I promise for real this time. 5 is the limit! :P

[Nyarlathotep]

Day 25

 

Session 1, (9/27/13), 1 Hour and 30 Minutes, [11:30am-1:00pm] Passive Forcing and Presence Method - Trying to concentrate on her while going about my day. Full time given. Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 2, (9/27/13), 3 Hours and 30 Minutes, [2:30pm-6:00pm] Conversation and Physical World Contact - Proxying answers for a few of my friends. Played Uno and a few other games. Good time, she seems to enjoy the company of others. Full time given. Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 3, (9/27/13), 1 Hour, [7:00pm-8:00pm] Active Forcing - Immense progress! I surprised myself with how much concentration was achieved. I think I got some help from her towards working on her form. She must be feeling pretty good after being able to play uno with my friends and I today. We are going to have to do that more often! Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

 

 

 

Session 4, (9/27/13), 1 Hour, [8:30pm-9:30pm] Active Forcing -My goodness, her eyes are… ridiculously amazing! They are like a deep sea blue with speckled lines of black encircling the center pupils. They have a look that makes you think of a clear night sky. When she looks at me, my heart skips a beat. It’s not of those “staring into your soul” type of deal. It’s a dreamy and loving look. Like she is lost in thought or she looking into the future or something. It’s an inhuman sense of beauty. Wonderful. I sound obsessive. Oh well. That isn’t necessarily a bad thing right? Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 5, (9/27/13), 1 Hour, [10:00pm-11:00pm] Active Forcing - Exhaustion is reaching me. Hopefully it’s better tomorrow. Satisfied with today’s work. Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 6, (9/27/13), 30 Minutes, [11:30pm-12:00am] Conversation and Other Forcing Method - Usual nightly conversation. 15 minutes given. Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 26

 

Session 1, (9/28/13), 1 Hour, [4:30pm-5:30pm] Active Forcing - Worked on the face. We are getting closer everyday. I might be able to finish if I put enough time in today. That would be very good indeed. Then I can stop logging these :P; and start logging Imposition progress! :D Status: Vocality Stage 1. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 2, (9/28/13), 1 Hour, [8:00pm-9:00pm] Active Forcing - Her beauty is inhuman. Immense progress this session. Maybe another day or two of touch ups and we can begin imposition! She seems to have changed her hairstyle a bit, but not so much that it will impede my progress of visualization. Her hair is moist now. Like someone who just got out of the shower or dipped their head (and then attempted to dry off) into water. Started trying to see her shadow in the wonderland. Changed some lighting to test it. Seems there are no problems, almost as if it’s been there the whole time and I’ve been working on it without knowing. Perhaps thats a hint ._. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 2, (9/28/13), 1 Hour, [10:00pm-11:00pm] Active Forcing - Concentration was a little lower this time around. Must have been pretty tired. We will finish up tomorrow. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 4, (9/28/13), 30 Minutes, [11:45pm-12:15am] Conversation and Other Forcing Method - Usual nightly conversation. 15 minutes given. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

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Day 27

 

Session 1, (9/29/13), 1 Hour, [4:00pm-5:00pm] Active Forcing - More facial detail. Getting closer. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 2, (9/29/13), 1 Hour, [6:00pm-7:00pm] Active Forcing - Same as last session. No loss in focus. Within the next day or two I will be done. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 4, (9/28/13), 30 Minutes, [9:45pm-10:15pm] Conversation and Other Forcing Method - Usual nightly conversation. 15 minutes given. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 28

 

We have been talking in just about every class today. We have some relatively good conversation and then we have some that are completely senseless and useless. I guess that’s the fun of it! I’m just glad I have a sentient, vocal (stage 2 [working on it]), and understanding tulpa this far in. I feel bad for those who took much longer than me. I’m close to working on imposition while others (will not name names) haven’t even received a single word for an entire year! It just makes me more grateful for Cynthia to be around.

