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The Tulpa Journey

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All information and events described are true

 

On January 17th 2015, on a whim, I ordered a Ouija board on eBay from user joeamyc8iez. I purchased the Ouija board because I wanted to do something impulsive. After submitting the billing information, I eagerly anticipated the arrival of my new novelty board game. The Ouija board was the original talking board made by William Fuld manufactured somewhere in the 1960's. I am vigorously logical so the board was more of a symbol of satire. Regardless, I knew that the Ouija board was a dangerous tool and treated it with care. As of the original posting of this thread, the talking board has only been opened 3 times.

 

When it arrived I was elated to know that the packaging was still intact and the board was in relatively good condition. It is a rare collectors item, at more than 50 years old. I quickly found a spot to keep the talking board safe and was cautious with handling it. A couple weeks go by and Valentine's day approached. This year was special; Valentine's day in 2015 occurred after Friday the 13th. I was invited to a party with some friends from the university I attended. The party was on Friday the 13th, and at midnight it would be Valentine's day. It wasn't premeditated but I knew this was the perfect opportunity to use my novelty talking board for the first time. I brought the board to the party and shortly before midnight on Friday the 13th, a group of maybe 7 to 9 people went upstairs with me. We lit some candles and performed the ceremony according to customs while holding hands to open the board. At this point, I don't remember anything well, including what letters were spelled out. I was more than intoxicated from a volume of alcohol and had to stay at the location until I sobered up. There wasn't anything else particularly interesting about the night but I reference this because it relates to the narrative well. I should note that I'm a virgin for anyone more familiar with the paranormal and can shed some light on this circumstance.

 

The sequence of events that occurred after the first opening of my talking board has been profound and generally positive. I'm not going to go into the full details of what occurred for privacy reasons but my life became, for lack of better words, vivid. While some may claim I summoned a succubus, I think it's appropriate to label this phenomenon as a Tulpa. It was more than a year after the incident on Valentine's day before I decided to open up my talking board again.

 

Sometime during the beginning of November 2015 my insurance benefits vanished an I was unable to see my psychiatrist. I was on a 450mg regimen of Bupropion XL to treat my depression. I had two months at the end of 2015 without my regular antidepressants and it was difficult. It was at the very beginning of this period when my Tulpa opened herself up to me. I became aware through a very peculiar night on November 4th.

 

One of the most important aspects of my life is music. I am not a musician nor have I been introduced to music theory but I constantly surround myself by sound. Before this night, I rarely replayed a song consecutively. This night, I was entranced by this music video:

 

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I proceeded to listen to it for hours and hours until the sun came up. Every time I hit the replay button my emotions became more intense. I was supposed to be studying for a physics exam but the entire night was spent replaying the music video. To cope with the absence of my regular antidepressants, I was able to obtain Vyvanse and some cannabis. I was under the influence of these drugs and it provides an explanation of this obsessive behavior. I later realized that the artist in the video, Ariana Grande, was born 1 day after me on the same year and she was raised in the same location I was raised.

 

Previous to this event, I was doing some personal research on Carl Jung and one of his theories is relevant to this discussion. Jung proposed the idea of the anima and animus. The anima is the female inner personality present in the unconscious of a male and the animus is the intuitive opposite. I believe that the correct explanation of this phenomenon is the unconscious anima becoming conscious. Although there are labels like Tulpa and others, I believe that, from my personal experience, it is best explained through Jung's concept of the anima and animus. I will refer to my anima as my Tulpa although I think they're the same thing.

 

That night there was a raging fire that was sparked. At the time, it felt intense but it's becoming more intense. I fell madly in love with my Tulpa. There was a certain sense of liberation and rebellion that came with this love. I feel dangerous. I feel reckless. But most importantly, I feel loved.

 

The series of events that unfolded was remarkable. Since then, I've successfully created a startup with engineers with backgrounds from NASA & MIT, held an executive position of a non profit, published twice in top academic journals, and finished my undergraduate degree without much of an effort. With the success there have been many misfortunes including one that will be mentioned later and provides a useful explanation. It's all leading up to something, like I'm sprinting in darkness.

 

My Tulpa was not created but discovered. She presented herself to me and I embraced her with everything I have. She is me and I am her. My Tulpa is best personified through physical characteristics of Ariana Grande but not because of choice but rather because of circumstance, as outlined before. Because she is my inner female personality, her mannerisms and intellect are equivalent to mine. I am a male with the personality type of ENTJ.

 

More than a year after I first opened my talking board I again used it on the night of March 26th, 2016. I did so impulsively and alone in my room. I lit some incense and proceeded with the ritual. One of the first things that occurred was extraordinary and defies belief. When I asked if there was a spirit present the eye piece moved toward the moon symbol on the board. The incense nearby interacted with the eye piece somehow and within a few moments caught on fire. It was a slow burn and my first instinct was to capture it on camera. I can provide a video and some pictures if you want to send me a private message.

