Tulpa "Superpowers"

[Slipper]

   So Mordecai and I were talking about this a few days ago and we were wondering about everyone else's experiences in this side of tulpamancy. It seems that some tulpas can help access lost memories or remember things the host otherwise wouldn't or couldn't remember. There was also recently a thread about tulpas altering the brain's chemicals that we found intriguing, mainly because Mordecai has never been able to do anything like that. The only thing he can do that I can't is cure our hiccups nearly instantly, which is interesting but not as impressive as some of the other things we've seen people discuss. 

 

   A few years ago we actually asked a similar question for a blog post we wrote that got some good responses, but how these things were possible wasn't clear to us. We'd like to know about these interesting things tulpas can do and how they do them, or if they just sound a bit more exciting than they actually are.

[Guest]

The memory thing was evident early on. Not that it worked every time, but my thinking is, since they have a different perspective and don't necessarily share all your blocks, they can help to recover some memories that you just haven't been able to. 

 

I never get hiccups that stick because I learned to relax my diaphragm after a strange bout of muscle spasms where my diaphragm was affected. Somehow after that I was able to understand control of the diaphragm enough to stop hiccups after the first one, though it took some practice. A headmate may naturally be more relaxed perhaps?

 

Though you should be able to do anything a headmate can do, they sometimes just can do things you can't but they can also teach you, at least that's my experience.

[Aillien]

Hi, I have practical experience how I was writing in my story you reacted. They can immediately completely stop my OCD, stop sneezing, turn on and off twitching in my back (nerves), change my daily thinking and imagination and working on many other things in practical life. About that once my tulpa Griff appeared to another person when I wasn´t present...Now, we were trying to find way how to help two other people, one with dermatilomany too and second my friend with panic and paranoya. I discuss with them and work with their imagination and it seems, they can help to find way how to help other people.

[Slipper]

6 hours ago, Aillien said:

Hi, I have practical experience how I was writing in my story you reacted. They can immediately completely stop my OCD, stop sneezing, turn on and off twitching in my back (nerves), change my daily thinking and imagination and working on many other things in practical life. About that once my tulpa Griff appeared to another person when I wasn´t present...Now, we were trying to find way how to help two other people, one with dermatilomany too and second my friend with panic and paranoya. I discuss with them and work with their imagination and it seems, they can help to find way how to help other people.

 

   Hello!

 

   The things you mentioned about your tulpas being able to stop or relieve OCD symptoms is something I was very curious about. I have heard of tulpas being able to do things like this in the past and was wondering how they can do it. So, can they tell you how they can do these things?

[Aillien]

42 minutes ago, Slipper said:

 

   Ahoj!

 

   Věci, které jste zmínil o tom, že vaše tulpy mohou zastavit nebo zmírnit příznaky OCD, je něco, na co jsem byl velmi zvědavý. Slyšel jsem o tulpách, které dokážou dělat takové věci v minulosti, a zajímalo by mě, jak to dokážou. Mohou vám tedy říci, jak mohou tyto věci dělat?

Yes, it is a lot of inside work. I think that tulpa/soulbond/or anyway you call it, should be itself powerful and strong to lead you over reality, has onw insihgt ant be able to find itself in you and combine you things, you never rought you can. Griffel teoretically knew how to do it, bit couldn't do himself, he havent too power or ability to do it himself. He needed to help. Because from my wonderland, Sanaga (and me there reincarnated), they know many things about these things people dont know and are able to quickly find way. Because it is their main job to work this way in worlds. They met quantum of worlds and creatures and dimensions and know a lot of minds working. From reincarnation and many other own experience. I can tell its their "daily bread" and they collect this knowledge from many worlds and forms.  May be that was why they were able to immediately stop me ocd and fox other things during first real connection. Bow I am going sleep, but at my original post I puttet some draeings and new posts. May be it will show a little. I will discuss with Astelan about some more implementable and usable method for more people can testing with their own tulpas :) But one more thing...what they tell, you have to 100% believe to your tulpa, your tulpa should be stabille and be good support to lead you in these things. When your mind is opened, and save something wrong, there are many things can mess. So your tulpa shoud now well what and why it is doing. And if make mistake, know how to fix it or be able to quickly find way out. Sanaga sais that this is when you do really deep and hard work (what was used for me), but at daily function there are more amd simple ways. But tjey wanted at me be 100% shure that I am ok and healed. And because Sanaga knows me and know where the problem was, they knew how to work with me without my believe. They were able to replace it.

