Do you miss being alone in your body?

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18 hours ago, M-M System said:

[Mason:] No, I do not. Back in the early days of discovering my systemhood, the idea of sharing my mind and body with someone else, let alone more than one other person, was terrifying to the point where it caused the relationship I had between me and my headmates to become toxic, as I constantly regretted and lamented my fate with them, along with taking my anger out on them in the process. Now, the idea of not having my system is just as distressing, if not moreso, than the stress and pain I felt over being plural in the past. I've been aware of my plurality for three years now, and I honestly generally find a lot of comfort in it. 

 

35 minutes ago, Pleeb said:

Definitely not; by contrast, a few times when chess has been quiet for a while and I wouldn't get an answer if I randomly said something or didn't have her commentating on a thought felt incredibly quiet in my own head.
 

Of course it's not like we're constantly talking to each other every waking moment, and there's plenty of times when we give each other space but she's usually the first person I say good morning to and I'm hanging out with her in the wonderland when trying to fall asleep.

 

It's kind of like if you've used one computer monitor your whole life you don't really know what you're missing, but then when you start using two monitors, it's very difficult to go back to one.

Thanks guys! I loved reading those, very agreeable/relatable of course. Even though my tulpa isn't verbally responsive yet, I would never go back if given the choice. 

[MadMax]

There are times when I feel my privacy being violated, or I can't tell if this thought I had was mine, or hers. It's almost like having. A live-in psychic roommate. That can comment on everything you think. 

 

But the expierence, and level of communication between host and tulpa differs from system to system. So my expierence is most likely much different than the next person's. You are only limited by your imagination. 

 

There are times my tulpa isn't on the forefront of my mind. She could go for weeks without making her presence known, and then all of a sudden I hear a random thought or comment or she asks a question and I'm like,"oh there you are, I've missd you,"lol. 

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2 minutes ago, MadMax said:

There are times when I feel my privacy being violated, or I can't tell if this thought I had was mine, or hers. It's almost like having. A live-in psychic roommate. That can comment on everything you think. 

Yeah, the one thing i mainly worry about is privacy invasion, but even then I’m not too concerned about it. I feel like i don't have anything to hide, and I think my tulpa probably wont insert herself in anything that’s uncomfortable for me.

 

9 minutes ago, MadMax said:

There are times my tulpa isn't on the forefront of my mind. She could go for weeks without making her presence known, and then all of a sudden I hear a random thought or comment or she asks a question and I'm like,"oh there you are, I've missd you,"lol. 

Thats also something that worries me sometimes, is if my tulpa just wont be as talkative at one point and that ill start worrying that she either left, or doesn’t like me anymore, etc etc. thankfully, your tulpa wasn't gone! That’ll probably be the same case for me and my tulpa if that happens, ill just be getting myself worked up over nothing lol 

 

[MadMax]

15 hours ago, Editt said:

Yeah, the one thing i mainly worry about is privacy invasion, but even then I’m not too concerned about it. I feel like i don't have anything to hide, and I think my tulpa probably wont insert herself in anything that’s uncomfortable for me.

 

Thats also something that worries me sometimes, is if my tulpa just wont be as talkative at one point and that ill start worrying that she either left, or doesn’t like me anymore, etc etc. thankfully, your tulpa wasn't gone! That’ll probably be the same case for me and my tulpa if that happens, ill just be getting myself worked up over nothing lol 

 

My tulpa started out as a NSFW fantacy and sorta developed from there. At first I welcomed the invasion of privacy, I found it kinky. But then other times lt was embarrassing, imagine having a conversation with a female co-worker and here your nude female tulpa stats making comments lewd comments about her that I didn't think of myself. It can be extremely off putting. 

 

On the other hand, after the first two weeks of realizing my tulpa's sentience, she disappears for like a day. Finally she came back having had a "vacation" and told me to stop using her as a sex object. 

