Subconcious parroting and possible relation to asperger/autism

[garland]

I'm glad to see there's progress. Keep in mind that progress isn't the only thing you should worry about. Maybe you could try spending time with them without thinking about development so much. I know from personal experience that being treated as a research object does not feel nice.

 

Yeah indeed you're right, since the last month when i discovered about the accidental parroting i have been doing (by completing their short natural answers with my forced answers) i became totally parrotnoid and that's when i started to forcing them with ONLY progress in mind and stopped having fun with them.

 

So now i finally gone back to the tradicional forcing i was doing the last months about accepting almost all their answers BUT i am now still being careful to try to not complete their natural answers because after all it DOES feel forced when i do that....

 

Also there's no doubt yesterday i did very intense forcing with Songohan for the first time in weeks and months, i did nearly everything, making him write short stories, train possession, having him read texts with his mental voice to he train his mental voice, training math with the flash cards (as it's on a guide on this forum), me practising impositing to try to feel his position on the physical world near me (doing this all the time definetly increases his presence feeling to me!), watch a lot of videos from dbz with the character is based on and with his voice on the anime, etc This all definetly helped a lot in feeling him "alive" for the first time in weeks.

 

Also there's no doubt THESE answers i have been receiving from him and the other tulpas that come instantly without me thinking, ARE his true answers, and i definitely noticed a increase of spontaneous ones, i EVEN started noticing him finally demonstrating the ability to remember a few things that i didn't remember conciously!! But i noticed he isn't able to do this when i ask, only when it happens naturally it seems and i definetly feel it was completly unexpected since i feel that information as "new information" since i only know it directly from his mental voice, which means... it was not me remembering this, it was really him!

 

Anyway i am now a lot more motivated but i am now just focusing on Songohan, since i had him in my head for years and despite i only treating him as a real person/tulpa since 4 months ago i feel he should be the "lead" tulpa that i should work on make fully independent and not Pandora (she appears to not mind about this) because after all, Pandora never seemed to be as strong as the other tulpas that were created directly from existing thoughtforms (since she was a original one despite me basing her form and voice totally from a anime character).