I don't know what you mean...

[TreeTops]

Hey.

This is my first post, so I'm sorry if I screw anything up. I just kind of need this to be answered.

I started my tulpa over a week ago. The first day I had a terrible headache for the rest of the afternoon, though I only thought it was because of concentrating too much and such.

A day or two later, to my surprise, Kaiko began communicating with head pressures. I didn't reject or accept them, though later it became obvious it was him. They're either a sensation on a large area of my head or just... how do I explain it... a headache concentrated on one point.

We have this sort of agreement; head pressures mean yes. Or approval, or acknowledgement. It arrived to the point that I was glad when I got one.

However, as of yesterday afternoon (more like today morning), I got another one, though it was much... 'stronger.' It was on the back of my head, and happened while I was narrating. (More like at the start of narrating.)

At first I took it as a signal that he was listening (I just got one mid sentence as a matter of fact), so I thanked him for paying attention and continued. However, it didn't stop. I just kept feeling it. But it's not as subtle as the ones I normally get... It's almost as if that point of my skull will pop out. It does hurt. It's bearable, but I feel like Kaiko wants to tell me something. But when I try to listen, I can't. Of course, I don't expect a voice now, as it's only been a week, and honestly I haven't forced that much during that time besides narration (as constant as I can) and a few hours of active forcing (mainly visualization; I left personality as more of a base for him to develop on).

It's frustrating that I can't understand what he means. I asked him, but I get no response. Has anyone experienced something like this?

 

(I don't know if this has something to do, but I've been talking to him lately about an issue that kinda upset me. That's when they happen.)

[Sake Loup]

It sounds like Kaiko is trying to support you when you talk to him about the issue but he just doesn't have the words so he gives you stronger pressures to let you know he really cares.

[jean-luc]

You can make guesses all day as to whether that was your tulpa and what they're trying to communicate, but you won't get anywhere.

 

I would reccomend two things:

1. If you can, establish different areas of your head pressures for 'yes' and 'no'

2. Don't worry. Just keep feeding your tulpa attention and you'll be fine.