Kai's Tulpa Report.

[mr insano]

I agree with @Cinemaphobe. I've always gone by this: If the action seems consistent with the personality of the tulpa, then it is probably the tulpa. :) Mine will sometimes tell me "That wasn't me; that was just your subconscious being screwy" or "Yep, that was me!" This is usually when her personality or appearance deviate quite a bit from what they were originally supposed to be. But for the most part it's probably your tulpa.

 

ooh yeah, I sometimes fall asleep when I force. :/ It happened a lot more when I first started. I try to relax my body but keep my mind awake, sort of like the WILD method of lucid dreaming if you've ever heard of that. If you're really tired, you might want to take a short (10-15 min.) nap first, then wake up, wash your face, do some exercises or something to wake you up, and then force. Some of our best forcing sessions have been after we've had a quick nap. :)

 

Anyway, great progress with your tulpa! Keep it up.

[Stopmotionkai]

Well i have been narrating a little bit better when I'm out and about! I just need to practice to improve my focus when i do talk to dipper though i haven't heard anything from him .since the first incident. Over the last few days i have active forced very little and im starting to feel like I'm letting him down, as well as myself. Gah motivation is hard. I know if i could hear him, he would be able to encourage me to go on and this would be a lot easier on us.

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Also thank you to the posters above. Your involvement and additions with this thread helps a lot. Thanks guys.

[Stopmotionkai]

11/19/14 - Report Entry

 

Worked on dipper's form without clothes on, so i can just plain work on his angles and movements. I also did worked on trying to express color a bit better in my visualizations.i admit to getting rusty and slow with my work, but i had fun with it tonight! Just gonna do some more bedtime narrating to him as i sleep! Im also gonna shape up my format by dating and adding a section that bullet points my Tulpamancing improvements or troubles since the last report.

 

Progress -

+ Improved visualization of base form.

+ better color visualization in eyes and face

 

Need improvement -

- wonderland is a mess

- narration work is weak

[Stopmotionkai]

12-02-14 -Report

 

No real progess to go along with the report. Ive seem to have lost my interest in it for the time being. honestly i just have doubts wether or not this is real. Once ive inspired myself il go back and start working with dipper more so then i do now. Rare narration is all i do. No active forcing in awhile.

[TheSanctuary]

I know the feeling - I stopped for several reasons but then felt really crappy about it afterwards an now am going at it much more than before. just keep passive narrating whenever you can, maybe even explain your reasons for losing faith in the idea to your tulpa so they know it's not their fault or some such. Hopefully you will find your spark and drive again, but either way I wish you well.

 

I would jump into the essay of "don't give up and you can do anything together!!" but I'm sure your smart enough to figure out what it would say, so I'll save you the dramatics.

 

What makes you doubt if I may ask? Anything specific?

[Stopmotionkai]

Sorry for the very late reply...i didn't get notified by email. I lost faith because i have always believed in formulaic results and predictable success and as we know Tulpas are very unpredictable at times and it makes me believe I'm doing something wrong. I don't trust myself to make the right calls on wether or not I'm actually doing the right thing or making legit progress. It just added up and i slowed down after awhile. :(

[TheSanctuary]

Yeah it's an easy trap to fall into - the unpredictability and prevailance of many "one week to vocal" tulpae here doesn't do much to help confidence as much as we tell ourselves everyone is different and everyone will have varying speeds of development.

 

You still feeling that way or was it a passing thing? I noticed your description of his first words and it sounds a lot like Vixens first words to me, which were far more non-sensical- "they have security cameras!" - made no sense at all. But the sensation you describe is almost exactly what i experienced.

 

All the best.

-TS

[Stopmotionkai]

well. ive been out of the game for months. been contemplating a second attempt. will update when i tomorrow when get my bearings again.