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It's much easier to think of large numbers in regards to money as its power over things instead Also terrifying

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A funny thing my science teacher taught me in high school that always stuck with me: the brain is very quick at losing the scale of numbers. You can probably picture 1 apple in your head. 5 apples? Sure, can still be done. 10 apples? Now it starts to get difficult. Now picture 100, with any accuracy. Now 1000. Even just "one million" which seems like a lot but "not that much" is order of magnitude above anything your mind can feasibly comprehend.

In some civilized countries there isn't such a stark difference between lower and upper-middle class (obviously mega-millionaires exist everywhere and there's always a stark difference there, but as long as we can avoid trillionaires....)

The lower class has always existed

I think I've come to realize that the self is a unit, and what matters inside doesn't really matter. It's a personal journey. I feel bad, because if it was a normal person, I'm sure they'd get tired of me reaching out for help every time I'm in a really bad spot. Which doesn't happen often these days. If this is a really, really, really long winded way of deluding yourself into truly believing in yourself, it works. I think this stuff saved me, at a baseline. I have the courage to face the future, no matter what comes. Even if I'm alone when the end comes, there's still some flicker of something else there. Maybe it'll outlive me. Maybe it'll die with me. But... If this isn't just a delusion, I'm glad I have somebody at my side. I think without that guiding, warm presence formed from a very different life spent in youth here, perhaps everything that followed would've destroyed me. But it didn't. I'm truly glad I did this.

Everything we have is built on the backs of everything our predecessors built on the backs of their predecessors for eons

First come, first serve

Day 3865-Nowish: I ended up in a psych ward over combat related PTSD. Guess life leads you in strange places. Prescribed psychotherapy. I was formally diagnosed with major depressive disorder (situational), PTSD, and ADHD, but nothing in terms of DID. Found that one quite strange. Had a while to think. It's been a long journey through life after leaving one name, but I found that unconsciously, I always found myself returning to where I first tried to create a Tulpa. Forgot the terms, but it was... whatever the comforting place where you could imagine was. If I really concentrate, I can hear another version of myself. I think it still exists, but has integrated back into myself with moments where I realize I'm zoning out and speaking with it. Like I'm reviewing my own life with somebody along with the ride. I still think they're a seperate entity. Some sort of switch in the neural pathways? I'm due for an actual MRI, which I'll share the results of if fruitful. Anyway. Thanks, everyone. I'll see if I can remember anything else.

So you even the playing field Good morning

Greetings. I used to post here a lot, a lot time ago. Well, I figured I'd drop off one last series of progress reports. Maybe it'll provide some perspective. Day ~4000: Life goes on, and ultimately, we have to grow as people and get on with our lives. I went through some really bad, and really good times, too. I stopped actively interacting with my Tulpa, but it never quite went away. Always present, watching. Maybe it's my mind playing tricks on me. Maybe there's something. Either way, whenever I've been at my worst moments, I still see flickers of the time I used to escape into myself. Unlike before, where the other self was encouraging escape... I hear a calm, cheerful voice. Telling me to push forward. That this is our journey, no matter who's in the hot seat. I think this is some Jungian lifehack speedrun of the shadow integration method, but... I think having this experience in my life gave me the strength to push forward and keep going on.

Good morning

Speaking of obscure 4chan memes, here's something from almost a decade ago that I've created (it's also referenced in the iceberg) I would be EXTREMELY surprised if anyone remembers this

the people exploiting you on a day to day basis without you even knowing about it are those with the highest quality education

I think high quality early education goes an extremely long way in making better people

It's called hypocrisy, and society would collapse into feral war without it

We just learn so fast as a species If only we weren't being mentally poisoned by corporations and evil people constantly, we could create a real utopia

Such is the fate of anything that becomes widely known

Yeah it's crazy how in my lifetime some things have gone from totally novel to generic to the point of valueless

I suspect that while most people at the time found it thought-provoking, you will find it to be intro to philosophy of consciousness for dummies. Still fun picard speech or two.

Nahhhhh im taking your spot as current last post

Andddd time for night alone again

Good luck not getting spoiled. Bedy by time, good night, everyone! 😊🌙

Okay well I only mean to start playing in one week, to have time to finish them right as chapter 5 comes out