New Hope (I absolutely mean it)

[Mai_x_v3]

23 hours ago, Tomoko said:

That's a good point. Lucy is vocal, however she just needs more independence.

 

Understandable and yes! You both got this! 🩷💗💕

 

23 hours ago, Tomoko said:

It's fine, I don't mind.

 

That's good!

 

23 hours ago, Tomoko said:

I honestly don't remember the last time I posted on wizardforum, sometimes I'll browse the library section and the general magick threads too, I found a few cool thread on there about Neidan/Biokinesis/energy work. Should check it out, the shapeshifting reply is interesting, if a little 'out there'.

 

My main system is chaos magick, or Sorcerous Thievery as I like to call it, since I like to pick and choose various other mystic and occult traditions and lineages to integrate into my belief system, and then of course Daoism, Stoic Mysticism and Hekate worship. Also I am a patron of the goetic entity Murmur, for we both enjoy philosophy, plus traditional Cree beliefs. I am Amerindian so I have no idea if this syncreticism will be detrimental to my spiritual growth.

 

Ooh I see that's super interesting! Thank you for sharing this with me! I created a wizardfourm account and followed you lol I figured out after I created an account that's how you could search stuff. I knew about magick for a while but mostly used subliminals / affirmations but recently been into wanting to learn it since it seems so interesting.

 

I remember seeing the word Biokinesis a lot during my early subliminal days on YouTube (around 2017). A lot of older subliminals used to use that word. I read the thing you sent, it's very interesting especially with the meditation part. 

 

Ooh that sounds super fun! It's very good to use various different beliefs like that, that just means you're very adaptable and open minded. It's so interesting to hear about the different stuff like this, normally I stick to subliminals, affirmations, and law of assumption type stuff. I was thinking of worshipping Aphrodite though even my friend said that I remind them of Aphrodite. I also wear a lot of pink & own 2 rose quartz crystals but haven't gotten to worshipping yet since I got sick and was busy.

 

Oh wow I'm also part Native American that's super cool! (I never heard the word Amerindian before so I had to look it up, I could be wrong tho Google isn't always right. So I'm sorry if I got that wrong I confuse terms a lot). I see hopefully it won't be. I love spiritual growth stuff it's cool to see others into that sort of thing.

 

23 hours ago, Tomoko said:

Yes, I am! I have a Rider-Waite tarot deck, back in 2021 I did a reading, I forgot the specific cards but as I recall the cards said I was stuck in a loop, and that I should break free from it. Wigged me out because that was exactly what I was feeling but couldn't put my finger on it. And funny thing is my synchronicity numbers are 666, I see it everywhere, I looked it up and apparently it's encouragement to refocus. I need to change somehow, all these signs point to my stagnation. But I'm probably boring you with the details.

 

Ooh wow that's so amazing! I own 2 tarot card decks and 1 Oracle card. I also made myself a cartomancy deck using hello kitty playing cards. I'm glad it was able to help you and for real angel numbers are so nice to get. And yes you got this! And it's okay I'm not bored form it, I find this stuff interesting actually, and I love learning about other people and their interest! I hope you're able to overcome your stagnation it sucks when that happens, I believe in you and your Tulpa! 💗🩷💕

 

I got my cards mostly to try to communicate to my tulpas and seek guidance I haven't used them a lot last month but I did notice they give me motivation to contuine forcing. 

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I created a wizardfourm account and followed you lol I figured out after I created an account that's how you could search stuff.

 

Followed you back, I also have a large torrent (60gb) worth of pdfs ranging from Zoroastrianism, the Sufi branch of Islam (Islamic Mysticism), Medieval Grimoires, Chaos magick, and general Western Esoterica. It was originally created by a user of 4chan's paranormal board (I don't recommend that board, its been shit for over a decade.) Just let me know and I'll send it to you.

 

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I knew about magick for a while but mostly used subliminals / affirmations but recently been into wanting to learn it since it seems so interesting.

 

I know about your interests since checking out your PR. Perhaps I should also try it out, I like DIY stuff so maybe I'll make my own too.

 

On the topic of your magickal potential, I see you're also a disciple of Neville Goddard, may I also suggest trying image streaming, and astral projection/lucid dreaming? I read somewhere that it'll greatly enhance existence (intentionally vague since I read it'll make you more lucid in the meat-space, whatever that means.)

