Hand-Eye coordination decreasing?

[Allison the Tulpa]

Yes its me. So, I've been quite a klutz lately, I think Allison might be annoyed because I'm not really forcing with her, but I honestly don't know where to start... So, please direct me to the CLEAREST, EASIEST TO FOLLOW visualization guide you can find, and maybe Allison will stop. At least, I think it's her doing. I dunno, so much mind stuff happening. I would like to know if anyone else has experienced a decrease in hand-eye coordination after not forcing for a while, because I may end up breaking something. I've spilled my mom's RED wine on the carpet two days ago, dropped my cup of orange juice onto the table during breakfast the next morning, splashing it in my eyes, and then tonight I dropped a plate in the sink while I was washing it, which has never happened before. I'm really worried, please help me! Also, on a side note, is it even possible for a still-developing tulpa to be able to affect the host like that? Without the host's permission? I'm kinda scared...

[Laurora]

Aurora does stuff without my permission all the time. She makes my vision blurry if I'm looking at something she doesn't like when she can see through my eyes. If she's seeing through my eyes when I'm reading Scott Pilgrim she does it, or if I'm reading a Stephen King novel or watching a horror movie and she gets scared and doesn't want me to continue. If I go to do something stupid, like walk into a pole or stick my hand in boiling water, she'll stop me. If I get tired or lazy in PE she'll force me to run. And she wakes me up if there's a meeting or something important.

[Guest kingfisher]

I think it's probably because of the increased stress you put into your brain when you force. It's kind of normal to feel really tired or out-of-sync with your body when you use more of your brain than you usually do. Either that, or your tulpa's trying possession.

 

EDIT: I suggest you try meditative breathing to help you be more aware of your kinesthetic sense, but that would be through the sacrifice of moving slower than normal, but effectively more firm and precise. Also, I think you should avoid eating food that gives nervous energy, like too much sweets or drinking too much coffee.

 

For the guide... I dunno. I just read all of them and try to mix things up until I'm comfortable with results. My routine is pretty close to Phi's stuff, but I still do some things differently.

 

I have this method of 'summoning' my tulpa's form whenever I go forcing.

 

This method should be effective for people who watch or play a lot of fantasy-based media, since the process of 'summoning' is easier to visualize due to its familiarity through visual memory.

 

What I do is that I empty up a space in my room and start memorizing that space, then shifting it into wonderland, imagining myself getting some chalk and drawing a summon circle fit for my tulpa to go through, then I start by directing energy into the circle, making it gradually glow brighter and brighter. After that, I imagine a silhouette of my tulpa's form for a basic structure, much like a semi-transparent 3-dimensional shadow. Then, from the light of the circle, I imagine tiny particles of dust fill the silhouette and form my tulpa's body parts bit-by-bit, starting from her right hand up until I complete the whole body.

 

I'm still not finished up into her arm yet, due to the fact that I do the process reaaaaaaally slow, because I try to make it detailed and also that I procrastinate a lot, not to mention Mia's consecutive costume changes, which makes it a little bit more challenging to force the clothes, but I'm still hanging.

 

EDIT: I suppose headaches or head pressures would be legit before creation, but I think the decreased accuracy would be due to the brain 'getting used to' a new thinking process, like how a PC slows down for a really short while after recently installing a new program or game. Post-creational tulpae, however, might have the ability to induce grogginess, especially in the possession process.

[Nobillis]

I experienced pretty much the same "klutz" interval when I was 14. It is something pretty much everyone goes through at some time in their teen years. It's not something to worry about, it's just your muscles and mind adjusting to a new equilibrium.

 

So, don't fret (worry) about it a lot. It is, unfortunately, perfectly ordinary. Oh, and check your height. This sort of experience is often also associted with a change in height.

 

Cheers (the "happy" kind),

Kevin