A tale of two tails

[Cheeteach]

I'm new to this blog so first let me say Hi to all. It's been quite interesting reading the forum those last days. I generally have two tulpas: Cheeteach and Spots, both cheetah anthros (I'll give some info to the "originality" of the names later). Can't give you exact age since it's been years and I didn't knew if it was something common or not until I found out about this place. Curiously enough a few times in the last months I've been asking myself the question of if everybody had someone in their mind to talk to.

 

My tulpa story: A long time ago, in a country away from my own I was left alone at home, was 12 or 13 at the time and had no idea what to do so I imagined talking to a lion I had drawn. And it started replying in my mind. I was so freaked out that I tore up the picture the same day. I guess being away from any friend I know brought that out of me. This happened somewhere around 2001. That was the moment of initial consciousness for my main tulpa and goal in life - Cheeteach.Still, Cheeteach exited in my mind around 2-3 years before that. I just loved Cheetor from the Maximals, Beast Wars and Wolverine's claws :). And misspelled cheetah as cheeteach for a year or so till I found out I was wrong (rofl). But it was already stuck on my e-mail and I liked it. . Then at an English-learning summer camp I met a guy who told me you could imagine to life anything if you believe it quite enough. We tried to use some ritual to call his being to our realm and as we were gonna do it... the power in the friggin hotel went out.... 10 minutes before midnight, the planned time. Dunno if it was a coincidence, but all three of us were scared s***less when it happened. There was also some kind of a maybe-pretended possession the next day, but maybe it was real. That kind of stuff opens your mind either way if it's not closed and shut like most adult minds are.

Anyway, I was learning that english to go abroad and study where my father had found work and for a month or so I had mostly no communication with anyone but my family, so a being popped out to keep me company :) . Later on I wanted to impose this being (not recognised as Cht yet) and a mate for him to the real world and I tried some stuff with absolutely no result. As years went by I just enjoyed talking to them. Discussing ideas and problems, talking to almost anything that had a big cat printed on it and trying to bring it some life, but while the pics were different I realised this last week their consciousness was pretty much one, what I called "my tulpa template" after finding this place and the term. Cos all were pretty much some small deviation from it. Even Spots, whose life begins somewhere around the year 2007 when I first created her image. I can't reacall a specific day, month or year for that matter in which she "came to life", but she came as a copy of that same consciousness, the template and started slowly evolving away from it. The name, I made her to be my idea of the perfect girl (aside from being half-cheetah and all :) ) and to search for her somewhere in life. I didn't want to think of a name for her since I was hoping to meet her one day IRL. Still, couldn't (or just still haven't) find people like her so she just stayed Spots. And even though she started being a soulmate and a shoulder to cry on we never felt much of a sexual arousal between us. But that's just because there's so much more to do with her than that.

Moving on to the present, by discovering Tulpa.info I found new horizons, new opportunities to develop and evolve. None of my characters are imposed to the real world for any sense yet so that's my goal, as well as separating Spots some more from my template, to be a unique creature. It will be quite a tire though, learning every spot on her boy, but we'll manage somehow :D . Then it's Cheeteach.

 

It took me a while to get here, but I was doing it by just wandering, with very little sources spread across years and mostly just trying to survive a seemingly inhospitable world. Now comes the interesting part when there are other people seeking similar goals and interests and new horizons open for all three of us and whoever is hiding behind the curtains as well :) . Will follow what's going on here and post the occasional report about my guys, maybe some personality and background story info as well, but I'll stop here cos you're either bored or interested. In both cases it's best left for another time.

 

Anyway. I also want to say I do some anthro art and could do some free sketching, but for that there'll be another post in the proper place when I get around to doing that.

My gallery: http://savannahspirit.deviantart.com

You can see my tulpas there as well, at various ages dependent on where in their storyline they are.

[Aarix]

Welcome to the forums, amazing story, glad it was seamless for you even though it was accidental. We're here to answer any and all questions.

Take care.

[Domnopalus]

Hello! Welcome to the forums! I loved your story. This kind of thing fascinates me SO much, and to hear yet another person with a fantastic life story regarding these things only builds up my fascination even more. I hope you make yourself at home here, and I can't wait to hear more about Cheeteach and your other tulpas. Can't wait for Domnopalus to meet them, too! I looked at your DA gallery and I love the atmosphere of your work---so bold, dark and serene.

