I think she left u.u

[megazoark]

It already have been about 3 months that I haven't feel her near/with me, it all started when school came back, I feel that all my classes and work have been keeping me away from her, I have tried everything: self hypnosis, lucid dreaming, binaural beats, everything!.

I don't wanna think that she left because of it, and I know that a tulpa needs time and attention, but I don't know what to do.

Have it happened to anyone, and if so what can I do?

Thanks.

(Btw sorry if my grammar is bad, English is my seccond language)

[Guest Anonymous]

Let me tell you about something that happened a long while ago. My tulpa had stopped manifesting her own presence for a certain while, and it lasted for quite a long while as well, and I felt a complete absence in my mind, as if she never existed. But eventually, she 'came back', after me doing a lot of stuff, involving focusing on her, saying how much I wanted her to be here with me, how much I wanted for her to exist. A loved tulpa, a cherished one can still have many issues, my tulpa was always spoiled and cherished from my part, yet she thought that her existence had no point at all. You don't know what can go through the mind of a tulpa.

 

And a tulpa cannot 'leave'. It can go in and out of existence, but the concept remains in existence. One may say that when they don't give direct attention to their tulpa, they 'leave' their attention span but the concept remains. Self hypnosis and lucid dreaming would imply that your tulpa is something of imagination. How do you consider your tulpa to be? A sentient, autonomous being or just the construct of your mind? If the latter, just focus down on the idea of her, do active forcing, etc... as if you were making a new tulpa. But if it is the former, try to analyze your situation and your tulpa's situation, reasons for which she may not be 'alive' so to speak. To bring back MY tulpa from the 'dead', my mind had taken me to an imaginary place, a mindscape that looked like a graveyard. I had to look through thousands of graves, found her in a coffin, and took her out by myself. Nobody knows what a tulpa exactly is, but think about it.

 

If your tulpa did 'leave' then there must be a good reason. Even then, a loved tulpa will always want their host's attention and affection, all tulpas and beings with an ego function in such a way.

[Linkzelda]

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I guess whatever point we’re at with treating them as sentient, we try to be their guidepost, and feel that by being there for them, we can help them grow exponentially in some way. Through our path of furthering this self-fulfilling prophecy, we try to be the epitome that they should walk down. Maybe because we’re aware that we have to refer to our past experiential cases, and figure out what it means for us to be sentient in order for us to feel assured that they can reach this same potential as well.

 

And when we feel they’ve left, or things become difficult to reconcile with, ironically, we lack a guidepost to follow. We feel we’re going to lose them so much that we would come to feel that our efforts were in vain; we create this detached justification that leads to hatred that justifies us into potentially stopping the endeavor altogether.

 

Then we may feel that our tulpa rejected to be our guidepost: someone who exemplified the path we should follow in treating them as sentient. We may feel that quotidian activities being hectic was something that they were aware of that made things break apart, and we may make an inference that they couldn’t bear it anymore, which leads to this state of silence that leaves us dumbfounded.

 

Become your own guidepost.

[NoneFromHell]

Something similiar happens with Alice from time to time, too. If I reach the point where i can't really feel her anymore around me and it is getting hard to hear her aswell, i just let go of trying to feel her for a while and active force her like I did in the beginning, when she wasn't developed at all. This always gets her back after short while, like a kickstart.

[Guest Anonymous]

Call her loud enough, and she'll come. Put as much emotion, intent, longing and passion in one big firework and send it flying through your mind. It's a thing I used as a wake up call for my tupper.

 

P.S.: It's a rollercoaster, stuff like that will happen from time to time, just don't worry and believe in your tulpa.

[T-Storm]

Reminds of of how I can kinda "erase" whatever tulpa I was working with from my mind completely. But then later I bring them back but with a different form and slightly different personality. And I've been doing this since I first discovered the concept of tulpa which was 5+ years ago, so I'm sure you can find your tulpa again if you just put your mind to it.