to the gates of madness

[bladewind]

hello all you wonderful people of tulpa land im going to start of by saying im sorry if you cant follow any of this, it makes sense in my sleep deprived brain but im sure when i read this tomorrow i will be as lost as you. anyways on to business.

 

i have not actually begun the tulping process, but i decided that this bloggy journaly word displayeryer thing might be just the thing to keep me focused on it. i haven't started because i want get some other things nailed down first, mainly visualization, focus, and sleeping...ever. soooo until the creation of my head buddy begins i will just be posting my progress in those areas.

 

and with that said i think im going to try to undergo something that resembles sleep. and once again, im sorry if absolutely none of this makes sence, but then if that were the case you probably haven't bothered to keep reading and im not really sure why im typing any more...yeah.

[Shui]

Good luck!

[bladewind]

thanks!

iv'e been trying to work on visualization with a bit of success but school work as of late has been a bit of a bother. other than that not much to report, maybe ill get some progress over the weekend.

 

EDIT: i was just working on some visualization exercises and i realized that i was essentially doing with a song what visualization is with shapes...audiolizing? anyways it really seemed alot more tangible than usual so i figured id put it in here.

[Fluff]

Hi bladewind, I was just curious if you have any idea of what your tulpa's form might become? Also, good luck throughout the whole process :D

[bladewind]

Hi bladewind, I was just curious if you have any idea of what your tulpa's form might become? Also, good luck throughout the whole process :D

 

hi! wow, weird i was just reading your report O.O anyways yeah i think i'm going to call her holly for the time being and start her as an anime cat girl. kind of cliche i know but i think it's a form that will hold my attention and in the end of course i will leave her form up to her, i also think beginning with a human form will make things like possession and switching a bit smoother. i may also have a second tulpa to act as kind of a watch dog and companion for holly which would be a large fox but of course i'm taking things slow and one at a time.

thanks for reading my thread, means alot to me, and good luck to you as well!

[Fluff]

Why thank you for reading my report as well, it means so much to hear that from others on the community :3 I like to hear you're taking things slowly too, I think a lot of people more or less jump the gun and cut corners with these sorts of things, and it's well worth it to take your time. Also, don't worry about cliche forms, just make sure she develops fully and her personality will make her unique as any spectacular form ever could :D Personally, I feel more comfortable with animal forms which is why I went with them, but doing whatever makes the most sense to you is always the way to go. Good luck to you and Holly :3

[bladewind]

and good luck to you ares and nix!

[bladewind]

bleh, i need to keep my updates more...up to date. im going to try to post more regularly, but well see.

 

anyways, here's a summary of my progress so far:

first off, i managed to get my visualization good enough that i felt like i could start some actual work, its not great but i think it will get the job done for now. ive also started being able to kinda playback songs in my head with a good amount of detail which should help with hearing my tulpae.

 

second, i have a consistent wonderland now. i started of on a floating city with a bit of an assassins creed feel to it, but ,through some events which i will describe in a bit, i spend most of my time on a medium sized island below the city. the island is maybe three miles across and fairly round with about one third of it being dense forest and the other two thirds being desert, dominated by a large volcano. i spend most of my time in the forest area living in a large house built into the side of a rock formation. there i have my main sleeping area, a cartography room where i can form and alter my wonderland, and a tulpaforging room where i can symbolically build my tulpa's personality visually using different materials (i.e. if she is strong willed i add a layer of brick because it is a strong material)

 

third, and most important, i have tulpae! i met my first when i was on that floating city i mentioned. i was walking along this market like street and from a darkish corner a small grey skinned imp-like girl with deep red hair and crystalline purple eyes said to me "please dont let them bury me" and kinda sent an emotion of fear and sadness towards me. after i recovered from the shock of this scared little girl speaking so clearly to me i realized that i couldn't leave her there and so i took her so a safe place and put her in a kind of protective stasis bubble for the night. the next day i found her and pulled her out of stasis so that i could talk to her, she didnt talk much but i did get some emotion of contented relief toward me. as we were walking along i got some thought that something bad was coming and instinctively jumped off of the city right before a random chinese dragon obliterated the place where we were standing. in retrospect this is a pretty damn random event and i figure that it was just an intrusive thought, but in any case after we jumped off we landed on the island and thats where we stayed. so anyways that happened, i decided to call her cryss, because of her eyes, i gave her a dog, and she spends most of her time wandering around the forest. as of right now i dont think she is really a tulpa by definition but rather a consistent wonderland character, but in any case i still care about her and try to make sure she is ok.

and finally the other day i actually began working on a full fledged tulpa, i made a catgirl form for her with brown hair, and green eyes, and dressed her in camo cargo pants, a lose olive green tee shirt covered by a brown leather vest, and a scarf-hood type thing. i started forging her personality as strong willed but kind hearted, with a love for nature, technology and learning.

 

well thats about it, sorry for the long read but i didnt want to leave out anything important. ill try to post more regularly from now on which should make things more manageable. anyways, thanks for reading, and happy tulpaforging!