[Cheeteach]

Thanks for the nice welcome. I guess our mind tries and finds ways to cope with reality. My tulpas have really been quite an inspiration and guidance through my life, bringing me closer to what I want to be and now it's time for me to return the favor and give them more attention and life.

 

On to the real progress report. It's been a week since I discovered this site. Read a lot of the guides, tired some of the stuff and got some angry claws till I realized that my tulpas were actually pretty much what is called sentient, cos I wasn't sure at first and tried giving them traits, pretty much covering what they already are. Well, it was actually more working on Spots since we decided she'd be the first to come out and separate herself while Cheeteach remained in me to observe the process and help me in more ways if necessary. There's also the thing that he is my guiding light and future self and am a bit scared to separate him from me by giving him a body of his own, even if its not material, but we have each others trust completely, that we won't leave each other and even if we get separated we'll stick together. So after doing two days of character revision just to revise for us what Spots was made of I sketched a pic by which I started to guide my visualization. Since when I close my eyes all kinds of stuff pops out I prefer the open eyed method in the evening in the darkness of my room and I've found out that for myself instead of standing in one place I just put two pieces of paper on the ground to fix her position and go around, do some modelling the way you model a clay figure, try to look at and see details. Did the first two times starting from bones and building my way up to fur , next were some setbacks and celebrations with only one hour to spend on modelling , some other setback stuff as well, but I am glad to say at least one hour a day goes straight to imposition alone, otherwise we talk pretty much all the time now that I have new goals thanks to the site and the people here and I try to imagine her look in my environment when I'm not busy working.

 

As for writing for my tulpas, I still feel kinda shy, so it will take me some time to start that even though they always feel like talking, especially since my topic with them is most often philosophy, meaning of life stuff and other random ideas. I've pretty much never done this and I honestly never expected to do it. Except for some small wiseass thoughts that sometimes pop out in a conversation of the sort that "Nothing worth doing is ever easy" and stuff like that that I post on some places.

 

Some info about Spots and Cheeteach (since its hard to pronounce I and Spots sometimes call him Chee). They are both wild souls, love adventures and things they've never tried. Both of them love fighting for fun and these things pretty much keep them and me together. There some differences start - Spots is a bit more tame since she got her wild streak from Cht, She's also more sensitive and more educated. Cht just likes throwing himself in the waves of life and adventure. They want to explore this world over and under and pretty much anyway they can. Then perhaps move on to the next and so on. They also love changing people and helping. While they're good with violence "bad stuff is just too boring. It's way more interesting and challenging to be a good guy" so their quest at the moment is me. It seems that I'm more their project than they are mine since I've improved my life, taken more risks that paid off and in short lived more than before, sometimes mostly motivated by their motto of never giving up and always trying something new. I guess a lot of self help guides preach this stuff, but it's different when someone pushes you from the inside. Always seeking some new adventure, new destination, but still being prepared for it. They won't let me hitchhike through Africa yet, and it's my dream to pet a cheetah :) . Still, I guess I do need to reach Kenya and Tanzania alive and well to do that and return the same to appreciate it for all my life and go on doing other stuff as well. I guess the universe does find ways to help anyone who needs some as long as your eyes and mind are open to accept and embrace it.

 

Anyway, it's midnight in my country, but at least its friday so I have some time to tulpaforce, as long as I can keep myself awake after a whole tiresome week and a Capoeira training that I had some hours ago.

 

P.S. If you've never done Capoeira, try it. My tulpas both strongly recommend it and so do I :)

[Cheeteach]

Just an update, more aimed at restoring my focus and attention at improving my tulpas and at watching the site then to give an actual update since things haven't been going swell lately. I had a project deadline that went past me and had to catch up. It was my first work project after all so for two weeks all tulpa work was laid back except for some talk and visualization while riding the public transport to and back from work. Aand now I'm sick with the usual cold for this time of year. I prefer to get better first and they approve of my decision as well so it will be some time till I start anew with the imposing. I still talk with them and imagine them around me, but I don't think I'll have any success without a few hours of focused work a day as well.