 

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I was thinking of worshipping Aphrodite though even my friend said that I remind them of Aphrodite

 

Does she resonate with you? My patron goddess resonates with me because I am a chronic night owl (unashamed night chronotype). Plus I am interested in liminality and magick, concepts related to Her.

 

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I also wear a lot of pink & own 2 rose quartz crystals but haven't gotten to worshipping yet since I got sick and was busy.

 

Interestingly enough, I thought about getting some crystals/gemstones for my star signs, I believe it's ruby and sunstone? Or some such, I tried buying those but unfortunately I am piss broke.

 

On a side note— are you also interested in astrology? My astrological signs are Golden Dragon for Chinese, and Leo for Western Astrology, those are both potent signs and I have no idea what will come out of it. What are your signs?

 

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Oh wow I'm also part Native American that's super cool! 

 

What tribe?

 

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I never heard the word Amerindian before so I had to look it up, I could be wrong tho Google isn't always right. So I'm sorry if I got that wrong I confuse terms a lot

 

You are correct, I am Native American (or First Nations as Canadians call it.)

 

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Ooh wow that's so amazing! I own 2 tarot card decks and 1 Oracle card. I also made myself a cartomancy deck using hello kitty playing cards. I'm glad it was able to help you and for real angel numbers are so nice to get. And yes you got this! And it's okay I'm not bored form it, I find this stuff interesting actually, and I love learning about other people and their interest! I hope you're able to overcome your stagnation it sucks when that happens, I believe in you and your Tulpa! 💗🩷💕

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I got my cards mostly to try to communicate to my tulpas and seek guidance I haven't used them a lot last month but I did notice they give me motivation to contuine forcing.  

I've always found incorporating magick and characters from contemporary/modern media is interesting, I once read an anecdote about a person who was an advanced magician and looked in the mirror while in the astral realm and saw that he was Neco Arc, he claimed each time he invited ancestors and deities into a tea room sort of place, they would always smile and laugh, and he would always wonder why they're so tall. Continue using them.

 

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Good luck with whichever magician path you take, it is a long, strenuous and lonesome one, but reaching the summit will be worth it. I hope we can be wizardry friends so as to make it less burdensome. 

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4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

Followed you back, I also have a large torrent (60gb) worth of pdfs ranging from Zoroastrianism, the Sufi branch of Islam (Islamic Mysticism), Medieval Grimoires, Chaos magick, and general Western Esoterica. It was originally created by a user of 4chan's paranormal board (I don't recommend that board, its been shit for over a decade.) Just let me know and I'll send it to you.

 

Ooh that's super cool! That's a lot of files if you want you could probably just send me a beginners guide if you don't mind. Understandable, I never really used 4chan tbh I sometimes wish I knew about it years ago when I was a kid I was into MLP and such I'd probably already have tulpas way earlier by now ngl lmao. I used 4chan once for my ex bestie and someone stole her art work and that was a few years ago too, so I can only imagine how bad it is now for other stuff. 

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

know about your interests since checking out your PR. Perhaps I should also try it out, I like DIY stuff so maybe I'll make my own too.

 

On the topic of your magickal potential, I see you're also a disciple of Neville Goddard, may I also suggest trying image streaming, and astral projection/lucid dreaming? I read somewhere that it'll greatly enhance existence (intentionally vague since I read it'll make you more lucid in the meat-space, whatever that means.)

 

That's good to know I'm glad, you honestly should making your own is way better. I am kinda inconsistent with my playlists to be honest which I'm trying to be more consistent with it. I recently bought clicker counters so I could go on a mental diet and say affirmations daily I think that'll help with my tulpa forcing too.

 

Thank you! And yes! I love Neville Goddard! Surprisingly I was always in spaces where people around me online practiced magick. X3 I do practice lucid dreaming, I have been kinda bad with it due to being sick and busy but I plan on trying to get back into it more. But I do write down my dreams daily so my dreams are pretty vivid to the point I basically have precognition on some things. I was thinking of practicing astral projections recently though. I already practiced the void state and Tulpa meditation, so I wonder when I can even practice AP.  I don't think I tried image streaming that's a new thing I'll have to look into that.

