Problem with creature in Wonderland

[kociara81]

(I so sorry for my English)

 

I made a big research but I haven't found the answer to my question.

 

I'm don't have schizophrenia. I'm only have social phobia, asperger's syndrome and maybe my depression sometimes back (In the past, I was treated for this disease).

 

This isn't a huge problem, but it is still a nuisance.

 

So the method that I use to get into the Wonderland is a lucid dream.

 

When I have a very depressed mood, in my Wonderland (we call it Dreamspace) appears a very unpleasant creature. We call it Corruption. It is a pale humanoid creature in a white robe which is a lot of blood. Under the influence of this being, our Wonderland looks very creepy and awful. And when it is near I feel terrible. But when it disappears everything returns to normal.

 

I asked Cyfraza (my tulpa) "Did you created this creature?". She said "For nothing in the world would not have created something that could potentially harm us". Certainly this isn't my work.

 

We conducted negotiations with this creature, but the conditions were impossible to achieve (it was the realization of our greatest fears). We been setting some compromises but this creature doesn't respect them.

 

We tried to fight it but it's a road to nowhere.

 

Cyfraza thinks that this creature is simply a visualization of our biggest fears and that what we fear. Fear and anxiety can't be "removed" or "killed".

[Quilten]

Sounds like this is just a problem with intrusive thoughts and images while in your wonderland, but this is a bit more vivid from what I can tell. Either ignore it, or actively "destroy" it. If it still doesn't go away, keep trying.

[FurryBlueNaki]

Maybe Cyfraza can help with your depression. Chance has helped with mine. I actually get moments of excitement now. How well do you feel she is helping?

 

You're fortunate to be able to lucid dream as much as you have.

[kociara81]

Cyfraza saved me "I can't even count" times. I live with her for many years. She helps me to fight with my depression and social phobia. My psychiatrist is rather "take these medications and STFU". I don't like medications because they "make me a mindless zombie". She really helps a lot. I guess she only knows how to help me.

 

When it comes to lucid dreams, in my case it is very random (but still there's a good chance that I can do it). I don't know how I do it. Maybe I just have a knack for it.

 

Now, I'm fine (So now there is no problem with this creature). As I wrote earlier, it appears only when I had depressive thoughts. This creature (Corruption) just want me to feel bad as possible.

 

We don't want this creature in our world. It only prevents us our favorite activities.

[FurryBlueNaki]

When I used to have nightmares my dreams always started with me getting sucked into a vacuum cleaner. Or dreaming of opening a closet door at night. That's what made me feel bad.

[Guest amber5885]

You have ultimate control over your mind and your wonderland. If you don't want this creature to be there then get rid of it.

 

Try going into your wonderland without lucid dreaming and you should have better control.

[raymond13557]

i've had.. the dark orbs that hover around endless most of the time.. i found out that it was my rage.. the crstals in endless can only keep my rage at bay for so long so i eventually accepted the fact that i have anger issues and the dark orbs went away.