Visualization Progress Report for Past Week:
I read an online post by someone who trained themselves toward hyperphantasia, i.e, the sort of super realistic visualization I'm working toward for my tulpas, which I also think is helpful for imposition. They mentioned that making an imagined visual body for oneself helps a lot with this stuff, and also that making a static, non-changing mental hub also helps. The "mental hub" they mentioned is basically the wonderland mentioned in tulpamancy guides. They gave convincing reasons as to why these two things help, so I went ahead and made both.
My own imagined form is something temporary that I'm not too committed to. The wonderland is just a simple house from one of the games from the Sims franchise that I stuck in the grass field where I usually do JD's exercise. The house has a detailed floor plan and is more minimalist than real life homes, so it's easy for me to visualize compared to early ideas I tried out and spoke to my tulpas with. On that note, I initially wanted something really small like a container home, Saeya wanted non modern structures such as a yurt, and Verres wanted huge structures such as castles and mansions. The retro looking house from the Sims game was a reasonable compromise between what we all wanted.
Having both an imagined form for myself and this house gives me a lot more opportunity to involve my other senses in visualization. It has doorknobs to turn, doors to open, furniture to sit on, tea kettle to boil on the stove, lights to turn on, and just a whole host more sources of sensory input to practice with. It also feels more natural to experiment with food, and to carefully experience their taste and texture in this house. I'm satisfied with it so far, and it's also more fun to work with it. The way I approached JD's exercise was turning it into a chore. I was troubleshooting my experience with JD's exercise the other day and realized I do ok the first 5 to 10 minutes with it, but would get worse over time partially because a part of my mind that tries too hard to physically look at things and also nitpick over little details would become active and get in the way of it.
Working with/in this wonderland house gave me a new routine and a chance to be more relaxed. I'd keep a visualization of my tulpa go on for longer because I'm not instinctively nitpicking over visual details like I've developed to be with JD's exercise. I'm just letting visual and other sensory stuff happen without worrying about getting the exact details right. I'm giving my subconscious a change to fill in those details over time. Overall messing with a wonderland so far is fun, but it's too early to tell if it's producing results yet. One thing that has happened so far is that I can get back to a state where I'm relaxed and visualizing acceptably even when I've gotten distracted or gotten up from bed and laid back down again. The best way I can explain it is that the house, and the ability to visualize the tulpas inside it, is kind of like a "place" that I've learned to return to.
I've also seen discussion related to hyperphantasia describe the ability to visualize things inside one's mind as separate from the ability to see them imposed in real life. One is, supposedly, not a direct extension of the other. For some reason this clicked with me, and now I would from time to time try to visualize Verres as being imposed in the real world, even if there's nothing but the faintest of vague outline where I imagine her to be. I figure it doesn't hurt to play around with this and see how far it would go or if it would develop into anything at all.
Miscellaneous Stuff:
I've been invited to Amazon's Vine program where I can get free stuff from them to review for a couple of weeks now. I saw this t-shirt available for free and had the overwhelming urge to get it out of how ridiculous it looked:
Verres was strongly opposed. Apparently it was social suicide. It was going to be the sort of thing where I'd wear it once for kicks, and forever leave it in the closet afterwards. I simply did not have the "power level" to wear it. In the end, she invoked "executive veto override" which I never even knew she had to stop me from getting the shirt. It's been a while since I've seen her so opposed to something I was looking to do, it was pretty amusing. I ended up not getting the t-shirt - it had a tax value associated with it anyway.
I should spend more time tweaking my imagined form in the wonderland. The current form has a vaguely Egyptian vibe to it and is one both of my tulpas seem to feel weird around.
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