how badly could a dream impact a developing tulpa?

[Guest]

(Background?)I'm relatively new to tulpaforcing. I'm about 16 hours in and have been working on personality, her form, and our wonderland. I'm unsure if she is truly sentient or not but I've been able to tell her to calm down (as if she was looking for attention) when I get head pressure while I'm not 100% focused on her and I would get immediate partial relief. I think I've had some emotional responses (joy-like) to songs I've listened to before many times. I tried King of the Vandenreich's prism technique yesterday for the first time to test for sentience without results.

 

Anyways, I was trying the prism rather late at night (bad idea) and I suppose I fell asleep shortly after doing it. I rarely have dreams, but last night I dreamed that I had killed someone out of anger (not going to go into detail about it). Now, what worries me is that violence/killing/anger really goes directly against the personality traits that I've been working on with my tulpa.

 

When I woke up I still could recall the dream well and I wanted to discuss it with her, but when I tried going into my wonderland to talk with her I felt an emptiness of sorts. I didn't get any pressure whatsoever, and I couldn't feel myself talking to her. I've been trying to sense her again to talk about it but I haven't been able to concentrate on her like I've been able to every other time.

 

So, the question/concern that I have now is could the dream have possibly made her upset with me for dreaming something like that to a point where she would try to avoid me? Or could it possibly be that I'm putting a block on myself by worrying about it too much? It's been about 5 hours since I woke up and I haven't been able to clearly focus on her.[/size][/font]

[Chupi]

The dream probably didn't affect her in the way you're thinking. There's two things that may have happened:

1. The dream may have scared her. I'd suggest telling her it was only a dream, you'd never really do such a thing (would you?), etc.

2. This. Falling asleep forcing can do bad things to your tulpa. It's not irreversible, but it's unpleasant and traumatic to the tulpa, especially early in the process. Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't - I think it's a question of whether you resist and stay focused when your mind tries to wander as you fall asleep. My theory is that bad things only happen if you're focusing on your tulpa at the moment you fall asleep.

 

Either way, your tulpa will probably be back to about normal tomorrow, and you can talk to her about it then.

 

Early on with mine, I fell asleep while forcing and "lost" her entirely for a day. More recently I don't "lose" her like that, but she says some bad stuff still happens. I'm not sure if this means less happens, if it's less scary now she's older, or she no longer hides for the day because she now knows how much I love her, that I understand what happened, and that I'd never do things like that to her intentionally.

 

DON'T FALL ASLEEP FORCING

[Captain Nemo]

Try reading the sentient tulpa surveys, those have some good information regarding this:

http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Survey-and-stylometric-test-for-fluently-speaking-tulpa

 

Basically, from what I've seen, it can be rather scary and confusing for the tulpa if they're not fully sentient and understand what's going on. However, it doesn't usually affect anything long-term unless you fall asleep a lot while forcing.

[Guest]

Thank you Nemo/Chupi for your responses, I'll try talking with her again later and hopefully, if not today, then I'll be able to sense her again tomorrow.

 

I'll definitely check out those links and I may bump this again later if I have further questions or progress.

[Guest]

Don't worry too much. Your tulpa is alright, scary dreams aren't something to be scared about. Pinkie Pie method all the way. You are the one upset and affected by this dream and difficulties with concentrating on your tulpa will vanish as soon as you let yourself relax.

Holy holy, you even count hours since your awakening. Thats too much of tension in you. Stop your mind projecting fears on everything.

[Guest]

Don't y'all niggas see the question and answer forum?

[TulpaCouple]

Luke mentioned that he is able to get away from a dream, even if Nate fell asleep during Tulpa forcing, and it's really nothing other than just being spooky or just fucked up. If he did have to stay awake it might just piss him off because he would basically be forced to stay in the dream and abide by all the dream's rules which tend to be fucked up.

 

But android hibernate mode for the win.