synchronization

[omegaAnubis]

Sometimes when i am proxying for my tulpae, i enter this sort of state where when they are are saying something, i kind of go deaf to their mindvoice but continue to write what they say. I was wondering, should i make an effort to stop this, as there seems to be no negative effects to my tulpae, but i still worry that it may do something to our progress on vocalization

[Lacquer]

You are not alone. Others have reported a similar situation.

 

If you believe it to be detrimental, then try to stop. If not, I don't see any reason not to continue.

[Linkzelda]

Yeah, what Lacquer said.

 

 

If you're going to proxy for your tulpa, for you to fall into what's actually proxying, your mind is going to emulate the sensations for you to be a conduit/agent/link between you and your tulpa's thoughts. Like in Niichan's proxying guide, there was an analogy of increasing your tulpa's mindvoice and lowering down your own.

 

So it's common that you'll feel yourself feeling "deaf," but it's really just you as a person focusing on your tulpa's mindvoice more. You'll be perfectly fine because you can still give your tulpa hints that you would want to go back to your mindvoice being focused more instead of theirs, or they just stop thinking about things for you to proxy.

 

The sensations themselves can be related to the feelings of switching or possession, when you feel you're "losing" control over a sense, it can be scary at first, but it's completely normal, and you just have to be relaxed, confident, and have the assurance that you can easily shift back to your sensations again.

 

So my recommendation is, and this is going to sound generic, communicate with your tulpa beforehand so that they know that if things feel too hectic for you, they'll stop. They should be more than happy to comply with that. Something simple like (example):

 

"Hey Eva, I just wanted to let you know that during my attempt at proxying your voice through typing/writing/drawing, can you maintain a steady communication with me and ask me questions to make sure that I'm okay with what's going on? Thanks."

 

If you give your tulpa the suggestion beforehand, they'll have that in mind instead of focusing only on the proxying and not communicating with you. If you don't acknowledge it, you're going to have weird sensations, communication is key.

 

And even if your tulpa isn't that vocal to respond back, just have the assurance that they got your message.