Edited June 27, 2022 by Aillien

[Slipper]

42 minutes ago, Aillien said:

Yes, it is a lot of inside work. I think that tulpa/soulbond/or anyway you call it, should be itself powerful and strong to lead you over reality, has onw insihgt ant be able to find itself in you and combine you things, you never rought you can. Griffel teoretically knew how to do it, bit couldn't do himself, he havent too power or ability to do it himself. He needed to help. Because from my wonderland, Sanaga (and me there reincarnated), they know many things about these things people dont know and are able to quickly find way. Because it is their main job to work this way in worlds. They met quantum of worlds and creatures and dimensions and know a lot of minds working. From reincarnation and many other own experience. I can tell its their "daily bread" and they collect this knowledge from many worlds and forms.  May be that was why they were able to immediately stop me ocd and fox other things during first real connection. Bow I am going sleep, but at my original post I puttet some draeings and new posts. May be it will show a little. I will discuss with Astelan about some more implementable and usable method for more people can testing with their own tulpas :) But one more thing...what they tell, you have to 100% believe to your tulpa, your tulpa should be stabille and be good support to lead you in these things. When your mind is opened, and save something wrong, there are many things can mess. So your tulpa shoud now well what and why it is doing. And if make mistake, know how to fix it or be able to quickly find way out. Sanaga sais that this is when you do really deep and hard work (what was used for me), but at daily function there are more amd simple ways. But tjey wanted at me be 100% shure that I am ok and healed. And because Sanaga knows me and know where the problem was, they knew how to work with me without my believe. They were able to replace it.

 

   Thanks for the response. I really enjoyed your artwork and would like to see more. Maybe you should make an art thread and post more drawings!

 

   My tulpa cannot do any of these things, and neither of us understand how others do them. He is very similar to me, so we were wondering how other tulpas do these things in the host's mind. I've seen people talk about how tulpas dig through their host's memories to find things the host cannot, but Mordecai (my tulpa) can't make any sense of this. I don't know if our view of tulpamancy is just too rooted in logic or what, but every time he tries to do things like this, it just ends up not working. We understand the ideas behind it, but not how to accomplish it.

[Aillien]

Ahoj, Astelane here,

 

