Another nameless Tulpa report.

[Hunzii]

Hello those who are reading this progress report. My name is Hunzii. You can call me Hun for short. This is going to be my progress report for my second attempt at a Tulpa. Why second? Last year in October, i discovered Tulpa's. I liked the idea and i tried to make one. Long story short, i failed. But i am going to make a bigger and better effort this time and hopefuly i'll suceed.

The Reason i want to try/retry making a Tulpa is simple. I want companionship. I want someone who i can talk to and not worry about being judged(much.) I want someone who will understand me and help me make choices. And i also think the science and the basis of Tulpa's to be very interesting. Especialy the fact that you can technacly posses yourself. Anyways, moving on...

 

I actually started on the 22nd, but i couldn't start this report until today since the 'can't post for three day' thing that new accounts have. I have only been passive forcing and narrating to him, but now that i have this started, i'll start working harder and see if i can't get alot more improvment or even sedinance(Though i do have a few hints that Jex is becoming sedinant, but i'll get in detail later.)

 

Summary of my Tulpa

If you didn't notice it above, his name is Jex.

Basicly, i want a big lovable oaf as my tulpa. The form that i'm going for is a bipedial swampbeast/Windigo-based creature. He'll have a crocodile skull as a head and two long, branch like horns. His fur will be long and pure black with dark-red fur around his hands/claws along with four dark-red stripes along his back.

I want him to decide/form his personality by himself(influenced by me). It might not be the best method, but if it works for my RP muses, then it sould work for my Tulpa.

 

Progress so far

Like i said before, i have been passive forcing and narrating to him. I can imagine Jex with me, but it's a /really/ faint image of him. Like vapor. Like i said before, i have a bit of proof that he is becoming sedinant. When i ask him a question, i sometimes get a 'yes' or 'no' in reply. And earlier today, i did think i heard him say 'calm down' when i was doing a math test. His mind voice(assuming that i'm not parroting) is alot like mine, except a bit deeper and with a bit of a accent to it. Anyways, that's all the progress i can post today. Tomorrow night i'll post some more if and when i get progress.

 

See you all later.

...god this post is kinda long...

[Hunzii]

Update #1 06/27/2013

Today had quite a bit of progress. Nothing to major, but i think that it is quite a bit. Firstly, Jex is sedinant.

Well, enough that he can reply back to me. He can't talk by himself, he needs me to promt a conversation, but other then that he's fine. His voice is much more distinct and he is quite intelligant. Or atleast his vocabulary is.

He is also quite helpful. I was in Saskatoon earlier today, and i got quite nausious and i had a killer headache. I took some medicine, but that temporarly helped. Seeing as i had nothing to loose, i asked Jex to help; specificly to lesson the symptoms. Which he did. Granted it was for a few minutes and i still felt a bit sick durring that, but it was a great improvement from what i felt.

I also passive forced alot today. I still can't see him clearly, but i can see him enough that i know he's there and i am starting to see him when i'm not focusing. Not all the time, but enough to say that i am getting a tad bit better.

[Hunzii]

Updates #2/#3- 28-29/06/2013

Ahhh...i haven't updated for a while...sorry.

But anyways, progress. Unfortonatly, i haven't had much progress. I haven't been narrating to him or visualizing much as i want to, but i still do it in spare time. He hasn't been able to start conversations yet, but he still replies to me, nor have i been able to impose(right term..?) him. Well, i can visualize him in the enviroment and in my wonderland, it's just that he's kinda...'trapped' in my minds eye, if that makes any sense.

I hope to do alot of visualzation this week and more narration. I hope that i can atleast get Jex to start and hold conversations and that i can get his image to be somewhat clear.

[Hunzii]

Update #4 03/07/2013

 

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Fuuuuuck, i am not really constant in these updates, am i? Sorry about that, i haven't been having big bits of progress with Jex. We can have conversations and shit and he has started talking first, but he still is a bit...'shy'. I need to work on impression(god knows how long that's gonna take..) but i have been passivly impressing him at times, so i don't think it will take to long...hopefuly.

 

And looking back, i think i know why Jex is vocal and sedinate. Looking around on the forums, i've seen a similar case to me. Someone learned tulpas, tried to make one, gave up, and made one a few months later. They said that the progress of making a tulpa was alot quicker the second time, thanks to the 'base-tulpa' that they made a few months ago. I think that's why Jex's progress was so fast, because of the base-tulpa i made back in October. And that's why i also think his voice and his current personality is different then what i expected, because it's the base-tulpa influencing it.

 

Anyways, i am going to make a effort to post this every day from now on....or atleast every other day....