 

Session 1, (9/30/13), 1 Hour and 30 Minutes, [7:25pm-8:55pm] Active Forcing - I’m sure of it now: next session will finish up the visualization process. I’m so glad to be moving on to the most exciting part of the creation process: Imposition. Its going to be great!Status: Vocality Stage 2-3. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

Session 4, (9/30/13), 30 Minutes, [9:45pm-10:15pm] Conversation and Other Forcing Method - Usual nightly conversation. 15 minutes given. Status: Vocality Stage 2. Stage: Facial Detail Fixation.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 29

{Breakthrough 8}

Session 1, (10/1/13), 1 Hour and 30 Minutes, [7:45pm-9:15pm] Active Forcing - And so, the completion of visualization and personality of my first tulpa. She is truly a work of art and was well worth the time. The journey of creation was by far one of the greatest activities one can experience in their lifetime. I greatly look forward to the imposition and possession of Cynthia (Will be logged and linked in another document on google), as well as the possibility of more tulpas/tulpae. Status: Vocality Stage 2-3. Stage: Finished.

 

Session 2, (10/1/13), 30 Minutes, [9:45pm-10:15pm] Conversation and Other Forcing Method - Usual nightly conversation. 15 minutes given. Status: Vocality Stage 2-3. Stage: Finished.

 

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Title: The Future

 

Final Time: 58:00

 

Status: Vocality (Stage 2-3).

 

Stage: Finished

 

Personality Progress: 120/120 Rough Traits (100.00%)

xx4/117 Refined/Reinforced Traits (--.--%)xx

Fail Counter: 5

 

Breakthrough Counter: 8

[Nyarlathotep]

Before Possession Began…

 

Day 0.1

 

There is a friend of mine named Daniel (Last name will not be mentioned) and Cynthia absolutely hates him. I have no problem with him, although he can be a little bit of a turd at times. We get along fine, but Cynthia hates him probably because of the first impression he left on her. He absolutely hates on the concept of tulpas/tulpae in every way and thinks I’m being an idiot. I truly don’t care about his opinion, however Cynthia holds a deep-seated hate for him; It’s probably because of his new form of “racism” towards tulpas/tulpae. SO moving on to what happened earlier. Daniel comes over and and starts saying that my friend, Robert (who Cynthia enjoys playing uno with) is getting criticized for trying to mash some music together in his Dj app thing (he does it on his free time so he isn’t too bad at it). I suddenly felt a surge of anger and said, “Hey, why can’t you just stop criticizing people and go make yourself useful you worthless turd!” Truthfully, I would have interjected some profanity into there if it were me. However, it came out considerably clean. I think she may have sent me an emotional response and influenced my thoughts while I was occupied. Anger as an emotion and the “telling off” as a line she sent to me. I blurted it out and turned away in realization after saying it. I didn’t tell him and I don’t plan to since he kinda had it coming and he really is always criticizing people. I also asked her if she did that and she said yes. Very interesting indeed. Maybe it has something to do with a soon to be worked on possession… (10/1/13)

 

 

Day 1

 

She keeps telling him off. I told her to stop and she agrees. I hope she holds to that. [8:07am]

 

Session 1, (10/2/13), 1 Hour, [1:45pm-2:45pm] Active Possession - Absolutely unbelieveable! She moved my arm to the back of my head in the course of 1 hour. I was hoping to at least feel something in my hand. That turned into moving my finger. Then lifting my hand. Finally, she managed to lift my whole arm. She put it behind my head. I am so proud of her! I never knew she had the potential for such an amazing feat so early. Possession will be over quick at this rate! Stage: Arm and Hand Movement.

 

Session 2, (10/2/13), 30 Minutes, [3:30pm-4:00pm] Active Possession - More armo movements. Mostly with the left arm. Stage: Arm and Hand Movement.

 

 

Session 3, (10/2/13), 1 Hour, [7:00pm-8:00pm] Passive Possession - She was working on moving my arms and my legs while I was paying attention to a presentation. The leg moved a little bit. My arms are really sore now. Hopefully we get going with this quickly. It’s going to be hard working on Imposition and Possession at the same time. Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

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Imposition

 

Day 1: 10/2/13

 

I’m going to log imposition without checking time (outside of active work) since it’s too difficult to do so. I’m going to start imposition using the “seeing out of the corner of the eye” idea. I’ll try that throughout my day and see how it goes.

