skwoogle April 11, 2013 Author April 11, 2013 Day 20 (April 10th, 2013) - 20 days, holy crap. Based on my track record of not being able to stick with things, I'm amazed at how I've kept going. Anyways, on to progress. Unfortunately, there is still not very much to speak of. The more I speak to Lilly, the less I feel she's making progress. I managed to force for an hour and a half today, and I feel more content with her form. She seems to move more fluidly, more naturally. The facial expressions look more and more real, and the more time I spend on her the more I find myself changing her. Her eyes look less and less like the character, now with a large amount of white with a light blue iris (the original you can see in my picture). She is also much more expressive in her actions and facial expressions, at least how I feel she is and will be. The expressions are not as reserved as I had originally pictured, and she seems more outgoing (but still slightly mischievous). Also, I'm amazed how having her tell me something that I know but don't want to admit really helps me get over it. She's someone I can talk to in complete confidentiality without worrying about what others will thing. Yay! Anyways, that's it for now. I'm gonna talk to her before bed tonight, and I have a day off tomorrow so lots of time to force. Till next time. Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 12, 2013 Author April 12, 2013 Day 21 (April 11th, 2013) - Two updates in a row?! Holy crap! I did some more work on her form, just making her walk around and move differently to make sure the shape seems good. It is, and for the next while I'm going to continue on refining it. No progress with the voice again. I really need to force more. Anyways, that's all for now! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
Guest Anonymous April 12, 2013 April 12, 2013 Your story's pretty much like every other in the fact that it is like no other... that can be taken as either a compliment to your individuality, or an insult to the fact your story is no better or worse than anyone else's. YOU DECIDE! Anywho, cool beans on the tulpa development. I wonder how long until you stop counting days though...? I refuse to believe anyone can do it forever.
skwoogle April 13, 2013 Author April 13, 2013 Day 22 (April 12th, 2013) - Well, last night was interesting. I had begun to doubt if Lilly was even talking to me at this point, but she gave me a stern talking to. She explained about how my brain works. Basically, I'm easily distracted and like to give up on things quickly, and the fact that I had made it this far was impressive. I can't just stop because of a lack of significant progress, and she wanted to basically prove she was there. I was thoroughly surprised, and very happy at this. I did some more forcing today, and will talk to her again tonight. She has re-inspired me. Anyways, will post later! Night all! I wonder how long until you stop counting days though...? I refuse to believe anyone can do it forever. I always lose count until I go to post, and just calculate it. It really helps me see my progress and, based on how easily I get distracted, pride in how far I've made it. Oh, and I choose to take that as a compliment! :) Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 14, 2013 Author April 14, 2013 Day 23 (April 13th, 2013) - So, after experimenting with three tones my friend has given me (tulpatone, theta tone, and clairvoyant focus), I've learned that the tulpatone makes me dizzy and feel sick, the clairvoyant focus one is better but a bit distracting, and the theta tone lets me reach lucid even when in a skype call will other people continuously talking. Now I know which one to use. No real update, nothing much else has happened. Will talk to her tonight, and I hope to post again tomorrow! Night! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 16, 2013 Author April 16, 2013 Day 25 (April 15th, 2013) - I did more of an evaluation today while forcing, and have really tried to analyze Lilly a bit more as a whole. So far, she's quite close to the original character. However she tends to keep more of her hair out of her face, her irises are quite small (that I will be changing), and her eyes seem to switch color between blue, green, and brown. She's becoming her own, and I really like that. The more I force, the more she changes. Also, in regards to personality, she is still having trouble with maintaining one voice but seems to be gaining more of her personality. She doesn't really have her own opinions yet, but that will come with time. So far she is very supportive of me, but does enjoy teasing me. More will come. Anyways, that is all for now. Night! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 18, 2013 Author April 18, 2013 Day 28 (April 18, 2013) - Today I did not force her appearance. Her eyes seem to maintaining the brown color now, and I feel it suites her. Anyways, I forced today on her personality. It was more of a discussion with me telling her what she has been like and what I hope for her to be like. Not much other than that, and she seemed quite supportive of everything that I said. I need to do this some more, but I feel I made good progress. I'm gonna talk to her tonight again, so until next time! Good night! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 22, 2013 Author April 22, 2013 Day 31 (April 21st, 2013) - Wow, day 31. A full month. Honestly, I didn't think I'd make it this far. I still have a ways to go, but based on what I've done so far I feel that it will only be easier for me to keep with it. As for progress, nothing to speak of for now. I've got to go and celebrate a bit with Lilly before I go to sleep tho, this is a big accomplishment. Anyways, that is all. Night! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
skwoogle April 23, 2013 Author April 23, 2013 Day 32 (April 22nd, 2013) - Well, I can say with some certainty that I have made progress. Last night, when I went to go talk to Lilly and to congratulate her on helping me stay with this for a month already, she showed me what she's been doing recently. I must say, I was impressed. She has created 4 rooms. One is her bedroom, which originally only had a bed and a mirror until she asked me to spruce it up (it turns out that her favorite color is green and she really likes nature, some personality choices that I had not even thought of for her). Other than that, it's nothing special (however, I do think she tried to come on to me, guess it's par for the course). There is also a library. Inside this library lies my subconscious, or at least that's what she said. Every book seems to glow and shimmer slightly differently, and I can hear whispering whenever I'm in there (similar to that which I could hear while using the Clairvoyant Focus tone). Also, I cannot seem to interact with the books at the moment, while it appears she can (there is a chair by a fireplace with books all around it, and she seems to have spent some time going through what she can). The other two rooms are currently empty. She has no idea what she's gonna use them for, but she did tell me she can expand the number of rooms if she needs to. This was a big step, and I am both amazed and excited at how much progress has been without my knowing. Also, I feel I need to work more on her face still, it just doesn't seem right and I know she agrees. She has changed herself from the original character by shortening the hair slightly and her brown eyes are quite distinct. Her body, however, flows well and moves well. I need to work on touch response and smell, but that will come later. Damn, now that I think of it, I have to work on visualizing her when my eyes are open, but that will come ever later. Anyways, that is all! I'm going to force/talk to her tonight again. Will tell if anything new has happened, but I'm still giddy from my current progress. Till next time! Tulpa: Lilly (Human, Based On The Character From Katawa Shoujo, SHE ISN'T BLIND) You can follow the progress Lilly and I make here!
GGMethos April 23, 2013 April 23, 2013 You aren't making your tulpa blind, I hope? "Assert the supremacy of your Imaginal acts over facts and put all things in subjection to them... Nothing can take it from but your failure to persist in imagining the ideal realized." -Neville Goddard
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