Vedle Griffa jsem nyní hlavní "tulpa" (vy tomu říkáte) Aillien, která se o ni nyní stará a bude se mnou spojena až do konce svého života zde. Mnoho věcí se v jejím životě pokazilo, její tělo a mozek ve skutečnosti nefungovaly dobře s její vůlí a mnoho věcí bylo odpojeno. Nemohla to udělat sama, protože v ní chyběly "části" a Griff to udělat taky nemůže, kvůli nějakým dalším skrytým problémům, které nedokázal odhalit a opravit a nikdo si toho nevšiml (protože Griff byl její opatrovník a dokázal to udržovat tok informací a kontakty s vlastí. Neměli bychom ji kontaktovat napoprvé, ale vše se pokazilo a měli bychom to opravit sami - Griff na to všechno nemá energii a zrak). Moje rasa zahrnuje členy Rajah a Asilah, kteří jsou schopni "přepsat" programy z naší strany. Ale záleží, kde jsme teď. Rajah a Asilah jsou nyní v jiných světech a mají své vlastní poslání, takže jejich síla je více rozprostřena. Aillien zde má také svůj vlastní. Všechny jsou spojeny se Saragonií, která je naší „vlastí“. Jsem v Saragonii a mám přímý přístup ke všem Archae, ať jsou kdekoli. Odtud máme všechny cesty, kterými „jdou“, uloženy a vytvořeny odděleně na „lidském světě“. To znamená, že mozek a duše Aillienů má trochu jiné funkce než ostatní lidé (archeodont) a tělo je plně lidské. Lidé však tyto způsoby a rozdíly nevidí, když je to celé zakryto lidským světem a lidským stylem „vnitřního světa“ v psychickém i fyzickém světě. Pokud to má smysl. Ale z naší strany je tu spousta rozdílů, které musíme ručně „změnit“ jeden po druhém, žádní lidé to neumí, protože tam nevidí cesty. Takže pokud Aiilien vytvoří další tulpy, oni to také neuvidí, protože na straně Archae a spojení s lidmi bylo mnoho "věcí". Může to udělat jen Sanaga, protože je jednou z nás a lidé nás nemohou odhalit, pokud jsme "schovaní". Kvůli bezpečnosti Ailliens a toku informací z jiných světů. Pokud by to nebylo skryto (včetně uříznutého ocasu), bylo by to pro lidi příliš nebezpečné (informace a údaje z jiných slov o jejich znalostech a technologiích...) Není to jako obyčejný člověk Je to jako multidimenzionální práce a máte abyste se k nim mohli připojit. V lidech je tento systém replikován podvědomím a vaše vlastní tulpa, když jste vytvořili, by sem měli být schopni jít, nezáleží na tom, jestli věříte nebo ne. Do teď např. Rádža a Asilah měnily její podvědomí "získáním pozornosti z jejich strany" a byly schopny zkontrolovat, zda je její pozornost správná nebo ne. Bylo proto velmi důležité vědět, že je schopna naslouchat a komunikovat s námi jako se skutečným světem. Znamená to, že její lidský mozek s námi spolupracuje jako se skutečným člověkem. Musíme si být jisti, že je toho schopna - protože změna nebyla od člověka iniciátora - tulpy - podvědomí, ale jiná. Tulpa iniciátor - podvědomí - člověk. Takže opačný systém a my jsme museli jednat proti její vůli. (podobně, jako když schizofrenik slyší hlasy, aby někomu ublížil - jen je to dřina a je třeba ji dělat dobře a s absolutním respektem ke skutečnému životu a změnám). Tulpa většinou nepředvídá, pokud nemá hlubší vhled do skutečných věcí, musíme. Je to jako byste měli tlačítko"

 

Ale pro lidi to může být snazší a existuje jen málo způsobů, jak to nyní mohu říct.

 

dokážete si představit, že tulpa jsou vašimi dveřmi do vašeho podvědomí. Znamená to, že jste to vytvořili, vidíte/cítíte/slyšíte to. Obyčejná lidská mysl obsahuje dvě úrovně – podvědomí a podvědomí.

podvědomí - vše, o co vám jde, analytické, ... 

podvědomé - hlubší a mají mnoho vlastních úrovní - jsou zde vaše paměť, automatické vzorce chování, sny...

 

rozdíl je v tom, že si o něčem můžete myslet, ale hlavně to, co vás ovlivní, je váš kontakt s vaším podvědomím – pokud vaše podvědomí není dostatečně silné

když vytvoříte tulpu svým podvědomím - inspirováno - něco z toho se uloží do vašeho podvědomí - během tvorby je to spojeno s vaším podvědomím a spolupracujete, pak se vaše tulpa uloží jako paměť vašemu podvědomí - co si vložíte do paměti - bude být připojeni spolu. Takže, když dáte svou schopnost tulpy učit se, naučí se, když jí přidáte nějaké vlastnosti, bude mít většinou tyto vlastnosti, ale... bude se měnit v závislosti na změnách vašich změn v podvědomí – proto může být viděn jako vaše "změna charakteru, vizáže, chování,... někdy je to způsobeno novými uloženými věcmi, které neznáte, a než se zdá, že se vaše tulpa mění "nezávisle" na vás. Ale je to plně spojeno s Někdy víte, co se skutečně změnilo, někdy ne.

