After 5 years I break my silence.

[whimsy]

Hey

So I introduced myself on the appropriate thread but as a starting post I may as well do it again. I'm Whimsy but you can call me Alice if you like. I have had a tulpa of sorts for around 5 years now, but what is different is that he... takes on the form of a certain well-known fictional character, which makes it difficult for others to believe his credibility.

 

I suppose you could also say there was a moment when he was 'created' or 'conceived' (forgive me, my lexis is a little rusty) during a dream I had when I was 13 where my family was placed in immediate danger and he emerged. Since then I have been aware of his presence.

 

About a year later I started speaking to soulbonds + multiples on various forums around a year after this happened. The experiences I described to them sounded like I had discovered a 'soulbond' and so I spent about a year learning more about him, how he came to be in contact with me, et cetera. Of course, the fact that I was so young didn't make any of this particularly easy. I ended up leaving Livejournal just before 2012 but he was still around, and I found that he wasn't exactly easy to say goodbye to. In the terminology of tulpa, I guess he became a self-sustaining 'creation' if I can say I really created him myself. I'm still not sure whether he came from 'me' or he is more of a 'soulbond' than a tulpa. That's still something I have to work out. But after a difficult few months, I made my peace with him, and he did /seem/ to fade.

 

I didn't hear from him for a good 2 years, and then suddenly he's back. Now granted, my depression has recently got bad again, and it's something I have been struggling with since I was 10. As to whether these are connected, however, I'm still unsure.

 

I'm pretty reluctant to disclose the identity of my tulpa until a little later on as it doesn't exactly help my case. But as for me, I'm now 18 years old, and I'm studying English at university in London.

 

This, I guess, is where I'm going to document past, present and future experiences.

[Faemon]

That's interesting. I've never heard of a soulbond or multiple before.

 

Oh, and my tulpa, an accidental tulpa, came to me in the form of Captain Hook and I refer to him as a spirit guide in other communities so...solid solidarity here with the fear of not being taken seriously because of associations with fiction.

 

Edit to add: There are numerous fictional character based tulpa, too, I suppose it helps a lot with visualization and imposition to have a reference point.

[whimsy]

That's interesting. I've never heard of a soulbond or multiple before.

 

Oh, and my tulpa, an accidental tulpa, came to me in the form of Captain Hook and I refer to him as a spirit guide in other communities so...solid solidarity here with the fear of not being taken seriously because of associations with fiction.

 

Edit to add: There are numerous fictional character based tulpa, too, I suppose it helps a lot with visualization and imposition to have a reference point.

 

That's pretty cool. It's interesting to see that I'm not the only one who has these tulpa 'come' to them in a sense. How many tulpa do you have? Do you find that any are particularly stronger than the others? I've had a few over the years but none of them have really stuck around for longer than a month.

[glitchthe3rd]

My first tulpa was based off of a fictional character, but she's not around anymore. And to the OP, a tulpa can be very helpful in your English studies as well. You can use them to bounce ideas off of or assign them to take the opposite side of a debate. They might even contribute some ideas of their own or point out something you didn't notice. It's believed that the muses of ancient Greece were actually tulpas belonging to writers, musicians, etc. that helped them to tap into their creativity, so this isn't exactly a new concept.

[Faemon]

That's pretty cool. It's interesting to see that I'm not the only one who has these tulpa 'come' to them in a sense. How many tulpa do you have? Do you find that any are particularly stronger than the others? I've had a few over the years but none of them have really stuck around for longer than a month.

 

My first came to me in a dream, too. That wasn't always around, but would recur again after a few months, then again after a few weeks of the previous appearance, then became more stable. Maybe a few years after that first dream appearance, he kind of vanished along with this relatively much younger thoughtform that appeared almost a year before their disappearance, so they interacted often. My intuition tells me that they married and left me alone, which I don't mind. I'm happy for them, and I believe that if they aren't in my life then it's likely because I don't need them.

 

Right now, it's just the one, but there are about two others that are making increasingly regular appearances. There's at least one, way back, that only appeared once for a few minutes.

 

It's believed that the muses of ancient Greece were actually tulpas belonging to writers, musicians, etc. that helped them to tap into their creativity, so this isn't exactly a new concept.

