Introduction and this site

[hagalaz9]

So I thought I'd introduce myself being a new member, but long time tulpa creator. I suppose the main reason for this posting is my appreciation for a community such as this. For as long as I can remember, I've been creating tulpae, though I never knew the term. I'd heard it expressed in Tibetan Buddhism terms, but never thought it applied to me. Because of this site, and what I've read here, I now know it does.

 

This has given me much more clarity to my life, and my experiences.

 

Ive had a sentient tulpa for at least ten years now. For fun, I decided to try some sentience tests I found on this site on her to see how she'd react. The first thing she did was ask me "why?". After explaining, she completed the tests reluctantly, pouting the entire time. I laughed and never questioned myself or her again.

 

She has always been a source of inspiration for me, a mentor and friend. She has helped me through the darkest moments of my depression. Before finding this site, however, I questioned what exactly I was experiencing.

 

Now I have no doubts. So thank you to all who created and participated in this site.

 

Hagalaz9

[Linkzelda]

Hey Hagalaz9, glad to have you here, and I'll give you a benefit of a doubt with the experiences you had with your tulpa. Hope you'll be able to give some insight on the experiential learning you accumulated with her as well, especially anything with having a lifestyle with tulpa in the real world. Hope you'll be able to tolerate some concepts in the sections of this forum that might be basic logic to you and her, we're hoping to reach that same level of long-term rapport that you've sustained with her.

 

Welcome to tulpa.info. :)

[hagalaz9]

Thank you Linkzelda I'm very glad to be here. I'd be happy to share my experiences and am excited to learn more about them from this community. Finding others so actively engaged in this topic has truly brought a level of clarity to my life, and I'd like to give some of that back here if I can.

 

Hagalaz9

[Nobillis]

Kevin says:

 

You may want to add a post to the Introductions Thread (my tulpas completely missed that when they first came here).

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For as long as I can remember, I've been creating tulpae, though I never knew the term. I'd heard it expressed in Tibetan Buddhism terms, but never thought it applied to me. Because of this site, and what I've read here, I now know it does.

 

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She has always been a source of inspiration for me, a mentor and friend. She has helped me through the darkest moments of my depression.

 

YES. It's awesome to see another person with a similar experience to mine. A decade? Dang, that's impressive dedication!

 

I hope you decide to stick around and contribute more of your experience to the forum. Seems like members of an older age group tend to be chased off pretty quickly.

 

Awkwardly, I haven't dug around this site much, so I'm not aware of the "sentience tests" of which you speak. May I ask which ones you used?

[hagalaz9]

Envolucris- thanks for the response, it's much appreciated. I suppose it's difficult to explain my relationship with my tulpa, she was largely created by accident in my younger days. I realized years ago that what I believed defined my reality. This belief, and an over active imagination led to what I consider my strongest ability in this field, which would be creative visualization.

 

After spending time in the military, I went into a sort of "sleep" so to speak. I never lost the skills I developed, but they became less important and slipped into the background. It took several years for me to re-discover who I was, and it was around this time my tulpa reappeared in my life.

 

She came into a lucid dream first to find me, and then she kept reappearing in others. At this point I thought of introducing her into my reality. She is the one who reminded me how long she had been present in my life. In her words: "I've always been with you, don't you remember?" And I did.

 

So I suppose I take a of grain of salt concerning my dedication, though the compliment is humbling. I give my tulpa the credit for the most part, as weird as that sounds. Sorry about ranting about my life, this is a phenomenon I've been trying to understand for it's enitrety. That's why I'm so grateful after searching for so long to find a place that has helped to give me clarity, and a community willing to discuss it.

 

I cant remember the specific sentience tests I used on my tulpa, mainly ones that required multiple visualizations at the same time. These are meant to distract the mind to see if your tulpa reacts independently. I believe one had me visualize my tulpa with an oscillating pyramid on her head balancing a feather. The first thing she did was knock it off her head, which made me laugh. She began questioning me as to the purpose of such an exercise. I asked her to do it anyways, so she sat down, pouting with this object on her head. She obviously found it degrading, so I haven't tried it again. In fact, my "questioning her sentience" has become a running joke for her, a sort of prodding at my doubt

 

Anyways, I believe I've overstayed my post, but I'd like to say I've had a lot o experience in other metaphysical practices, mainly lucid dreaming and astral projection. I'd like to give something back to this community for helping me realize that my tulpa is more than just a trick I've been playing on my self for my entire life. I created her as a friend and companion, and she has always been that and more. So thank you again to everyone participating here, it truly helps poor sods like me

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Nobillis - Ah yes I missed that as well. I suppose I should, thank you for the advice

[Linkzelda]

You're not a poor sod, we're all trying to understand this whole tulpa phenomenon the best way we can, and it was definitely a pleasure reading that in my opinion.

[hagalaz9]

Thank you Linkzelda, it's that kind of understanding that makes me grateful to have found this place

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On the contrary, I enjoyed reading that quite a lot. I appreciate your candor.

 

You and I seem to have some striking parallels, if you disregard the swapped genders.

 

She came into a lucid dream first to find me, and then she kept reappearing in others. At this point I thought of introducing her into my reality. She is the one who reminded me how long she had been present in my life. In her words: "I've always been with you, don't you remember?" And I did.

 

Precisely.

 

I think the dream manifestation is the most potent. That's exactly how my archetypal/animus/higher-self/what-have-you 'tulpa' came to be three years ago. Of course, he'd been present in my dreams before then, but never had he tried so adamantly enter my waking reality.

 

I recently added a small chronology of quotes to this thread if you're curious to compare progress and actualization. What I didn't add, though, was a more recent excerpt from a meditative conversation I held with him back in early June of this year:

 

Him: “That's one of the hardest things for you — letting go. You've been like that since you were a little kid.”

Me: “Can you tell me again how you watched over me when I was little? That way I can type the direct quote.”

Him: “Ah, well, I supervised you.”

Me: “Ok. Go on?”

Him: “Sure. I watched over you. I didn't let anything happen to you.”

 

I couldn't help but notice the similarities.

 

So I suppose I take a of grain of salt concerning my dedication, though the compliment is humbling. I give my tulpa the credit for the most part, as weird as that sounds.

 

Well, to clarify, I think your 'dedication' to be the amount of focus on visualization, as well as the strength that it takes to maintain trust in an intangible relationship. Such diligence doesn't even seem to be a common experience for most people in tangible relationships.

 

In fact, my "questioning her sentience" has become a running joke for her, a sort of prodding at my doubt

 

At least the conflict has been minimized by humor! My previous 'tulpa' attempt had me facing serious arguments more often than not. I consistently tried to bail as a result.

 

lucid dreaming and astral projection

 

This community doesn't seem too keen on the so-called 'metaphysical,' but you can count me in wherever discussions on altered consciousness exploration are concerned.

 

Hopefully we'll bump into each other again. Keep on postin'.

[hagalaz9]

Envolucris - Your post really made my day. I absolutely think we have had similar experiences, and I truly appreciate your insight into my comments. I'd love to discuss more of the possible metaphysical aspects of tulpae and the mind in general, and I look forward to more explorations into these subjects. If you're ever interested in discussing more, count me in too. Thanks again.

 

Oh and I'll definitely be taking a look at your thread. Its always good to find others who can relate so well.