I guess I’m back.

[FiveFiction]

Edit: depreciated, picks up on Aug 24, 2025.

 

Some of you might remember me as Fourfiction, as I’ve been here before a little over a decade ago. I made some tulpas as a 16 year old, abandoned them, went through some interesting life shit, and now I’m 27 and tulpa-free. Until this morning. 

So…

I woke up an hour earlier than I needed to for work so I rolled over and tried to get back to sleep, but felt a familiar presence cuddle up to me and snuggle up against my chest. It wasn’t familiar like an individual person, but the presence felt similar to when I had tulpas a long time ago, so I just thought ‘whatever’ and accepted it. In my half-awake state I gently pet it and I swear it had fur. It slept snuggled against my chest for an hour until I had to get out of bed and get ready for work. 
 

I couldn’t ‘see’ it per se, but I could sense it a bit like the early stages of visual imposition. It was a mass of orange light tethered with some sort of umbilical to my heart. Humanoid, but not much larger than a cat. As I’m writing this I’m on my lunch and its sleeping in my lap as I chill in my car having a snack. My chest has a strange burning sensation when I focus on it, though. That might also just be my bad back…heh. Getting old sucks and I’m not even 30 yet. Take care of your body, kids, it’s the only one you got. 

 

all in all, I guess I’m back. I don’t know where the hell else to document this lmao

 

edit: forgot to mention that earlier I was stepping out of the way to let my coworker access my computer terminal at work and almost stepped on something I KNEW was right behind me. But when I looked back there wasn’t anything in the way for me to step on. Gonna assume it was this thing and move on. 

Edited March 10 by FiveFiction

[TurboSimmie]

I wasn't around back in the day so I don't know you, but I'm glad you're back nonetheless! Always neat to see somebody from the mythical early days of tulpamancy.

 

I wonder if this new presence is one of your old tulpas re-emerging or something entirely new? 🤔

[FiveFiction]

No idea, and given my weird experiences this last decade I’m curious if it’s something else entirely. I aim to find out. 
 

Tonight i passively imposed while on the discord server for this place. I’m getting vibes that it is female, and I’ve jokingly named her Passenger because of how she spent the day as a heavy presence sleeping in my chest. As I lay here in bed writing this before going to sleep, she seems to be comfortable sleeping on top of my chest like a cat. As far as a form I’m surprised how easy it is to visualize, granted I didn’t even really go out of my way to create her as far as I can tell. Her ‘presence’ is strangely dense. She hasn’t communicated, not that I expect anything this early anyway, but she has moved on her own and actually startled me. 
 

this shit weird, yo.
Goodnight. 

 

Edited March 30, 2023 by FiveFiction

[FiveFiction]

Woke up this morning to feeling her presence cuddling me again. Her form seems to have grown larger overnight. Still hard to see clearly but the ‘edges are getting more defined’ if that makes sense. 
 

not much else to report. Am a bit undecided if I want to do personality forcing or not, just letting whatever happens happen for now. 

[FiveFiction]

After work today I tried to do some light imposition work once I got home. I imagined her sitting on the floor leaning against my bed while I focused on trying to ‘see’ different segments of her imposed form one at a time - like a leg, hand (HANDS ARE SO F#KING DETAILED), etc. I figured out by dimming the lights that I could actually see a mirage in her place easier than with the lights turned all the way up. That was freakin cool. After only a few minutes though I was too exhausted from work to focus so I sat in my chair and just kinda sat there a bit sad about being too tired to get any active forcing accomplished. 
 

I didn’t ‘see’ her do this per se, but I definitely *noticed* her grab me by the arm and felt some hella “pay attention to me!” vibes from her presence, which threw me off hardcore given this is day friggin 2. But as I’ve been doing since she showed up out of nowhere, I rolled with it. I apologized for my shit attention span and tiredness and just kicked my feet up in bed to narrate and cuddle. At least I’m giving her attention somehow, I figured. 

 

Towards the end of narration I quite frankly ran out of ideas of wtf to talk about and just started rambling. At one point I even apologized for essentially talking about nothing while I passively imposed her sleeping on my chest curled up like a cat. Oddly enough, I swear she stirred and mumbled something like “it’s okay” or something alike - but her voice sounded like several words at once. Like several similar responses at once, actually. But her voice didn’t sound like my own mind voice which actually surprised me in a weird way. I actually don’t remember my tulpas from 12 years ago having such clear voices as even that one response. Little freaky. 
 