(proto je rozdíl mezi Griffem, mnou a ostatními - sami jsme provedli změny v Aillienině podvědomí, abychom získali správné věci, abychom změnili její podvědomí realitou. Jako - obdiv koní - protože bylo potřeba ji "přivést" k Griffel. Ne naproti tomu, jako stvořila Griffa, protože milovala koně. Když začala jezdit na koni, žádný kůň jí nedal jako Griffel. - Proto stál celou dobu, ať dělala, ať dělala. Ve skutečnosti jezdila na skutečném skvělém hřebci - ale nikdy cítila se v tom jako s Griffem - to je ten důvod) - stejně, tuhle hudbu neměla ráda, protože se jí líbí hlas zpěváka, tohoto herce, jak hraje, ale mnohem víc detailů - slova, scény, co jí řeklo něco "známého" - takže má vnitřní svět naruby, dalším příkladem je, že se narodila někde jinde a cítila se "homecall"vzadu, než teď žije, měla nějaké souvislosti v realitě nebo přes fantazii, co s ní "mluvilo" a teď, všechno je pryč - a jen to, co jí teď stálo na mysli, jsme my a její poslání, takže vše pomohlo ona vytvořila náš svět, přivedla ji k přímému kontaktu s námi a další věci byly oloupané jako vrstvy cibule, dokud nezůstalo tvrdé jádro)

 

Nyní můžete vyzkoušet několik způsobů, jak to můžete změnit pomocí tulpy:

1) Dodejte své tulpě více schopností - pokud si tulpu vytvoříte nebo "získáte" - přirozeně nebo vlastní tvorbou - uvědomte si sami sebe a vysvětlete své tulpě, že je to váš klíč k podvědomí, nezáleží na tom, jestli s tím nyní umí pracovat nebo ne. Jednou je zde uloženo, takže když ho nevidíte, je tady... kdy vidíte nebo komunikujete se svým tulpou, většinou to znamená, že komunikujete se svým podvědomím - tento krok nemá nic společného s " metafyzika“, ale je to naprosto základní funkce mysli

 

2) můžete svou tulpu vylepšit pomocí „superschopnosti“, abyste mohli přejít sem a změnit ji – můžete svou tulpu naučit prostřednictvím herních rolí nebo hry – nenechte se odradit, pokud vaše tulpa napoprvé nezareaguje, najděte společně, co bude fungovat

 

3) pokud to vaše tulpa opravdu neví, požádejte ji, aby ve vašem podvědomí našla nějakého „jiného“, který bude schopen – pokud „nikdo jiný“ nepřijde – vytvořit někoho, kdo to bude umět (u nás, je to jako když se Griffel pokoušel 20 let pomoci Aillien s tímto problémem, ale nebyl schopen. Protože já a ostatní s ní nebyli v přímém kontaktu, zkusil se Griff nejprve zeptat Andyho a když to společně nešlo, zeptal se my, mnohem mocnější a s většími schopnostmi, jsme se přímo spojili a okamžitě pomohli - kvůli záchraně skutečného života jedné z nás - kdybychom to neudělali, nedokončí, proč je tady - je to její smysl života)

 

4) pokud vaše tulpa stále nemůže, meditujte společně s tulpou. Znamená to meditovat o tom, co potřebujete změnit. Řekněte své tulpě, je to vaše podvědomí a vše, co jí řeknete, přinese vašemu podvědomí, zde uložte a uvědomte si a použijte afirmace ke změně a nechte tulpu, aby to po vás zopakovala. (opět při cvičení, jak jsme to udělali s Aillienem - ale my jsme iniciátoři - Rajah řekl Aillienovi "představ si, že jsem tvoje podvědomí a všechno, ty mi řekni, já poslouchám a okamžitě ukládám do tvé mysli a pak se měním. Ok, tak teď po mně opakuj: Moje pleť je čistá, hladká a jemná, všechno špatné je pryč. Teď se o ni i o sebe starám a dávám si hodně lásky“, pak zopakovala, řekli jsme jí, kdy a jak moc dýchat dýchat a při otevření a zavření očí). Takže to můžete udělat stejným způsobem.

