Procron X August 8, 2016 Share August 8, 2016 Day 1025 - We're back, baby Amber: This is our new and improved progress report. Niteo and I are the main characters, and there is Luke, Lapse, Zenith, Midnight, and Opal as the supporting cast (they tend to keep to themselves most of the time). As it is, Niteo and I are the only ones who actively control the body and he takes the most interest in my life, so he naturally has more of an impact and so is most of the focus of this PR. To make a long story short, Niteo and I both come from others merging together. I took the driver's seat and he took the passenger seat. There's history behind that, but I will not go into that because I would be here all day talking about it. I recently started a job, which is exciting. Niteo has been helpful in managing stress levels, thankfully. He can take the helm when I'm tired or too stressed. I find myself letting him do that more and more often at home because it helps me relax and he loves the opportunity to interact with the "outer world." He loves doing the little things because it makes him feel like he's having an impact (even a little one) on something that matters. He's of the mind that having a difference on reality is objectively better because it matters whereas our mind space doesn't matter. I guess we disagree. (Reality, to me, is subjective. We can still disagree and function as a team.) I've been wanting to work on imposing Niteo, but he wants to focus on possession and switching, so we have different priorities from each other. I can see the appeal of switching, but at this point, since I've been in control of the body for so long, I feel obligated to continue fronting. I don't want to put the burden on him, even if he wants to. Also, interesting to note that I had issues where I had voices in my head similar to Niteo's where they would tell me to do bad things, usually violent/harmful to others or myself during the time in which I had made an effort to ignore him because my therapist convinced me it was the right thing to do. After realizing that I was being a dumbass, I started talking to him again (and he was quite angry, believe me). Shortly afterwards, the voices went away. I'm unsure as to what that means, unfortunately. He said he wasn't messing with me, and I doubt he's being dishonest about that. I wonder if I have a screw loose somewhere because of our past or something. Niteo and Amber Take On the World Amber speaks in italics right now. Talk to Niteo on here or on discord We share the body, we share a life. I'm not an accessory to his life... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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