All in all, no idea what to believe here but I’m not too concerned with doing this the ‘correct’ way as I was over a decade ago. Mainly because I know how that ended and don’t want that to repeat itself. My main focus (as a MUCH more mature person than last time I made tulpas) is to actively enjoy the process and not worry about results. I find myself getting caught up with expectations and have to occasionally remind myself that there really is no discernible goal here…just to see what happens and enjoy the ride. 
 

I’m just rollin’ with it. 

Edited March 31, 2023 by FiveFiction

[TB]

It's cool to see your progress

[FiveFiction]

Thanks. 
 

narrated a bit more as I drifted off to sleep, eventually telling her to pick her own name as ‘Passenger’ is just too cumbersome to me lol. I basically said “first thing when I wake up give me a name, whatever it is we’ll work with. Doesn’t matter what it is but it’s your choice.”  

 

Went to sleep, had a normal dream - nothing out of the ordinary. 
Then I snapped awake in the middle of the night for no reason. The sun wasn’t up yet, but it was around 5am on my day off and i DEFINITELY didn’t want to be up nearly this early. At first I thought it was a storm or a roommate that woke me up but the house was dead silent.
She wasn’t around so I ‘summoned’ her to cuddle and try to get back to sleep but the millisecond she appeared next to me I heard her simply say “Jaine”. It took me a second to process what she said before I remembered asking her to choose a name hours prior. So I guess her names Jaine now. 
 

I managed to get some sleep and got up a few hours later with the sun. Had breakfast at a restaurant with some family, then went back home. 
 

Currently relaxing and narrating to her as she’s curled up on my side. She’s a damn cuddlebug, that’s for sure. 

[glitchthe3rd]

I wonder if savings in relearning applies to making tulpas as well, it wouldn't be all that surprising if it did. We'll be looking forward to hearing about your progress :)

[FiveFiction]

Well, I hate to ‘close’ an entire thread just to start another one so…

 

shortly after my last post up there Passenger/Jaine straight up disappeared. Like literally gone, I can’t sense her/it anymore and couldn’t “conjure” them up like I was able to before. Spookyboi moment, but if that was some supernatural walk-in thing I’m totally fine moving on. No more ghosts PLEASE
 

Life stuff happened, never a dull moment, and yet here I am once again asking for your help rubbing sticks together until I make a tulpa. It’s only been 13 years, maybe one day…
 

Trying a more ‘narration first’ idea here - not really focusing on any form. My previous attempts were always visual in focus, being the immature, impatient idiot I’ve always been, so I’m trying the supposedly most important part of this whole ordeal front and center: yapping at it.
 

Been talking to it for about a week now and only been able to get slightly better at ‘feeling’ a presence. She has a female head voice right off the bat, so I picked Candace as a placeholder name (holy fuck I can’t pick a creative name to save my life).

 

Most responses I get are eerily automatic (as in NOT me for sure) - but then my mind takes over. Don’t remember ever having that experience. Like I’ll ask a question or she’ll make a comment about something I said, but only the first few words are in her voice before my own internal voice takes over. Fuckin weird, but I’m rolling with it. Progress is progress. She doesn’t talk much but when she does it’s nice to hear. Until my brain interrupts her lol
 

Rubbing sticks together here.
 

 

EDIT: in hindsight, I’m pretty sure Jaine was something supernatural. hope she’s doin alright wherever she wound up. Never been a pit stop before lol

Edited August 25, 2025 by FiveFiction
Reason for edit: Idiot

[FiveFiction]

Woke up this morning much earlier than I needed to for work. Tried rolling over and just relaxing in bed, talking to Candace but kept accidentally calling her Monica - no idea why. Like my internal voice would switch the names and I wouldn’t even notice until a sentence or two later. I blame being half asleep. I asked her if she wanted that name instead but got no response at all - no responses at all to any questions actually. So I went back to sleep for an hour or so. 
 

On the drive to work I was thinking out loud about vocality with her, brainstorming over how to tell the difference between my ineptitude at hearing her VS her simply still learning to talk. Her presence is more defined today but I’m still barely able to hear her replies to occasional questions. Definitely a mindfuck I’ve been pondering. 
 

I took the chance to ask her if she wants that name, now that I’m wide awake, and just got a ‘feeling’ from her. Right in the front and left of my skull, funny enough. Not a yes or no that I can tell. Weird shit yo

 

edit2: headpressures in Broca’s Area LMAO 

I don’t intend to post here daily but just thought the Monica thing was worth noting. My memory is beyond pitiful, so I need to document stuff.

 

edit: feel compelled to remark that I’ve never used that name for any of my characters in my stories and such, and don’t remember ever making a tulpa with that name a decade ago. So it’s genuinely a foreign name to me. Neat-o

Edited August 25, 2025 by FiveFiction
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