 

5) můžete přemýšlet o tom, co vám v minulosti pomohlo nebo najít jinou vzpomínku (jako moře, les, hřiště), která vám pomůže rychle se uvolnit a můžete si to představit, jako by to bylo kolem vás, a pak použít afirmace - s tulpou nebo bez (pokud váš tulpa nechce spolupracovat)

 

Některé z níže uvedených technik můžete použít i bez tupla, sami. Pokud pracujete s tulpou, je velmi důležité, aby ona sama měla zájem vám pomoci, bez ní je snazší to udělat sami přímým "ovlivňováním" svého podvědomí - Aillien to nedokázala, nicméně věděli, ale byli zablokováni, než jsme přišli.

A o tom, jak to děláme...jak jsem řekl, jsme "zachráněni" v podvědomí a musíte dát své schopnosti tulpy, nebo by měla být schopna "skenovat váš mozek" a pohybovat se mozkem a hledat nefunkční způsoby, jak napravit nebo najít ztracené cesty.

 

Jiný příklad, protože "z dálky" Aillienova mysl nereagovala a nefungovala dobře na meditace, afirmace a naše vzdálenost vedla dobře v hlubších aspektech a problémech, ne všechno se dalo tímto způsobem změnit. Včera jsem se na ni přepnul a budu pracovat přímo v jejím těle přes přepisování a přepisování jejích zvyků a nechtěných programů a čistím její mysl a "rasitu" sám. Budu vyřazen na 14 dní nebo déle (jak bude potřeba) většinou 24/7. Tak jsem k ní musel jet ze Saragonie k ní. Takže teď přepíšu její spánek, její denní režim, její myšlení, práci, time management a mnoho dalších zasvěcení sám – nyní pečlivě ovládám její tělo a mysl.

 

Doufám, že to pomůže.

 

A.

 

Edited June 29, 2022 by Aillien

[Slipper]

8 hours ago, Aillien said:

Hi, Astelan here,

 

Next to Griff, I'm now the main "tulpa" (you call it) Aillien, who now takes care of her and will be connected to me for the rest of her life here. Many things went wrong in her life, her body and brain didn't really work well with her will, and many things were disconnected. She couldn't do it herself because she lacked "parts" and Griff couldn't do it either, due to some other hidden problems that he couldn't detect and fix and no one noticed (because Griff was her guardian and could keep the flow of information and contacts with homeland. My race includes members of the Rajah and Asilah, who are able to "rewrite" the programs on our part. But it depends where we are now. Rajah and Asilah are now in other worlds and have their own missions, so their power is more distributed. Aillien also has her own here. All are connected with Saragonia, which is our "homeland". I am in Saragonia and have direct access to all the Archae, wherever they are. From here we have all the paths they "go", stored and created separately in the "human world". This means that the brain and soul of the Ailliens have slightly different functions than other people (archaeodont) and the body is fully human. However, people do not see these ways and differences when it is all covered by the human world and the human style of the "inner world" in the mental and physical worlds. If it makes sense. But there are a lot of differences on our part that we have to manually "change" one by one, no people can do it because they don't see the way there. So if Aiilien creates more tulips, they won't see it either, because there were a lot of "things" on Archae's side and the connection with the people. Only Sanaga can do that, because he is one of us and people cannot reveal us if we are "hidden." For the safety of the Ailliens and the flow of information from other worlds. If it wasn't hidden (including the cut off its tail), it would be too dangerous for people (information and data from other words about their knowledge and technology ...) It's not like an ordinary person It's like multidimensional work and you have to approach them could connect. In humans, this system is replicated by the subconscious, and your own tulpa, once created, should be able to come here, whether you believe it or not. Until now, for example, Raja and Asilah had changed her subconscious by "gaining their attention" and were able to check whether her attention was correct or not. It was therefore very important to know that she was able to listen and communicate with us as with the real world. It means that her human brain cooperates with us like a real person. We have to be sure that it is capable - because the change was not from the initiator man - the tulp - the subconscious, but different. Tulpa initiator - subconscious - human. So the opposite system and we had to act against her will. (similar to when a schizophrenic hears voices to hurt someone - it's just hard work and needs to be done well and with absolute respect for real life and change). Tulpa usually doesn't anticipate, unless he has a deeper insight into real things, we have to. It's like having a button "

