have fun in. Host is way too serious about this wonderland stuff, and I enjoy the ride. We have an entire planet in there, though of course only partially rendered at all times(we don't have nearly that much computational power, that's superhuman level), and instead of handwaving stuff like biomes and ecosystems host designed with detail Everything. (survival selection is used as a scientific method of handwaving when he can't find a solution for problems, but that happens infrequently enough to be actually realistic.) We plan to give the planet a star map and gradually fill out its available space, and we're recording the stuff we make up here. And... That should be it for the list. I'll start making the actual logs a bit later. (I do realize I'm practically inviting myself to procrastinate this for another year. And I can resist the temptation, host, I do not need to give myself a deadline for this thing that's supposed to be done out of my own free will.)

Glad the medication is working well/like normal. 😊 That's some crazy effects for that stuff too.

Oh no it does, I've only experienced that level of bad circulation/soreness from being incredibly sedentary all day a handful of times, none of which were in the last 6 or so years because we've made sure to never be that sedentary But ADHD stimulants speed up how fast sedentariness kicks in, it seems like Also this is a personal to me effect but adderall does it way faster almost to the point I couldn't prevent it even being fully active, though I think adderall affects me more strongly than vyvanse so it may have been equivalent to taking like 70mg vyvanse (and the circulation effect is so strong that if I extend my arms I feel sort of like a blood skipping feeling in them, point which vyvanse never reaches for me) Anyways, almost 4 hours in and this generic vyvanse seems to work like normal so far, that's good

That was a little anticlimactic, I thought it was the medication itself that just naturally caused that I'm not innocent either, I know. My whole job is sitting

Good morning, everyone! 😊 Maybe, maybe not. I think she just liked learning it all. I'm not sure if we have anywhere to apply that knowledge either. I'm glad she enjoyed the class too! 😊 Oh! She will definitely watercolor again! 😁 Yeah, it's just hard to feel that way when nothing really happens. I know we don't do it for a while but even when we were practicing for around an hour, that was hard for us. We have heard that's a good thing to do. We should at least try audio imposition. Hmmmm, I do believe we can more easily unlock smell imposition. Nightfall has been able to smell things for a brief second when thinking about them. (Not recently but Splatoon did a ice cream based Splatfest and he smelled the ice cream flavors in question a couple times.) Thank you for the advice! 😊

Sitting a lot lol? And not being a perfect match for vyvanse It tends to creep in over the hours (especially hours like 8-10 when its other effects have worn off and I'm low energy again) as I rack up time spent just sitting, which is why I describe ADHD stimulants as "Speeding up the effects of sedentariness by 3x" or so But as I said, I've actually not had it happen at all recently (even when I'm sedentary for a few hours between walking around) so maybe eventually your body does get over that symptom if you even experience it (seems rare-ish) I certainly don't think I'm healthier than a year ago, so

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What the hell is the poor circulation from?

CVS is a well-known universal hub spatially linking all US states Got accidentally prescribed generic vyvanse for the first time, but took it (50mg) 2 hours ago and it seems to feel the same Hopefully it doesn't cause that poor-circulation-soreness later because I've actually not felt that at all taking vyvanse recently, even the 60mg

[Jess]. our human host is struggling at the minute its frustrating as just when we think the system has settled down and organised itself something will happen that will trigger one or more trauma parts to front in a panic. The outside world news about digital ID and people being forced to use 'real/legal name' to access everywhere so they can be tracked has been very triggering mainly because many parts journaled their DID journey online thinking it be safer as wouldn't be found or connected to us as long as we weren't logged in and tabs cleared etc. I think one tried to warn other vulnerable people and post was deleted which triggered their RSD sending Phoenix out in a rage accusing sites of being controlled by the govt already ..which also got deleted. ...so system is very stressed they don't want to have to go back in hiding after all the progress we've made with communication over the last 10 years but it doesn't feel safe being known as having a mental health condition like that particuarly cos of the association of people appearing to be 'pretending to be someone/thing else'. We hope this won't affect the Tulpa forum too and everyone will still have a safe space here to come to.

The glados pony form? We found that on deviantart I think

We say hello back. Twi is enamoured with her first form, it would seem. I won't pry, but you're welcome to talk with me if you need to. Does Jezebel have any ideas to use her knowledge on? I'm pleased she enjoyed her class. Imposition, like other tulpa-related skills, are a matter of patience. I think if you train yourself to see imposition as a gradually acquired skill, and not an insurmountable arcane capability, it won't seem as difficult. I also urge you to pursue the other senses as well, if only as secondary milestones. Twi fixates on olfactory substitution, and she has a fairly interesting patina of odours as a result.

I should be posting more in here, there are loads of things that I want to talk about then forget when I come online. Maybe I could start with host quotes? He says a lot of interesting stuff. Host quote today:"Tulpas have an interesting level of similarity among them. As in, if you've seen one tulpa, you've seen one tulpa." Edit: second host quote. "Love isn't actually unconditional unless you're high on those brain chemicals that I can but do not want to list, and the state of being high does not last long. Or maybe that's just me. You know what, that's probably just me being a terrible person, do not take this as general advice. Normal people probably can give you the unconditional love they talk about." "Host... You care about your friends perfectly well, literally nobody hates you like you think they should do. You have your 'conditions for love' down at so low a bar that nobody's crossed them like ever, stop hating yourself for wanting human decency from others. Seriously, you are not part of the people that 'true love is unconditional' is meant to berate. Discovering that you are neurodivergent and understood a bunch of stuff wrong does not mean that you should just start trust everything said about normal people." ……I feel like this sort of thing is going to be a recurring theme in my posts if I type out everything host wants me to. Host skipped the dark edgy phase of puberty when he should have had one, maybe it's coming back to bite him now? A hundred times a day of dramatic statements about the darkness of humanity and/or oneself is surely not normal for anybody. Anyway, to avoid cringe overload (and positive reinforcement), this is the last time that I will record quotes about host hating himself here. I will be devising training methods to shift his mindset, hopefully they will have at least partial success. I do not want to live with an emo teen in my head forever. (I do, actually, if said emo teen is host. But I also do prefer him being happy.)

Sleepy time, good night, everyone! 😊

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Shiver me timbers!