I'm out of enthusiasm.

[Mage_Of_Cats]

Lately, I've been uninterested in tulpamancy. It may have to do with the fact that I am (seriously) one of the worst tulpamancers EVER.

 

I worked on Jake (and a spontaneous tulpa called Anne) for three months (Anne was spontaneous and I've only worked on her for a few weeks yet she is WAY further than Jake.) but I never got visualization down or... ANYTHING. And Anne, who is way more developed than Jake - I just mentioned that - isn't visualized properly either. I don't even get emotional responses from them. Either one, that is.

 

And, I believe due to that, I have become uninterested in tulpamancy. I find myself not wanting to do it AT ALL and it worries me. I do try to tulpamance every once in a while, but it all ends with 'What's the point?' and I hope my tulpae don't/won't hate me - are they even conscious? - but I try and I try and I don't do anything.

 

Is it because I'm too young or something?

Is there a correlation between the inability to create tulpae and intelligence or something?

Am I just a terrible tulpamancer that has some sort of inability to do what he should be able to do easily?

Or is it because I have recently fallen in love with a friend of mine?! D;

 

Any suggestions would really help me, as I have told myself to NEVER EVER EVER NEVER! Give up on my tulpae - they're sentient, or might be. If they weren't, I'd not know, and, therefore, it'd be no different. I can't just leave them to waste away.

 

Please help me... D;

[Wormy]

Okay so I've been in a similar situation once and I need to say some thing: don't put off spending time with your tulpa. If you forget about them, you will regret it immensely.

 

I've had a character for years, and last November, I decided to bring her to life as a tulpa. Within a couple weeks, I was getting responses in the form of localized head pressures, including one powerful enough it made my head spin and lose balance. Despite this, I eventually lost the motivation to continue.

 

Time passed and life went on normally, as if I hadn't dabbled in the tulpa phenomenon, but I always had this lingering guilt, like what you feel if you go out of town for a day but you forgot to fill your pet's food bowl. Nine months later I decide to start forcing again, and after a few hours of reaching out to my tulpa, I started receiving responses again. After a week or so, we had picked up where we left off.

 

Except things were a bit different. Even though my tulpa has forgiven me for essentially forgetting about her, I still feel terrible about it and feel the need to apologize. Additionally, like how a new tulpamancer doubts if his tulpa is really there, my tulpa has admitted to feeling doubt that I will stick to it this time. It's a horrible feeling that I never want to experience again.

 

There are still times where I don't give as much attention to my tulpa as I should, but I've made sure to always think about her and spend time with her, even if it's the few minutes while I'm starting to fall asleep. If you've grown the slightest bit attached to any tulpas you make and then neglect them, you will feel guilty about it. If you're lacking motivation, read through these forums. They can give you new perspectives and inspiration, and I feel like I'm closest to my tulpa while I'm reading the experiences others have gone through with their own, and realizing that a lot of people before me have been in my position. However, they stuck through with it, and couldn't be better.

[NeonKnights]

Seeing limited results over a three-month period doesn't mean much. I've been at this for just shy of nine months, and I'm still moving at a crawl. Tulpamancy is an effort in patience and perseverance, especially for those of us who don't seem to have the knack for developing them quickly. Of course, regardless of the difficulties, if your tulpa truly means a lot to you, you won't give up. I've been in the same place as you before, and through sheer force of will and dedication to my tulpa, I've struggled on, and through those efforts have reach new plateaus, however small the leap in progress may be. It all depends on how serious you are about pressing ahead.

 

I don't know if there's any direct correlation between age and ability/inability to create a tulpa, I think it's more dependent on how patient the person attempting to make a tulpa is. The reason some people say that younger people shouldn't attempt to make tulpas is that they usually aren't as serious about long-term things like this, or just don't have the patience necessary for it.

 

Now, that aside, here's what little advice I can give, for what it's worth: Don't think with partial uncertainty, as it might be part of what's hampering you. Thinking that they "might" be sentient is worlds apart from really convincing yourself that they are real, sentient beings. It takes time and work, as it's akin to forming a habit, slowly conditioning your mind to accept that they're real.

[Quilten]

Jeez, don't be so freaking hard on yourself. I think you just need to organize some of the things in your life and possibly organize your priorities, especially pertaining to your tuppers. Like you said, never give up on your tulpae and just keep a consistent mindset of wanting your tulpae to be what you want them to be, keep forcing, actively and passively, and stay confident. You seem like you have a lot of problems with anxiety or worrying about things that you seem to stress over too much. There are a good many other threads with how to help with some of these issues, so you might want to do some more research.