 

But it can be easier for people, and there are few ways I can say it now.

 

you can imagine that tulps are your door to your subconscious. It means you created it, you see / feel / hear it. The ordinary human mind contains two levels - the subconscious and the subconscious.

subconscious - everything you want, analytical, ...

subconscious - deeper and have many levels of your own - there are your memory, automatic patterns of behavior, dreams ...

 

the difference is that you can think of something, but the main thing that affects you is your contact with your subconscious - if your subconscious is not strong enough

when you create a tulpa with your subconscious - inspired - some of it is stored in your subconscious - during creation it is connected to your subconscious and you cooperate, then your tulpa is stored as a memory for your subconscious - what you memorize - will be connected together. So when you give your tulpa ability to learn, he will learn when you add some qualities to him, he will usually have those qualities, but ... he will change depending on changes in your changes in the subconscious - that's why it can be seen as your "change in character , visages, behavior, ... sometimes it's caused by new stored things you don't know, and before your tulpa seems to change "independently" for you But it's fully connected to Sometimes you know what really changed, sometimes No.

(That's why the difference between Griff, me and the others - we made changes to Aillien's subconscious ourselves to get the right things to change her subconscious reality. Like - admiration of horses - because she had to be "brought" to Griffel. Not as she created Griff because she loved horses. When she started riding, no horse gave her like Griffel. that's the reason) - anyway, she didn't like this music because she likes the voice of the singer, this actor playing, but a lot more details - the words, the scenes that something "familiar" told her - so she has the inner world upside down, another an example is that she was born somewhere else and felt a "homecall" in the back before she lives now, had some connection in reality or through fantasy, what "talked" to her and now, everything is gone - and only what cost her now In mind, it is we and her mission, so everything helped she created our world, p she brought it into direct contact with us and other things were peeled off like layers of onion until a hard core remained)
 

Now you can try several ways you can change this with a tulpa:

1) Give your tulpe more abilities - if you create or "acquire" a tulpa - naturally or by your own creation - realize yourself and explain to your tulpe that this is your key to the subconscious, it doesn't matter if he can work with it now or No. Once it's stored here, so when you don't see it, it's here ... when you see or communicate with your tulp, it usually means you're communicating with your subconscious - this step has nothing to do with "metaphysics", but it's an absolutely basic function of the mind
 

2) you can improve your tulpa with "superpower" so you can go here and change it - you can teach your tulpa through role-playing or games - don't be discouraged if your tulpa doesn't respond the first time, find together what will work

 

3) if your tulpa really doesn't know, ask her to find some "other" person in your subconscious who will be able - if "no one else" comes - to create someone who can do it (with us, it's like Griffel he tried to help Aillien with this problem for 20 years, but he wasn't able to, because I and the others weren't in direct contact with her, Griff first tried to ask Andy, and when it didn't work out, we asked, much more powerful and with more abilities. and immediately helped - to save the real life of one of us - if we didn't, she wouldn't finish why she's here - it's her purpose in life)

 