 

I don't get the feeling she would, or even could, ever leave me. But you never know. Maybe Thoes times when she isn't actually at the forefront of my mind she is actually somewhere else? She jokes with me that I don't know if she is actually a tulpa or a "soulbound" (an entity that existed way before I was even born, and has chosen me to communicate and live with). Either way. I'm glad to see her when she comes back. 

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19 minutes ago, MadMax said:

I don't get the feeling she would, or even could, ever leave me. But you never know. 

I agree, I’m fairly certain that my tulpa wouldn't leave me. I feel like there wouldn't really be a reason for her to leave, you know? Obviously if she wants to, i gotta let her, but i don't ever see that happening. 

 

22 minutes ago, MadMax said:

My tulpa started out as a NSFW fantacy and sorta developed from there. At first I welcomed the invasion of privacy, I found it kinky. But then other times lt was embarrassing, imagine having a conversation with a female co-worker and here your nude female tulpa stats making comments lewd comments about her that I didn't think of myself. It can be extremely off putting. 

Oh yeah, that would definitely be embarrassing, i get you. Im creating my tulpa to be a fairly outroverted person, (unlike me), so I'm expecting her to make little comments and such on things i encounter throughout the day. Thankfully though, I'm not expecting them to be anything like that. I don't think she would want to make me uncomfy in any way, as i would be the same towards her. 

Glad to see you and your tulpa are alright in the end though. 

[MadMax]

56 minutes ago, Editt said:

thankfully though, I'm not expecting them to be anything like that. 

Yah, char was born out of a very extroverted and mischievous BDSM Domme. So it is very within her original frame to be extremely embarrassing to me. Crafting a tulpa with the care, patience and thoughtfulness you are pouring into the effort will definatly reflect in their personality. VS my expierence, lol.

[Arhimiel]

Answering the question in the topic title - You can stay alone for a while in own body , because Tulpa can go about her business. For example something to do at Wonderland and the like.
In others cases very individual. Of course, most people get mostly positive things. But, ask the same person who had a latent form of schizophrenia, i don't think he has anything positive to say. =/ 
 

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4 hours ago, Arhimiel said:

Answering the question in the topic title - You can stay alone for a while in own body , because Tulpa can go about her business. For example something to do at Wonderland and the like.

Yeah, when I was thinking about it, I thought “well, my tulpa could also go to the wonderland if I wanted to be alone. Or I could simply ask to leave me alone for a moment.” It isn’t like she’ll always be talking and listening—there will be times that I can be alone. 
 

4 hours ago, Arhimiel said:

In others cases very individual. Of course, most people get mostly positive things. But, ask the same person who had a latent form of schizophrenia, i don't think he has anything positive to say. =/ 

Oh yeah, it’s definitely an individualistic experience. Every system is different. 
i feel like my experience with having a Tulpa will only bring positive things into my life, for sure. 
 

[Charlotte Constance]

Remember, your tulpa isn't a toy to be shoved back in the closet. They are a person with thoughts and feelings. You can't press pause on that movie. If they are addressing you, you shouldn't ignore them or be annoyed at them. You can ask for quiet time. But you might not like the answer. 

 

There are time I catch max off guard with that. He forgets I exist, then is surprised when I start into my opinion about something. Good luck on your journey. 

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15 minutes ago, Cinder_Lioness said:

Remember, your tulpa isn't a toy to be shoved back in the closet. They are a person with thoughts and feelings. You can't press pause on that movie. If they are addressing you, you shouldn't ignore them or be annoyed at them. You can ask for quiet time. But you might not like the answer. 

Yes, thank you! I know even if I were to ask my tulpa to be alone, I can’t actually make them leave me alone, I’m totally aware and prepared to give a big chunk of my time to my tulpa. 
i know that they are their own person, and I wouldn’t try to make my tulpa do anything that I wouldn’t like if I was a tulpa.

 

19 minutes ago, Cinder_Lioness said:

There are time I catch max off guard with that. He forgets I exist, then is surprised when I start into my opinion about something. Good luck on your journey. 

Yeah, my tulpa has only responded to me once, and it was in tulpish, but it definitely caught me off guard haha.

 

And thanks again!