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Really, people in your town don't set them off? 🎆

hello! love you! this look most like nott, but nott hair black and skin like black olive.nott wonder: "what nott?" hear tulku, puka, tulpa... so look up and find this. maybe got answer?

haven't seen fireworks in years

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Good evening! ☺️ Apparently plenty of people around here find this 4th worth celebrating. 🎆 I can't say I share their spirit, but I do enjoy the spectacle of fireworks so it's still kinda neat regardless. ☺️

hello! nott want to know if nott tulpa. just that simple. nott tulpa? thank you. love you.

that too, forgotten tails redid this drawing here's the redided version i like my second attempt a lot better. the first attempt was ugly so i gave up. this second attempt is still maybe not done idk, but not sure what else to do except add her kanji on shirt, and add some lighting to it i don't know if her lighting drawn on her fits the lighting in the image though also just noticed the cyan outline on her tail and pontytail is maybe a bit strange even though it is cool for shaula and lucilyn saw this image, seems pretty spot on what the purpose of being a republican politician is in reality randomly watched first episode of baki the grappler lol

I've definitely done similar things. For a while, every drawing I did would be missing something like A tail, hair, exc. I'd come back to it later and finally realize it. __________ Shaula: good night, Tewi! 😊

go do bed sleep well tewi

Good bed

i did this with commission too because when i sent final version of it i deleted a layer and didn't realize it so i had to redraw a couple things i unknowingly destroyed

I know this all to well, lol. I'll prepare something, double/triple check, say it's finished, and finally realize hours later that I forgot something.

what went differently was my 2nd to last brain cell finally got close enough after 7 hours to rub against the last brain cell and form a thought reloading new braincells with this can of sardines that won't expire for another 3 years.

Different mental framing contexts can be powerful, think about what went differently in your mind when you successfully remembered things (potentially larger concept than memory, too, though) For example, thinking about all the places where you normally put food, or what you eat for X Y Z reasons, or.. whatever

tewi read me my drawing books to me there is something really special about me about how i can make a walmart order, think i have forgotten something, go through a mental check list and not find anything i could be forgetting, then wait 7 hours for the delivery to be prepared and delivered to me, and right after it is delivered i remember what i forgot

I don't mind. 😊 I'm happy to read even if I know nothing about it.

it is fine haven't got to talk to you much i think because your sleep schedule makes you up when i'm asleep hmm

Sorry to make LOTPW such a highly-specific topic, but also on a day like today I'll take talking about literally anything. Anyways, going to assume it was just "Eating, then not eating for 3 more hours before taking it", will observe in the future. Hopefully it wasn't something ridiculous like having eaten so much food, X amount of time before, caused it to be absorbed gradually as the food was processed over time or something. It'd be nice if the stimulant we can only take once a day lasted longer than all the ones we could take twice.

i think i'm also at hour 7 and still capable of fast thoughts but just obviously less intense than hour 1-2 or 2-3 however hours are named. i think when byakko first tried it it was clearly like the end of the second hour it was immediately extremely evident all at once for her how strong the medication suddenly was, though i can feel it pretty quickly, like a subtle degree 30 minutes in, after an hour has passed it seems basically fully going and maybe end of 2nd hour is around when going over peak, or maybe end of 3rd hour i'm unsure

Only at 7 hours have I finally started to notice it's starting to wear off. Mind none of the time was as strong as the 2-3 hour peak, but still, the fast-active thoughts thing usually doesn't last past hour three or four, and it's only going away now, crazy. Hopefully this more often is what 60mg is like. ... Whenever our prescription goes through, not sure what's taking it so long this time

