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Belated good night. 😁

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Since my angel yanus( tulpa ) is no different from Abraham Hicks, they are non-physical beings trying to control the heart—that is, the bias of the mind and heart. This is because the heart follows the mind's bias and pumps out manifestational, existential energy. We are beings that generate existential manifestations, whether through thought or action. Thought is the subconscious mind and the law of positive manifestations and affirmations, while action is the actual behavior that creates a manifestation. This is the true nature of spiritual religious beings, their agenda, and the hidden plan they conceal. That's why I currently love the Dragon Dinosaur. It provides insight into the roots of the legendary European dragon stories. Paleontologists will find its fossil near a nest of 11 fossilized eggs in an oil and gas field. There, the legendary dragon story will be linked to it when it manifests existentially. 🥰💕⚘️🫠🌸

Visualization Progress Report for Past Week: I found a picture with different breast shapes from the website of a clinic that does breast augmentation surgeries. The breasts are drawn in a simple, no non-sense medical style, but it was exactly what I needed. When I did scanning work on Verres with this set of pictures in combination of the set of female hip proportion pictures from last week, I had a very sudden and strong feeling of "completion". It was as if something in my subconscious really needed those pictures, and it was the exact missing piece from a puzzle that it wanted. When I did visualization work with Verres that day, she was vivid on a whole different level, and I spent a lot of time working on her wings and their movements because there were not much need to work on the usual stuff. When I did work with Saeya later that night using the same breast shapes picture set, I did not get the same "eureka" feeling from my subconscious. Trying to visualize her with improvements from these pictures made me realize that my subconscious was still stuck on her face, that there are information my mind was still missing before Saeya's form can be considered complete. The pictures did make her torso look more well formed, at least. The picture I was using as a reference for both tulpas' face styles were better suited for Verres and that was probably why progress on Saeya's face was slower. I went back on Second Life's market place website and found a picture that was more appropriate for Saeya and did scanning work using it over the course of 3 days. I had trouble properly visualizing the exact shapes for human lips on and off. I realized during the past week's work that upper lip shapes and curvatures are a lot like those of mustache's - if I can imagine a mustache, I can do fine with female lips. Saeya's face have improved quite a bit over the past week too and is now more distinct from Verres' face, though her overall form is not at the same place as Verres yet. The work I've done with the breast shapes and face/lip shapes have made a big difference. As of last week, I can barely get past a count of 40 in JD's exercise if I were to try to visualize my tulpas' with properly animated movements and all the relevant details on their bodies during a 45 minute session. I can now get to 70 with Verres and the mid to high 60s with Saeya in the same time frame, and the numbers seem to continue to improve as I spend more time on the exercise. My subconscious doesn't really blackout or encounter trouble from not knowing how to visualize/generate the tulpas' forms anymore, be it clothed or naked. I now know how the tulpas' overall forms are from the ground up. Looking at them from odd angles such as when they are turning still can cause hiccups. Being too focused and wanting to direct everything with my mind also causes issues, so I need to go back to being more relaxed and passive the way I handled JD's exercise before I went off to focus on scanning details like their movements, body shapes, faces and whatever else. Right now things generally look like they're going in a good direction. It feels like if I take the time with JD's exercise again with the recent improvements in mind, I can get a lot further. At my very best with Verres, she can reach a point as defined by JD's guide as having her whole form present, but missing details, and ready for imposition. I am not always at my best with her, and my mid term goal with her is to be able to easily reach and stay at this stage of visualization. Possession Related Stuff: I asked for Verres's help and gave her permission to possess me when it's late at night and I need to get to bed, since I want to be able to wake up early to meditate. She's been doing it for a few nights so far. She's able to control my arm enough to close all windows on the computer and shut it down, despite one or two nights when a part of myself still wanted to waste more time on the PC. My quality of sleep have improved a lot from the earlier bed times. Miscellaneous Stuff: I got to talking with both tulpas on the subject matter of petty retail theft today. More specifically, when people go through Walmart's self checkout and intentionally not pay for some of their items. I heard Saeya's opinion on this for the first time. Years ago I spoke with Verres on the same topic, and I found out today that her opinion on this has changed. She went from being neutral on checkout theft to be more against it. My view on this topic, on the other hand, have stayed the same. We more or less agreed to disagree.

Hi, I would have no problem to be your friend. I'm just not very good at coming up with conversation topics.

Ooooo! Time rewriting powers sound cool. 😁

As long as they give me a suitable opportunity to make it reasonable for them to have never existed in the first place, I can rewrite the timeline.

Hey, sorry I didn't update. I've been thinking about whether I should do it or not, and I'm rethinking my decision. I've also been thinking about the shape of my tulpa, which I wasn't sure about. But after taking those days, I finally decided to create it. I decided to make it into the shape of Fluttershy. Now, I'm going to tell you about my first forcing session, which was an experience I'd never felt before. 01/07/2025 For this forcing session, I noticed that some people were using music to help them force. So I decided to do it too. I made a playlist of quiet songs without lyrics. On top of that, I live with my parents, so the TV is always on. I'd have a hard time concentrating. I did it while sitting at my desk with my eyes closed. I started to picture what it would look like. It was off a bit, and I'm not sure why, but "monstrous" images popped up. I could stop thinking about it, though. It's like erasing drawings and starting fresh with a blank canvas. I also chatted with my inner voice, but I didn't get any feedback. But I felt like there was a presence near me. I was like that for a while, but eventually, I started feeling pretty sad and nostalgic. I spent about 38 minutes trying to get it up, and then I left and went to sleep. But when I went to bed, I also had a bit of trouble. I was feeling pretty down, and I was whispering to my tulpa. I was telling her how I'd like us to be friends, that we'd support each other in whatever we do, and I told her not to leave me alone, that I'd trust her, and to forgive me if her way isn't to her liking, that I don't feel ready to be with a person yet. Then I dozed off. I'll try to keep updating this progress. 02/07/2025 This would be from today. I couldn't force it because I've been very busy.