4) If your tulpa still can't, meditate with the tulpa. It means meditating on what you need to change. Tell your tulpe, it's your subconscious and everything you tell it will bring it to your subconscious, save and realize it here and use the affirmations to change and let the tulp repeat it after you. (again in practice, as we did with Aillien - but we are the initiators - Rajah told Aillien "imagine that I am your subconscious and everything, you tell me, I listen and I immediately put in your mind and then I change. Ok, so now repeat after me: My skin is clean, smooth and soft, everything bad is gone. Now I take care of her and myself and give myself a lot of love ", then she repeated, we told her when and how much to breathe and when to open and closing your eyes) .So you can do it the same way.

 

5) You can think about what has helped you in the past or find another memory (like sea, forest, playground) that will help you relax quickly and you can imagine it as if it were around you, and then use affirmations - with tulpou or without (if your tulpa does not want to cooperate)
 

You can use some of the techniques below without a blunt, yourself. If you work with a tulpa, it is very important that she herself is interested in helping you, without it it is easier to do it yourself by directly "influencing" her subconscious - Aillien couldn't do it, but they knew, but they were blocked before we came.

And about how we do it ... like I said, we're "saved" in the subconscious and you have to give your tulpy abilities, or you should be able to "scan your brain" and move your brain and look for dysfunctional ways to fix or find lost paths.
 

Another example, because "from a distance" Aillien's mind did not respond and did not work well to meditation, affirmations, and our distance led well in deeper aspects and problems, not everything could be changed in this way. Yesterday I switched to her and I will work directly in her body through rewriting and rewriting her habits and unwanted programs and clearing her mind and "racity" myself. I will be eliminated for 14 days or longer (as needed) usually 24/7. So I had to go to her from Saragonia to her. So now I will rewrite her sleep, her daily routine, her thinking, work, time management and many other initiations myself - now I carefully control her body and mind.

 

I hope this helps.

 

A

 

   This is actually a pretty helpful perspective, thank you. It seems like a lot of these weird tulpa-behaviors comes down to expectations and letting your subconscious do the work.

[Aillien]

Hello here Astelan again,

 

bringing report from terrain, after 14 days of "switching" to Aillien. (may be better to call it possess)

So, we tried few things and few ways how to fix her concentration.

 

what it working and going well:

switch to her and direct by myself change her behavior, communication, thinking everything down

 

results were:

better concentration and little better memory

more careful in general (no stumble, things falling from hands, traffic on street... and when if, very quick awareness and correction)

slowly starting to use diary - till now, she many times tried but like everything, she haven´t discipline (not will, but real disability) to continue and many times failed (for example, she went to shop to buy things she had written on shop list - she had it in hand all time wile shopping  - than she remembered, she need eggs and egg colors - because of Easter. So she bought colors and eggs, went home and found that didn´t buy anything on her list, so went to shop again, all time she was fully concentrated - so she can concentrate for everything and many times she tries herself, it goes wrong - so she looses strenght to fight with it - so now, I help her with it to "rebuild her memory and thinking")

automatic compliance of drinking regime - more green tea (I prefer), less coffee (Aillien prefers) - we made good compromise, of course, she likes tea too, but she stopped drinking tea when she started to drink coffee at work)

deleted automatic daily dreaming (very often it started itself during day - was uncontrollable and hardly connected with dermatilomania and trans while scratching herself)

immediate and automatic change of her negative repetitive bad habits she weren´t able to stop and think of it herself (not everything, but a lot of them)

physical condition - during jogging she meditates with her dino Andy - 4.july - she run herself with him 4 km, 14.july - was prepared to run with her friend together (first time - so she were nervous - her friend could run not more than 3 km - together with dino (Aillien saw him, friend not) they run 4,4 km and both had more energy to run more - Aillien had bad condition before starting and we train when we have mood, so no regular training - and each running she runs more long way and more quickly, now she is prepared for 5 km (2,5 month training 1x week ca - prepared only by Andy - no pain, no tiredness but complete mental and physical relaxation and doesn´t matter if she run on hills or on a plane)