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

Does she resonate with you? My patron goddess resonates with me because I am a chronic night owl (unashamed night chronotype). Plus I am interested in liminality and magick, concepts related to Her.

 

Yes, I always felt drawn to her. It sucks she's often misunderstood. It's also interesting she's associated with water and I'm a water sign. I also really love her symbolism of love and beauty. Ooh let's goo! As a night owl, myself, I understand. And ooh that's so cool! 

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

Interestingly enough, I thought about getting some crystals/gemstones for my star signs, I believe it's ruby and sunstone? Or some such, I tried buying those but unfortunately I am piss broke.

 

On a side note— are you also interested in astrology? My astrological signs are Golden Dragon for Chinese, and Leo for Western Astrology, those are both potent signs and I have no idea what will come out of it. What are your signs?

 

Ooh you should that would be nice to have, and I understand, I hope your able to get some ok the future. 

 

That's fascinating. I looked into some astrology, not much though but it's interesting. I only know a little bit of astrology but I'm a Pisces and for Chinese a Rooster. 

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

What tribe?

 

To be honest I always forget what my mom tells me what tribe we are from, like I remember her talking about it but I keep forgetting 😞 I'll have to ask her again

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

You are correct, I am Native American (or First Nations as Canadians call it.)

 

Yay! Let's goo! That makes me think that you're probably from Canadia lol I surprisingly have a lot of friends from Canadia xD

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

I've always found incorporating magick and characters from contemporary/modern media is interesting, I once read an anecdote about a person who was an advanced magician and looked in the mirror while in the astral realm and saw that he was Neco Arc, he claimed each time he invited ancestors and deities into a tea room sort of place, they would always smile and laugh, and he would always wonder why they're so tall. Continue using them.

 

Ooh I agree! Isn't that also pop culture paganism too? At least from my research a while ago it mentioned stuff like that. I looked into that stuff because sometimes I think/feel I'm more soulbonded with my tulpas than anything else if that makes sense. So I kinda worked on soulbonding a bit more with them. Like I do both soulbond & tulpamancy techniques which honestly are pretty much the same things as each other.

 

Wow that's literally insane and so cool, this story kinda reminds me of a few lectures Neville Goddard made. 

 

I always see people talking about astral realms a lot in the last couple of years. Now I'm wondering if that'll help manifest tulpas in away. Or at least people with more metaphysical beliefs when it comes to tulpas. 

 

4 hours ago, Tomoko said:

Good luck with whichever magician path you take, it is a long, strenuous and lonesome one, but reaching the summit will be worth it. I hope we can be wizardry friends so as to make it less burdensome. 

 

Thank you! Same for you too! And understandable I'm honestly used to things like that with reality shifting, manifesting, and so on. And yes! That would be fun! I always love making new friends! Feel free to DM, I don't mind! ☺️🩷

 

Random but I love how this PR went from you talking about your progress and what not to us talking about this sort of stuff. 

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Random but I love how this PR went from you talking about your progress and what not to us talking about this sort of stuff.

 

And I as well. But we oughta get back on track. We'll continue our conversation on discord.

 

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Went a psychiatrist appointment today, he prescribed me Pregabalin for my health anxiety, I heard it causes daytime drowsiness, that's going to be annoying. I took a Preg pill roughly 50 minutes ago, and it will take effect around bedtime (6 PM).

 

I have neglected my duties once again, perhaps tomorrow I will do nothing but lie in bed all day, and focus on nothing but Lucy, I have an eye exam that day too but it shouldn't bother my morning duties.

 

I have torrented a bunch of shows & movies— Grim Adventures, Flap Jack, ATHF, plus a few obscure 20th century films about the medieval era, I think one of them is about the Icelandic sagas, it was filmed in the 70's, sounds interesting. I can't wait to watch them all with Luce, I'm sure she'll like the medieval ones and Grim Adventures especially.

 

I still need to work more on my neurotechnics, meditation is a must if I am to master the mental-scape. Slowly I have learnt how to relax the brain, I just need practice.

 

I am rambling of course. Just idle thoughts meant to fill up a report so as to make up for lack of progress.

 

I shall go and watch her source material.