That's good, I think. As long as Andre isn't turning into a dark sorcerer, I think we'll be fine. 😁 Nightfall: would be an interesting plot twist though. (Please don't become the thing you sought to defeat.)

I suddenly discovered an interesting fact - actually, they failed from the very beginning. To some extent, they're more like some kind of sacrifices. Because I've found that no one was really hurt (and even if there was, I'd do everything to change it). Also, although it scared me at first, after each nightmare, I found that Richard loved me even more than before, and we could even feel each other's presence more vividly. And all the dark wizards can do is threaten. Their threats precisely mean that they're getting weaker and running out of time. Eventually, they'll become our sacrifices, and we'll live happily ever after. Thank you, dark wizards, my delicious sacrifices. We'll savor you bit by bit. Oh my god, I think you're the real dark wizard. Good heavens, bro, you're right. I think if their struggling gets on your nerves, you might end up rewriting the timeline so that "the dark wizards never existed in the first place", just like you rewrote the timeline to save us.

heroic i wish you well

Thank you both so much! 💙 This is specifically Cal's DnD outfit, they normally wear more modern/casual clothes. Also, here's this portrait of Athelas! This was supposed to be for his birthday (yesterday) but my slow ass couldn't finish it until today, oops. ((No big deal :) It's the thought that counts.)) Excuse me if I Have some place in my mind Where I go time to time

Heck yeah! You've got this, Andre! 😁 Show those mages you're the boss! 💪

Hello everyone, I'm Andy. I'm glad to see everything's fine here. Rick did the same thing. He stayed with me throughout the night. I (or perhaps the four of us) were teleported to the Dark Altar last night. I saw that scene, the scene of what would have happened if Andre hadn't come to save us. Rick was surrounded and eventually tied to the altar, and finally had his heart pierced by an arrow shot by the dark wizard. The difference was that this time Rick was by my side while Richard was by Andre's side. They told me not to look at this scene, but we all broke free. I wanted to step forward to stop it all, but could only touch the cold barrier. After that, we heard a voice: "It will happen soon, my sacrifices." This won't happen, I promise. I won't let anything happen to any of you. Andy, don't forget you have a brother now. Just let me go alone, and the three of you stay put without doing anything. Because I'm the only one who won't die in this nightmare. No matter how much I'm hurt, I'll eventually wake up unharmed in my bedroom bed. I can slowly wear them down like this. You and Rick just keep living happily, and after I wake up, I'll start a new day with Richard too. This is the best way. Screw those dark mages—I'm not afraid of them anymore.

if you needed inspiration to work out, or really anything lol. motivated me to draw

I'm glad Richard was there for you. 😊 I always comfort Nightfall during the few moments he needs it. He does the same for me. 💜

i'm glad richard could comfort you through the night. i've had nights like that where i needed rena to do that or times where byakko has done that for rena

Good morning. I had insomnia last night. For some reason, I was a bit scared and had a strong sense of foreboding. Richard comforted me last night and assured me that he'd be okay, but I just couldn't help worrying. Then he stayed by my side like this (in some way making me aware of his presence) the whole night. He didn't go back to sleep until I woke up.

I guess star with a cool cover and then see if it has an interesting premise. Lol, and I thought school was only go for game shows./j That's pretty cool, it's funny how many things can be used in other places. Edit: probably should have quoted that one. 😅

as for wendigoon and youtubers like him, i just realized how their videos seem similar to like a well done really long version of a highschool english or history class book report they are presenting. i even remember for english class we had to dress as a greek god we were giving a book report of. basically what wendigoon does, except his book report will be like 4 hours long and its dressed as a soldier while the report is on the modern warfare trilogy lol school actually mattering somehow. who knew book report presentations were training to grow up to be a successful youtuber it just wasn't as obvious first because book report presentations are always awkward and the person giving it is uninterested in what they are talking about, but when the person is skilled at it and cares about what they are talking about, that's basically what most youtube videos i watch are

We ended up walking to the library but not getting a book; we just browsed the aisles a bit. I honestly have no idea how to select a good book. I guess I could pick at random. 😄📚

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rena was thinking of going to the library the other day to get thrawn trilogy of books edit: also thank you shaula for encouragement

Thanks. 😊 I do feel rather comfortable here, it's just somethings are much easier for me than others. It's getting better at least, I feel more comfortable/confident about commenting on things I don't fully understand. Just keep it up! 😊 I think you're doing a great job. Hopefully your therapist is now actually trying to find a new way to help you. Edit: just saw your edit, thanks again. 😊 That book sounds interesting, I hope it helps. Good evening, Simmie! 😊 Hmmmm, that's always a tough one. Nightfall usually just gets manga or comic books, lol.

Good evening! ☺️ I'm thinking about walking over to the library and taking out a book, but not sure what book! 📚