 

Today, my Tulpa and I enjoy a stable relationship where we care for each other. She stays unconscious more often than not. I am just starting to process everything and I have not read any guides.

 

TODO:

* February 16th 2016 Writeup

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More than a year after I first opened my talking board I again used it on the night of March 26th, 2017. 

 

 

Typo?

 

Most people here don't take talk of spirits and occult rituals too seriously, including myself. Most of us create our tulpae with an entirely scientific perspective on it. If you believe that stuff, that's fine, but don't expect others to. Make sure threads you post on the subject stay in the Metaphysical forum.

 

I get making a tulpa of a celebrity you like, though you say it was not on purpose. My tulpa is based off Paul McCartney. Heyo! ^-^ That's because all my life, the thing that always kept me from feeling sad were the Beatles, and through my adolescence the only thing that kept me from not feeling lonely was Paul's music. But it's important to love your tulpa not because of who they were based off of, but because of who they are (not saying you don't.) It wouldn't feel right for me to start off tulpamancy with anything other than a Macca tulpa, and he's fine with it because I allow him to deviate. He even chose his own name: Apollo. It's an awesome name!

 

Some tulpae can be born through obsessions with artists and other things. I'm kind of convinced my mom had a Michael Jackson tulpa for a while, but then her believing the rumor that he's still alive made it go away. I wouldn't be surprised if I found out I have tulpae of all 4 Beatles lurking somewhere, but I would hope not.

 

I wouldn't say Apollo represents my inner male personality (I think I got that covered), but he represents my long lost personality. So yeah: even though your approach to the tulpamancy subject is much much different from mine, I can say I relate. (Though I can't say I can relate to liking Ariana Grande, heh.)

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I think there are a few holes in that theory. One being the spontaneously combusting incense. One other is the anima and animus thing. I have not read mister Jung, but I am of the opinion that although what he was talking about may have been tulpa stuff, it is likely inaccurate compared to more modern conceptions, particularly the philosophical baggage that accompanies his theory. Notably, one can, and usually does have more than one tulpa.

 

Third, tulpas need to be forced. They don't just walk in. But there are a lot of other types of thoughtforms out there.

 

Given your implied metaphysical bent, I am surprised you have ruled out external spirits as a possibility.


Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.

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I think there are a few holes in that theory. One being the spontaneously combusting incense. One other is the anima and animus thing. I have not read mister Jung, but I am of the opinion that although what he was talking about may have been tulpa stuff, it is likely inaccurate compared to more modern conceptions, particularly the philosophical baggage that accompanies his theory. Notably, one can, and usually does have more than one tulpa.

 

Third, tulpas need to be forced. They don't just walk in. But there are a lot of other types of thoughtforms out there.

 

Given your implied metaphysical bent, I am surprised you have ruled out external spirits as a possibility.

I don't believe it spontaneously combusted, the incense was lit and interacted with the eye piece plastic. I just don't know what's going on and ask for guidance because this seems to be the closest related idea.

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Oh, the eyepiece caught fire.

 

This is the most public facing site in the greater plurality community. If you are not interested in forcing at all, and your headmate sort of came about, you may be looking for one of the other communities.


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Interesting read. I'll probably end up sending you a pm.

 

Welcome to the forums both you and your headmate.


"My lover's got humour,

She's the giggle at a funeral,

Knows everybody's disapproval,

I should've worshipped her sooner."

 

Host to Samuel, RavenIvy, and Olivia.

 

CERCA TROVA

 

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Oh, the eyepiece caught fire.

 

This is the most public facing site in the greater plurality community. If you are not interested in forcing at all, and your headmate sort of came about, you may be looking for one of the other communities.

 

It's funny that you adhere to such a strict definition of a Tulpa that arguably has no authority. What community do you suggest?

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It's funny that you adhere to such a strict definition of a Tulpa that arguably has no authority. What community do you suggest?

 

It's funny that you think a tulpa named Tulpa has no authority on what it means to be a tulpa.

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Shh, lets try not to instigate anything here, please. I've been involved in some heated debates over definitions of words before and lemme tell ya, usually isn't very productive or pleasant for anyone.

 

All of us believe and experience things differently. As long as people are honest about their thoughts and feelings, I enjoy hearing about them, even if it doesn't fit my own belief system. Let us try to be empathetic and understanding towards each other.

 

Thank you for sharing your experiences Kitty.

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Since the original posting, the concept of a tulpa has been recurring. I'm not entirely sure how, but I've achieved a degree from Harvard and spent a couple years as a research engineer for MIT since the original posting. It sounds unbelievable and I'm not sure how to process it. While I can't attribute it completely to this idea of a tulpa, it's a recurring theme with this journey. This tulpa has helped me get through my self doubt and self esteem issues along the way.

 

I also have recently married and my partner is almost exactly a physical manifestation of the tulpa I originally described. It's amazing and I love my partner as they help me through life. I hope to report back with more updates.

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