It took everyone so long.

[Dechiori]

Hello guys.

 

I'm Dechi, pretty new to the community but were around lurking without an account for almost 2-3 years without a tulpa until 1 week ago, where I decided to make one, and got pretty serious with it.

 

I read so many guides, I thought every morning, I read NotAnonymous's post on the Misinterpretation of Sentience from the start sticky topic many, many times, I read how it took other people time. And that's the problem. 

 

I was just checking the mentorship program and I realized how it took at least a month for them to achieve sentience, vocality etc. 

 

That's the part that's making me doubt, I don't doubt the existence of my tulpa, but I doubt unconscious parroting/puppeting, so I read a guide, I forgot which one, and decided to follow it, symbolically cutting the parroting/puppeting threads that were on my tulpa through visualization, and it did go great! We sat together on the couch, had a nice chat, I started to get mentally tired because this was after a long talk in the kitchen as I drank coffee, that's how I active force, so we couldn't have that much of a great adventure in the wonderland yada yada.

 

Now I won't say that my tulpa is sentient, and that I can hear him at any time, but after that cutting ties forcing session, the next few moments felt real, alien and great over all.

 

There is a part in the community that says "Everything is your tulpa! Believe it~!™" and then there is the "Take 'yer fookin time, ya dingus." and while I lean more towards the look of the second part, I do not know what to do. 

 

I didn't want to make my tulpa vocal/sentient fast, I told him and myself many times that I would doubt if things got fast and how  didn't want him to rush, about how we would force him nice and easy on my own time. But then, there were many articles about "You are hindering the progress by making him stay still/shut him up." I can't hear him now, but back then, on that couch I did, and some of the things really did feel kinda alien.

 

So my question is, am I being too fast? I just knew and felt like I needed to do this. Can I accept that moment of talking and alien responses as something that just happens in the progress, shows that I'm progressing and that one day it will be constant, while now it was just a moment? I don't know if doubt is poison, or if it is helpful despite how I told my tulpa how doubt can be helpful, yet here I am again talking about it.

 

I'm rambling at this point, so thanks for reading, any help/advice is greatly appreciated.

[Tewi]

I tried to find some old reference posts, but really all of them addressed people with the opposite problem of not feeling like their experiences were real/were taking too long. So all I've got is Lumi's old post on subjective reality, ie what you experience is your reality https://community.tulpa.info/thread-how-hard-is-it-to-get-started-for-a-sceptic?pid=159973#pid159973

 

Basically, you're totally fine. Just because others often have trouble doesn't mean you have to. Don't get caught up in ""legitimacy"" of ""sentience"" if it's not bothering you. The end goal is to get over those things anyways. If you're experiencing a tulpa, someone talking to you who seems like a separate person and isn't totally predictable/influenced by you, you're golden. There is no real or fake, sentient or not sentient. There is only what you're experiencing. And it seems your experiences are going well. If you make quick progress, there's no reason to deliberately slow it down. The more time you can spend doing what you did before, the faster your tulpa's mindvoice and independence will develop.

 

For reference, in the soulbonding community quick progress like this is much more common. In fact, "walk-ins" have appeared much more quickly than your tulpa and been relatively stable independent individuals after the fact. Don't get so caught up on what other people say you should experience based on their experiences, focus on your goal and deciding for yourself whether you're making progress.

[Dechiori]

My couple of days of doubt that felt much more longer, I can't believe how easy it was to just wave them with a couple of right words. Thanks, Tewi. Your words about how it's my mind, my experiences and my perspective were especially helpful. I read Lumi's post twice, just to soak it all in, and the fact that it started for him with the term tulpa no being there, him not knowing reminded me of something from my own past that helped this whole notion.

 

I'll try to make more goals to set myself a certain path since I work better that way and will try to realize how my mind affects this the most. I hope I can be helpful as much as you and Lumi are in the community one day, thanks.

 

I guess I just needed a little push.

[Guest Anonymous]

If it's working, you're groovy.

[Solune]

I guess I just needed a little push.

 

"Without counsel, purposes are disappointed; but in the multitude of counselors, they are established."

It's what we're here for, broski ;D