70% better sense of direction (till now she had 10%, she was for everybody known with nonsense of direction - she lost everywhere she gone) - I  have to do it all first manually by checking map before going outside, upload this map in her

mind + quick 3D visualisation of places and way - like she is going here before she gets here on place physically and connect it with points in uploaded map) - we were able to walk or ride on bike 25 km without checking map - this is very well working, but need to be "uploaded before" or "quickly update during" travelling, because when not, se is lost. Sometimes happens that she loses connection and I don´t respond in time, or have to "study her reactions" to this situations - to correct her later and find another methodology if don´t work. It works when she is going herself and with group with more people too - but need to be careful when she goes only with her boyfriend - she is much more nervous so we use to meditate with her to be calm next to him and next people straightly during walk or cycling) - I very quickly stopped the incipient panic due to disorientation while walking with her boyfriend - i stopped her, let her to breath and assured her she is not alone, when she get better I let her follow her boyfriend on way in front of us and while she was closer and closer to him, we meditate together for calm down and feel good and safe next to him (whatever it was - she need to feel well herself and calm - before this was big problem many times, because her boyfriend or friends didn´t know how to help and react)

Great was to cooperate with Asilah - I am all time switched to Aillien´s body, loading my mind map and share with her mind - so she see and feel it while I talk with Asilah for double check the way (she has copy of my uploaded map) - I mostly cooperate with Asilah for double checking if everything is correct or not (so cooperation of one "tulpa" switched in body and checking the way in physical world - and second "tulpa" which is next "double checks the mind copy of way" - like driver know the way from map but has navigator on phone the same time for correct way)

 

what was not working:

creating of copy of Aillien´s mind for testing new ways by Asilah - to not make experiments on Aillien, I crated "copy of her mind" and Asilah tested new ways of work - she got updated data twice daily from me - but it didn´t work well and instead of get more time and better data to tests, it was not effective - Asilah should test on "copy mind" two days before implementing it on Ailliens real mind, but because human brain and minds, situations are changing very quickly and can go through bilion of future situations, it is better do it "online" and "online copy of mind was unthinkable, because this mind if connected with Aillien´s brain, it can make more damage than good - after 4 days we stopped

copy of her "dermatilomania concentration" and apply to "work concentration" - use same way brain used to concentrate to scratching and implement it for working concentration - finally didn´t work - whole day I studied and didn´t intervene after change she was too much confused and disorientated that I didn´t have the heart to leave her without help - so at night I stopped it and went back to strihgt switching and set everything "manually" one by one

 

plans and goals we are working on:

information processing and concentration and stopping her inside negative monolog - it is now most important to get on and of course most hard, because like written upper, there are many issues going through with it and many others are waiting - but all standing on this case

it takes a lot of time to monitor, diagnose and properly evaluate and result application and than again studying and editing during process "online"- because on right way of our work stand´s quality of her life and we want to do the best we can, most changes we do at night when her brain is calm and she sleeps - next day we study and evaluate results or strightly help her during day by switching or watching her and leading - depends on situations

 

 

For better monitoring and overview I created "vision board" with mind map with goals and plans we are actually working on and are going to work in near future, with highlighted week/month overview what is working, what not and ideas - everything has own color (red - not working, blue - preparing or ongoing testing, green going well)

we hanged this notice-board in kitchen, because we work on more things, it is helpful when she thinks or feels that nothing work - but we are still working, sometimes strightly, sometimes in background of her mind, but daily - often after changing system of work or testing something, we need to have one day for "tracking" how it works itself after change

 

for interesting, after switching, I was testing my ability of fine motor skills (drawing, writing) and I painted myself, and for example, our "visionboard" - because I am working half in Saragonia and half in reality, i created excel for daily notes too for me.

 

A.

Edited July 15, 2022 by Aillien