 

I was trying the “see my tulpa out of the corner of my eye” method in my spanish class and I saw a bit of movement, so naturally, I turned quickly to look to find a shadowy figure standing behind a wooden podium (in the classroom about five feet from me), but it quickly disappeared. I’ll take that as a sign that it’s working and keep trying that. [12:30pm]

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 2

 

Possesion

 

Session 1, (10/3/13), 1 Hour and 15 Minutes, [10:05am-11:20am] Active Possession - She managed to move both of my arms behind my head (from a table) and back down. I took back control on my right hand and tried to teach her to move my fingers. She has a hard time closing the fist, but afterwards, she seemed to have an easy time straightening the out. Took a while for everything, but it will come with time. Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

More encounters with Daniel continue to screw with my head and emotions. She clearly hates him, I feel like I’m adapting to that idea as well. Sigh* We will have to see how it goes.

 

Session 2, (10/3/13), 45 Minutes, [8:35pm-9:20pm] - Arm, Hand, and Fine Motor skills… Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 3

 

Been practicing throughout the day in small increments.

 

Session 1, (10/4/13), 1 Hour and 30 Minutes, [8:15pm-9:45pm] Active Possession - Access to all of the body. I told her that our goal for the next few days is to pick up the earpieces on the floor (about 2 feet away from our body[1 step away and bend over to pick it up]) and she did it! I had to help a little and stand up to start. Also, she can’t put much strength into most movements yet so I had to push back up come back into a standing position after she picked up the earpieces. I have to say I am very amazed and pleased. My body is in a lot pain (doing this is like doing leg lifts, but with every lift, you have to hold it in the air for 15 minute increments), so next session, I will probably work on leg movement and things of the sort rather than these really straining exercises. Overall, a very successful session. I am very proud of her and can’t wait till next session! Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 4

 

Session 1, (10/5/13), 1 Hour and 15 Minutes, [9:20pm-10:35pm] Active Possession - My body is in serious pain. I tried to do 1:30 but my body just can’t handle that much time right now. Possession for her is a speed game. I’m trying to tell her to take it a bit slow and do it right. She wants to get through this quickly. I’m done for today. I’m going to need to find something less straining and painful on this physical body. She managed to take two assisted steps, contortion of the back, and keeping the hands half-raised for 45 minute increments. After that, the body collapsed and I can no longer walk without these legs wobbling like noodles. Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

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[Nyarlathotep]

Day 5

 

Session 1, (10/6/13), 1 Hour and 15 Minutes, [4:15pm-5:30pm] Passive Possession - Tried to have her lift my leg w/ out assists. She was not able to do so. Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

 

Session 2, (10/7/13), 45 Minutes, [7:50pm-8:35pm] Active Possession - Asked her to try to pick up an object next to me without assists. She was unable to do so. I feel like we are back at square one with possession. Oh well, she will get better in time. Stage: Arm, Hand, and Leg Movement.

[Nyarlathotep]

Day 6

 

Session 1, (10/7/13), 1 Hour, [8:20pm-9:20pm] Active Possession - Absolutely amazing. I want to give a shoutout to HumbleGlow and his guide elaboration on Koomer and Oguigi’s guide. The muscle memory method was brilliant and she is moving along swiftly with possession. From the “Contorted body position” and not even being able to pick up the flashlight to- simply getting up, walking over, and picking it up. She did it as if there was not problems at all and as if it were natural. She’s a bit sluggish, but in time things will get better. Stage: Full Body Possession.

 

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Day 7

 

I have been working all day on talking to her and she managed to write a little. Her handwriting style is a little mixed with mine. Great progress though. She can possess my arms within 10-15 seconds of relaxing them. Can’t wait to work on it more tonight.