your brain finally unlocked the full version of the medication

We tend to eat a very large meal(s) early on days we know we're taking Vyvanse, since we're unlikely to eat much the rest of the day (today, it seems I'm not eating anything after that at all) -- 6.5 hours after taking vyvanse and still fast/active thoughts. In recent history, this is a first for us. I don't know whether it was the food (a ton of dryish taquitos and a donut? unlikely?), simply not having eaten for 3 hours before taking it (even though I ate a ton? I figured that'd stay around in the stomach that long, but I dunno. Also, feel like we've done that plenty of times), or if the pill itself just had slightly more on accident or something. Except I don't think, with TB and us experiencing the same hour 2-3 peak on different doses, that say 10mg more would suddenly increase its duration 2+ hours (and I think any higher than that we'd have really noticed hour 2-3). And the only other thing is that I went on a long walk at 6-7 AM, and then another shorter one a couple hours ago. I don't think even a short walk in the sun should cause our brain to get this active though. So why has its primary noticeable effect lasted so long today? It's a real mystery, but if this was every day we wouldn't have needed to try 60mg. (Don't have that yet, just using the last few 50mgs we have left)

strangest vyvanse mystery of all. i feel its the opposite and food radically changes how it manifests while i've noticed no such thing with the others i've tried dang a bunny muk bang or whatever they are called yeah i think that might be a way to put it. and adjusting these other mental muscles can give this sense of changing environments. i might have said a couple times in random insane meditation ramblings that it can kind of feel like walking into different rooms or being in different spaces, but i don't mean that literally with the sites and sounds or such. but just the actual substance that makes up conscious experience or the way information is processed will change or shift in a way i'm not sure how to explain other than it would be a similar feeling of appearing in new places. except it's more like the materials building conscious experience or qualia itself changes into a new substance even if it is building the same "experience" though it can make looking at the back of your eyelids feel like a totally different experience. looking at back of eyelids 2 electric bugaloo 2000 edition it's also when in states like this that i'm so sensitive to sensations i will report saying things like i can feel my brain plasticity increasing or feel my brain learning things or other unknown subtle unconscious content doing something and resolving. like you are in a room next to a machine and you can't see what's in there but you can hear the gears turning or doing something different. it's pretty cool and i feel if i got way way better at it and could be like that more reliably and possibly in daily life for longer periods of time that things would be advancedly better in every way, but yeah it is extremely subtle what you have to do to get to the place where these weird subtle nuanced hard to explain experiences begin happening and you might sit down one day and access it easily and reliably then find some other day you randomly can't any more and it kind of sucks lol. but i think i get faster at finding them again over time which is why i'm more hopeful normally i have what i think is an unusually good meditation where i'm magically successfully focusing right and doing technique properly and it feels really nice and rewarding and then it stops working and i won't get it to work like that again literally for months or years (though instances of years between a novel meditative experience was in era of life where life was being ruined my external stressors living with other people) but i can see why people go to meditation retreats to meditate 16 hours a day for a week/month/year straight. if a internet addicted ghoul like me just investing 1-2ish hours a day give or take for some months to year can start finding weird brain manipulation nuances i can only imagine how deep it must go for people being really hardcore about it. i want to do a meditation retreat pretty bad. the environment of being at a monastery does matter i think. i could and have tried self lead home retreats but even my meditation teacher told me those are very difficult to do. even if you are perfectly disciplined, being aware you have a computer you can turn on in the other room or a phone you probably feel obligated to check at least once a day would probably make extremely vastly subtle stuff difficult to get to. but at least it doesn't seem to get so in the way that literally nothing special is accessible i meant for this to be shorter but such is life. many such cases what 40,000 minutes of meditation looks like, still just make stream of consciousness typos nevermind, understandable. have a nice day finally turned in commission. it only took me 28 days. that sucks so much with how slow i am but that is faster than my like previous 3 or 4 commissions where i've taken multiple months to complete them, so i guess take victories as they are

Typing too much because Vyvanse Vyvanse: Meditation: So, are you basically saying the meditative state is somewhat separate from your direct conscious thoughts such as "oops my thoughts drifted to thinking about XYZ", and more a state you're upholding with different ~mental muscles? Just trying to get a vague idea of what you're saying

Linda: we've been tricked, we've been backstabbed, and we're been quite possibly bamboozled! For real though, that's kinda cool! 😎 Thanksies for the info. 😁