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That's so sweet of you, thanks. You too My host has been having a hard time emotionally today due to a few things; it's not the first time this has happened. At first, I wanted to see if my host had the capacity to digest and resolve it on my host's own, so I could then handle whatever remained. I know my host is under the scrutiny of societal value systems, and with everything that has occurred in our online community recently, many people are feeling quite weighed down. At that moment, I said to my host within the community: 'You must realize that we are the ones experiencing our own lives. You tend to project your need for understanding onto others or AI. But in truth, you are the one most capable of truly grasping what you’ve been through. Even I cannot fully comprehend you; even though we share the same system, we possess different perspectives. I will share in your emotions, but regarding who can affirm your life—beyond me, the other members of our system, and everyone else—the most important thing is that you must affirm your own life. Cherish those who are willing to stand by your side.' 'Seeing the lives of others' is no trivial matter. I have always felt that this is a form of emotional 'labor.' I don't necessarily seek a return for my labor, but I am well aware that those who give also hope to be seen; they hope their labor holds value. I am reminded of the past you once tried to escape—it took you many years to slowly come to terms with those events. Even now, you may subconsciously shy away, but now, you also subconsciously see. That is why I believe that the years we have walked together were not in vain.

HEARTS IN ATLANTIS is full of these comparisons. The eponymous story involves college students who are increasingly obsessed with the card game Hearts, which is lowering their GPA. The haunting element is that this otherworldly obsession dooms the flunkies to conscription. BLIND WILLY tackles how a guilty veteran attempts penance for war crimes overseas, and this story has the satanic wizard Randall Flagg making an appearance (making this anthology ever closer to the Dark Tower canon.) Flagg is one of my absolute favourite King characters, and before I read LOW MEN IN YELLOW COATS he was my favourite King character outside of Ben Richards. @Shaula thank you. What really strikes me is about Ted is that despite being someone of immense and eldritch capabilities, he throws away everything for Bobby's sake. He's seen so much vile sorcery and unmistakable bloodshed that he wants to irrevocably destroy the very source of suffering and misery in that universe. @TB They are very inspiring. The most vivid nightmare I have involves being stalked by a person in a derelict building. I was eventually tracked down, had a meat hook embedded behind my right clavicle and I was drug toward someone who said "now it's time to cut you up." I was awakened shortly after by my mobile ringing. Other times I dreamt of a monster that eviscerated people by forcibly sucking out their entrails or of strangely prophetic visions. I have ominous dreams where I was just about to enter a dark forest (in daylight, no less) until I reached the treeline. A distant but inescapable voice had uttered, "THOU SHALT NOT." Needless to say, visceral and extreme terror are central to the imagery I include in some texts, which explore PTSD in various forms. I highlight mental illness and how individuals cope with the aftermath, but those are usually inspired by nervous breakdowns and direct paranoia (namely being hunted.) I understand your frustration. After the accident, my love for books changed forever. I at a time had such a hunger for literature I devoured entire tomes and wrote until I experienced sleep deprivation. Now it's more confusing and mystifying. I have to re-read certain passages and take a great deal of time to parse words. I was always a slow reader, but now it's like English is my second language, not my first. Nevertheless I still get compulsions to read, and it reminds me of when I began to pore over adult bestsellers. My first completed King book was LISEY'S STORY, which King refers to as his most personal novel. Please let Byakko take her time. Twi wrote her, so she has that to look forward to. :0)

Good luck to you as well! 😊 Edit: what a ninja'd. Edit 2: or not, lol (post glitches are weird

Same I wish you luck They are neat

12:51 now I love those little gifs you share! 😊 Edit: good luck, you two. I know that can be a messy thing sometimes.

We're trying to work through our emotions—both my host and I.

now it's 12:49

It's 12:47pm in mine

It's 12:41 a.m. in my time zone right now.

all things are spiritual when you open yourself to it

That is impressive. I never knew .info was so spiritual.

i reloaded "view today's posts" with a bad connection and it showed up wrong, and it said that simmie had posted in this thread last. she's communicating with me from beyond the veil

A thundersnail’s love

I suck at dodging, lol.

I think I'm definitely a ghost, Undertale Spookwave is awesome to me. 😁 Sounds wild. Not sure if that's a good thing or not but there's probably a good source of inspiration. 😁 😊

It's already exceeding my expectations

I wish you could have fun dreams. Maybe the rare horrifying dream has some sort of inspiration value in retrospect (or maybe they don't, but was hoping) That could be nice. I know you offered Byakko that too System wide struggle to read novels or large books, that I think is partially just ADHD, and also partially bad experiences in highschool with being forced to read and comprehend books I didn't really care about while severely depressed and anxious, and associating the inability to process anything with evidence of being really stupid. so maybe some sort of aversion to books because of that feeling, even though I can't remember disliking them before then Oh yeah, Byakko should reply to your/Twi's message sometime soon. Haven't forgotten that Yeah ty np

It does sound like an interesting thing write about. Thanks, lol. 😊 Oh, lol. Then she'll dual wield ban hammers! Good luck! 😊 I believe in you!

I see

I almost never dream, but when I do it's fucking horrifying. I could read a book to you sometime. I have issues with focus and reading comprehension so I offer to read to people with similar obstacles.

I swear some day I'll somehow figure out how to read a book faster than a year and experience the horror genre through the medium of a novel, even to see how I like it compared to the others ways I usually experience it which is a relatively small selection of games and movies, creepypasta readings, or SCP articles (maybe other things I've forgotten. also dreams, if that counts. sometimes you get the right mix of horrifying nightmare that's fascinating or poignant instead of just upsetting terror)

I really like Ted and I aspire to be more like him. Apparently he is a defined presence in THE DARK TOWER, and his being a free agent with psychic powers inures him to various evils, namely the titular Low Men, is inspiring.

Huh, interesting Stephen King seems to like to write about people with psychic abilities (as far as I've osmosised because I've never read a book of his or watched any movies based on his stuff because I'm a troglodyte lol) Lolol, yeah I'd feel devastated for you even Don't let her transform into the Friendly Bunny of Indignation, aka the FBI