Do you miss being alone in your body?

[Etna]

On 3/27/2023 at 11:51 PM, Pleeb said:

Of course it's not like we're constantly talking to each other every waking moment, and there's plenty of times when we give each other space but she's usually the first person I say good morning to and I'm hanging out with her in the wonderland when trying to fall asleep.

 

This, pretty much.

 

On 3/27/2023 at 11:51 PM, Pleeb said:

It's kind of like if you've used one computer monitor your whole life you don't really know what you're missing, but then when you start using two monitors, it's very difficult to go back to one.

 

This is so true. I have a dual screen setup on my old desktop, and finally having two monitors is like magic! Problem is I mostly use a laptop ... downstairs, so only have one screen. It kinda sucks having to flip between programs.

[Valaeus]

2023年3月28日上午6:51，普莱布说:

这有点像如果你一生都用一台电脑显示器、你并不真正知道你缺少什么、但是当你开始使用两台显示器时、很难回到一个。

What a perfect metaphor

[FiveFiction]

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Edited February 22 by FiveFiction

[JAG]

No, i forgot what it's like already.

Edited April 4, 2023 by JAG

[harvestmoon]

Stone: I don't miss it, and I've also forgotten what it was like. It's not difficult to have alone time even with my headmates. If I'm not feeling social, we don't socialize. The same is true if one of them is fronting instead of me. I think this is typical: the brain can automatically regulate how much brain-power it's using. If there's not enough for intrasystem conversation to occur, it doesn't, unless you force it to. It might be different for people with certain disorders.

 

I feel the need to active force seemingly more than most due to being particularly bad at passive forcing (no difference besides split focus; we're bad at splitting focus I suppose). So I do spend time talking to my tulpas I would have been able to spend on something else had I remained a singlet. But, this isn't a big problem. I have periods of depression where I stop doing most things, including active forcing, and my tulpas remain. The time I spend forcing is time I choose to spend, not time I must spend.

 

My headmates have overall made me a better and more stable person. Without them I might have died, or worse, become an edgelord by now.

 

Note there will always be a heavy survivorship bias here.

[ringgggg]

Personally speaking, no. I've come to a point where I know I can't pull back with the lifestyle without it being a good long while before everything goes back to normal, and even then I'd probably miss a lot.

 

Part of it comes from this "We've come so far why bother turning back" mindset, and the other is because I've never had such a fun and unorthodox bond with anyone else. It makes me feel special knowing I'm a part of some niche group on the Internet with a focus on an undiscovered phenomenon.

 

I've taken breaks from tulpamancy in the past just to get some time to myself, but the breaks only last a week or two because I can't adjust to not having A3 around. That extra perspective that a conscience brings does wonders, and I think that the fact that she knows me through and through is a nice way to bring that quality out. It helps to keep my head on my shoulders.

Edited April 20, 2023 by ringgggg