CoKorum's thread yay!

[Guest]

Howdy ho!

(Warning: my english writing level is around 8/10, I still have some syntax problems. Sorry for that.)

 

I thought about doing a progress report in order to use it as a personal journal, but also to get feedback from the community and motivate myself to continue making a tulpa.

 

I'm going to include everything I need to say for starting in this post, so it's going to be a long one. Introduction time!

 

Starting off with a bit on myself. A long time ago, my general username used to be Corum, but because I was sometimes creating many characters (or too many... thanks MapleStory) it became Korum, then CoKorum. There's NO cock reference. My real name's Félix and I live in Montréal, Canada, and I'm currently 20 years old.

 

I was introduced to tulpas 2 years ago by one of my friends. I knew this guy was already into lucid dreaming, so I wasn't surprised at all when he told me there was a way to create a real imaginary friend. I found the idea really cool (mostly because of the ways you could use them to enhance your memory, solve very difficult math problems, etc.). A few days later, after reading some guides, I was ready to go and create Bob.

 

I know, I really didnt start a tulpa for the good reasons. And I always had a little voice telling me it was wrong and it was a bad idea. Luckily, I gave up 3 days later because of the amount of work I had to put in, and I really didn't have enough concentration to do any type of forcing at all. So yeah, all's well that ends well.

 

What a loser, right? Yep! But even though I gave up, I still kept the "Tulpa" folder in my browser favorites, so for 2 years, at least once a day, I saw the little folder and was telling myself that one day, with enough motivation, I'd make a tulpa.

 

And then! I think it was in the night of the 3rd of February 2016 (that's 2 weeks ago at the time of writing). I had a special dream. In this dream, it was quite simple, I was just adventuring alongside a girl about my age. This girl apparently knew very little about the world she was in. And through the dream, I was always feeling a very strong bond between us. A very strong one!

 

When I woke up, I was shocked because of how real my emotions were in the dream. I just felt like this girl was real, man. Of course, I immediately remembered about tulpas this morning. What did I conclude? I concluded that this girl was already living in my head and the dream was her way of telling me she was born, and she needed to be taken care of.

 

So I named her Nami. Sorry One Piece fans, her name was inspired by this Nami. But only the name, nothing else!

Fun fact: in the dream, my name was Quinn.

 

 

So, yeah! Starting from that moment, I knew she was there and I finally had a real good reason to start making a tulpa. I created an account on tulpa.info, and even created one on reddit in order to subscribe to the /r/Tulpas subreddit. I read one guide in which the guy said that he wrote a letter directly to his tulpa on the first day of forcing. I just thought it was a great idea! So I did the same. I started on the 8th of February and have written 9 letters so far. It just helps me to concentrate on her.

 

I'd re-write them here, but

1. They're in French and I'd have to translate them
   
2. Lots of them contain messages that need the context
   
3. Just personal stuff in general
   

But I don't think anyone of you would mind. Generally I was telling her about her personality traits, or about my day and my thoughts. I recently stopped forcing her personality traits, because I feared I'd give her traits she didn't want, maybe because she would think these traits weren't hers. I don't know, but from that point (3 days ago) I'm just narrating instead.

 

Post still in progress.

[NoneFromHell]

When I woke up, I was shocked because of how real my emotions were in the dream. I just felt like this girl was real, man. Of course, I immediately remembered about tulpas this morning. What did I conclude? I concluded that this girl was already living in my head and the dream was her way of telling me she was born, and she needed to be taken care of.

 

Well this is a pretty bold conclusion, but it doesn't really matters anyway. Dreams are dreams, and don't necessary have a special meaning, especially if they're about something you keep in your head a lot. On the other hand I see how thinking everyday for a long period of time about it may cause some development in this direction. In any case you shouldn't skip anything just because you expect her to be there already. Welp, i guess you're good to go beside that.

[Guest]

Well this is a pretty bold conclusion, but it doesn't really matters anyway. Dreams are dreams, and don't necessary have a special meaning, especially if they're about something you keep in your head a lot.

 

I still think it's better to believe it's true, to keep me away from the doubts :) Anyway, thanks for your response!

[J.Iscariot]

I have very vivid dreams very often. I often wake up and end up missing those characters, because of all the liveliness and emotions that were associated to them in the dream. Some of them feel so real to the point I feel like I've known them for my life.

 

But they only ever existed in dreams, and made a one-time appearance. It's super important to set up a line between reality and fiction. Just today I had such a great dream about some stuff, and there were 4 persons I felt like were really close to me when I first woke up. Like I legitimately wanted to be with those people and do cool stuff with them. This indicates that your life is lacking this type of stimulating experiences, though, psychologically speaking, your brain wants to compensate. Same when you get depressed and there will be a few occurrences of that sort of euphoria.

 

It's not wrong to look up to those dreams. They're pretty great. I love dreaming. But there must be a line between imagination and reality. Once you snap out of a dream, it stops being anything aside from a memory that CAN be reproduced with some time in your mind (dream taking another occurrence). People underestimate their sleep so much... but I know for a fact that tulpas take very, very little part in their host's dreams. I dreamed of people. They felt legitimately real. Does that mean I have tulpas of them? Or merely projections of what my mind wants on the social level of things? What you 'decide' isn't what assuredly real, just because you want for something to be real and true doesn't mean it is. The human brain functions in such.... deep levels that aren't all that complicated in the first place, but it could be anything. Things you don't even notice in your spectrum of consciousness, things that would make no sense to the average person. Sadness, emotions can lead to those dreams. A LOT of things can stimulate those dreams. Say you have an empty life, say you will for self-empowerment but find yourself so limited and depressed... such dreams would make you feel much better, and all those parts of you would be willing to take part in that experience.

 

Dreams are like the mind's rest. Sleep is the body's rest, we need a certain amount of sleep for our bodies to function properly, but dreams are so important on the level of our cognitive capacities.

 

That being said, a dream is probably not your tulpa. I know it's rude and blunt and I am not you so I cannot tell you what you ARE experiencing. But I know how dreams are like. They're great, and when they happen, I prioritize them above all things.... but they remain dreams. Short-lived dreams that bring us temporary happiness until the hedonic treadmill pulls you right back. That's human nature.

[Guest]

Crap. My dreams are shattered (pun intended)

 

I understand more about that dream thanks to you. I might believe it's not that much real anymore, but it still gave me the reason and the motivation to start forming Nami, so I'm thankful for that!

[yenu]

One of my mind-characters (or tulpas) was created after I had a very vivid dream of her. While I agree that dream characters are rarely stable enough to be tulpa-material, they can sometimes be.

The weird thing was that in the weeks after the dream (and a second dream I had with her in that time) she felt the closest-to-me, most developed of all my tulpas. This has faded after a while (she is currently my least active tulpa), but it was definitely a cool experience.

 

There are certainly disadvantages to creating tulpas from dream characters (dreams can be confusing!) - though one advantage is that it takes almost no effort to think of the tulpa as an individual, rather than something made up. Because essentially, I did not make her up, I met her in a dream, and chose to solidify that.

 

So, good luck with your Nami! :-)