[Hunzii]

Update something i will change this later. 7/19/2013

 

Man, i haven't updated in a while, huh..? Sorry about that. I just haven't been really wanting to update this report since nothing really excited has happened. Except two things.

 

1. I had a bit of a fight with Jex. Long story short, he left me for a bit. I tried to talk to him and get him to respond, but he wouldn't. We eventually made up, so yeah... But at least i now know that he isn't all laid back as i thought he was.

 

2. He also changed his form. I didn't know he changed it until recently when i felt off. I tried to visualize him, and instead of the windigo based creature he was, he was a human. I truthfuly wanted him to stay a creature thing, but oh well. We did make a deal where i'd let him stay human as long as he agreed to the idea that he could shapeshift back into his original form. Luckily he agreed.

For now though, i know next to nothing about what his new form looks like. All i know is that he has black hair and lavender eyes. He dosen't have a outfit yet, but even so i'll still visualize him in some underwear. Why? I seen this tip about visualizing Tulpas without clothes so then they'd be able to switch outfits when they want or something like that. I'm going to use that so neither of us gets bored with whatever clothes he decides to wear.

 

Anyways, this is just a little update. Hopefuly i'll have more to share soon.

[Hunzii]

Update #6 or something like that. 7/21/2013

 

Shit, i forgot to make a update yesterday...oh well. I haven't been forcing/imposing at all lately, but i have been visualizing. Jex still hasn't decided on a 'base' outfit, but i have a feeling that he wants a outfit much like Sebastian from Black Butler. But, we have been bonding. Last night, we played minecraft. Well, more like i was playing minecraft and he was telling me what to do since we can't switch or posses yet, and i got a headache after a few minutes, but it was fun. We might play it again later today.

[Hunzii]

Update #7 8/1/2013

 

Welp, i have /got/ to start updating this more. I was going to update over the weekend, but i was in Alberta. During said weekend i discovered something; Jex is the least talkative person(i guess?) i have ever met. We can keep some conversations, but for the most part they just die out. But i think one of the problems is that i'm not focusing on him as much as i should. I do passive force and stuff like that, but not so much hard-core forcing. I should get started on that soon...but for now, i'm content at what he is now. Even without a 'physical' body or separate thinking from my own, he does do a good job at keeping me company and calm for the most part.

 

In non-progress related news, i am trying to convince him to make a character on my Animal Crossing New Leaf game. I think it would be fun and it would probably help for separate thinking and possibly even possession/switching once we both agree to start trying it.

Hopefuly tomorrow i'll remember to update.

[Hunzii]

Update #8 8/2/2013

 

Jex is a like a ditto. Or a zoura. In one of my earlier posts, i said that he changed his form from a swampbeast thing to a human. Well, he changed his form again. He's still a human, but instead of the older butler-like form he had, he's now a younger boy. About...16-17, perhaps? Though he does want to look younger...not sure why. My subconscious wants, i guess?

He is keeping his hair and eye colour, white and purple respectively, but his outfit has completely changed from the formal wear to a more...punk-ish style. If anyone has seen the outfits for the song Panda Hero and/or Matryoshka, that's kinda like what his outfit is like now. Adding on one of those doctors masks and some wrapped bandages on his arms. But even with all those changes, his personality is about the same and his voice for some reason hasn't changed much. He still sounds older and wise. Which is kinda funny, imagining a young boy with that kinda voice.

Anyways, i'm not sure if this will be permanent or if he'll make smaller changes to himself, but either way i do like his new form...

 

Getting away from the form changes and shit, i made Jex a ACNL account today. Since we can't really posses or switch, we're stuck with him telling me what to do and me doing it. It can get kinda..hectic since i have to focus and talk to him all the while focusing on the game. But we can still manage to work together. But it should help us in focusing, multitasking, and like i said before, possession/switching. Speaking of which, we did try to do it. I had a tiny bit of movement in my thumb, but i am not completely sure if that was Jex or just my muscle spazing out slightly...but we'll keep at it.

[Hunzii]

Update #who even reads this shit? 8/6/2013

 

Nothing very interesting to post, except Jex has changed his voice to suit his new form. His voice sounds familiar, but i just can't place where it's from...oh well. At least now i don't giggle each time he talks. Speaking of talking, he's starting to talk to me first instead of me having to focus on him and talk first. He hasn't said much except asking me if he can "play" Animal Crossing. But it's a start, right?

[Shui]

Sounds like you're making a lot of progress, though you've been here longer than I have, so that's kinda to be expected. Have you tried asking him what he thinks his voice sounds like? Maybe he knows.