 

Elizabeth Gilbert gave a TEDtalk about this "elusive creative genius" that's available on both YouTube and the official TEDtalk website.

 

I sort of go with a more Jungian approach to it, especially from what I've read of his Red Book, which I believe were basically Carl Jung's wonderland journeys (Jung called that treatment Active Imagination which is visualizing dreams) although I seem to have read somewhere that he spoke to Philemon as if Philemon were really there walking with him in his garden and giving him advice about his patients or something. Everything seemed to be a fiction to Jung, that is, "symbols" so he treated them all with the same potentially-profound significance of any psychological analysis of dreams: Salome (from the Bible), Elijah (ditto), Philemon (Greek mythology), Izdubar (The Epic of Gilgamesh)...

[whimsy]

My first tulpa was based off of a fictional character, but she's not around anymore. And to the OP, a tulpa can be very helpful in your English studies as well. You can use them to bounce ideas off of or assign them to take the opposite side of a debate. They might even contribute some ideas of their own or point out something you didn't notice. It's believed that the muses of ancient Greece were actually tulpas belonging to writers, musicians, etc. that helped them to tap into their creativity, so this isn't exactly a new concept.

 

That's pretty interesting. I did briefly have a tulpa based off the Homestuck character Calliope who, as the name suggests, comes from the Greek muse so that's always helpful.

 

My seemingly-permanent tulpa, however, isn't that into literature, but when it comes to being in dangerous situations (of which I have been in a few), he is incredibly useful. Guess that's what happens when a tulpa comes to you with traits of physical strength and fitness.

 

Did anyone's tulpa also come with 'premade' traits like this? Or did you choose them all yourself?

[Guest amber5885]

Toby just appeared on Day when I was about 7 or so. He's always been who he is, his apperance has changed but not his personality

[glitchthe3rd]

 

I sort of go with a more Jungian approach to it, especially from what I've read of his Red Book, which I believe were basically Carl Jung's wonderland journeys (Jung called that treatment Active Imagination which is visualizing dreams) although I seem to have read somewhere that he spoke to Philemon as if Philemon were really there walking with him in his garden and giving him advice about his patients or something. Everything seemed to be a fiction to Jung, that is, "symbols" so he treated them all with the same potentially-profound significance of any psychological analysis of dreams: Salome (from the Bible), Elijah (ditto), Philemon (Greek mythology), Izdubar (The Epic of Gilgamesh)...

 

Ah, someone else that has actually read this book on this site. I was starting to think I was the only one who's trying to take this tulpa thing seriously ^^

 

 

That's pretty interesting. I did briefly have a tulpa based off the Homestuck character Calliope who, as the name suggests, comes from the Greek muse so that's always helpful.

 

My seemingly-permanent tulpa, however, isn't that into literature, but when it comes to being in dangerous situations (of which I have been in a few), he is incredibly useful. Guess that's what happens when a tulpa comes to you with traits of physical strength and fitness.

 

Did anyone's tulpa also come with 'premade' traits like this? Or did you choose them all yourself?

 

I think their traits are whatever you assigned to them at creation, maybe in this case your brain was filling an unconscious need for someone to take that role. That doesn't stop him from taking more of an interest in the subject matter though, maybe you should try seeing what genres of writing he's into.

[Faemon]

Ah, someone else that has actually read this book on this site. I was starting to think I was the only one who's trying to take this tulpa thing seriously ^^

 

Internet high five! :D Ironically, I think the more seriously people take it in that direction, the less seriously it can be taken by the more general collective? Active Imagination isn't very methodical unlike tulpaforcing, and some flat-out weird things can happen that might just sound fake to people who (rightfully) can't believe something so meaningful could be as easy as getting out of your own way. Not that relaxing your conscious analytical mind, and faithfully recording what that brings about, is necessarily easy.

[Linkzelda]

Whoever knew a book could be used as a conduit to sustain delusions of grandeur that a person has achieved an enlightenment of taking a tulpa endeavor seriously? Maybe collective unconscious is a filler to avoid the explanatory gaps with dreams and tulpas, and can be used to further one's confidence in this endeavor.

 

Interesting...