kovyxen's old tulpa journal archive

[Vos]

What do you mean by 'sense' in this case? If you're meaning, which sense i perceive my tulpa with, then.. well, i'm not trying to improve any in particular at the moment, but i do know i need to better see them. I'd like to be able to see color and expression when imposing, not just kinda 'understanding' what they're doing because our minds are linked.

 

By sense I meant something like touch or taste. Understanding what they're doing generally means open-eyed visualization or 'presence imposition', not actual imposition, but it does lead to it with time.

[kovyxen]

To which i reply more bluntly; sight. Indeed, that is what i am aiming for. ^^

[Jake'N'Aelita]

To which i reply more bluntly; sight. Indeed, that is what i am aiming for. ^^

 

Same here, though Alieta and I are still VERY new to all of this, she dosnt even speek yet, let alone move on her own or anything. Not intilerly sure how to continue from here because i have her form down ( im a self taught cartoonist so visualizing people is what i do 24/7 ) and i gave her personality traits but now im at a loss for what to do now 0-o any tips or advice from any of you ? Btw i wanted to mention you all are the reason i am now trying to create my own Tulpa ! You guys are awesome!!

[kovyxen]

Seeing your icon, which i'm guessing is you and Alice (so i've seen her name change on your progress report), i'm gonna guess that perhaps you are into the game Mass Effect? The woman in your icon looks much like an Asari, and the clothing looks like that of typical casual outfits for spacers. Though, she could also look like a Na'Vi from Avatar, considering the tail.

 

You're saying all of us, as in specifically Vyx, Sans and I, are the inspiration for you to create a tulpa? Oh wow, oh my gosh, that's really... Ah, i have no words, it just makes me really happy. Thank you Jake! X3

 

Yeah, it kinda surprised me too, it's nice to know my few irregular posts on here have such impact.

 

But anyway, as for what you should do now... Being a cartoonist, it shouldn't be too difficult for you to get her form down well enough. I'm an artist myself, and since i also write/rp a lot, developing my tulpa's character has been rather easy. Apparently, artists and writers have a tendency to be better (or at least faster) at tulpamancy than those that don't draw or write. And since you already have her form and some personality traits, i'd say just let them develop. Talk to her every day, not just in the wonderland, and listen out for her replies. They probably won't be vocal for a while, so your first replies will be in a somewhat foreign 'feeling' or 'intent'. Afterwards at some point, you can teach her to use her voice, and she may start speaking her replies once she gets the hang of that.

 

Ana first taught me how to speak by singing, and having me follow along. It was mostly just wordless vocalizations, like in

from the Naruto OST, but then eventually she began having me sound out different words. Because i watched her do it every day, it wasn't too difficult to pick up, took about a week for me to get kinda good at it. At that time i didn't have a form, Ana wanted me to get good at talking first so i could tell her what kind of form i wanted, but i bet it sure would've speeded my progress if i had a form earlier. So, it's good that Alice has that. ^u^

 

I'd spend about a month just talking to her, teaching her stuff, and practicing visualizing her form. If she doesn't progress in her ability to communicate by then, you might wanna ask someone else for advice, ahah... ^^" hope this helps

[kovyxen]

Been a while since i've posted here, but it's worth mentioning... Sans changed his name to Leo, short for Galileo cuz he likes star gazing. So it's pronounced 'ley-oh', not 'lee-oh'.

 

Leo had become quite unhappy with my mindscape and was very bored with it. He told me he felt useless and caged, so i told him he could do what he wanted. We struggled for a bit finding a solution for him, up until he disappeared one day. I was worried, but i just knew he was still alive, so i didn't fret over it too much.

Few weeks went by without him, just Kovie, Vyx and i hanging out with friends that understand all of us. Then one time a scary thing happened and i had a panic attack, and i hid in another room behind a bed. One of my friends that came in to comfort me is a reiki practitioner, he's been able to see bits of my tulpa that has been very exciting to hear about. This time he saw "a small white figure crouched on the bed beside me", and after some questioning, i determined it was Leo. This was the first i had heard of him since he disappeared, it instantly made me feel better, because we were certain he was concerned about me and was there to make sure i was okay.

I've had a couple signs of him still being around since then (he tried to tickle me during work a few days ago), so my conclusion is that he somehow detached himself from my mindscape and now resides... elsewhere, not quite sure. Maybe our plane, maybe astral, maybe somewhere else. Hell, knowing how he was, he could've created his own mindscape. He was really a very unique tulpa, had abilities i've always known to be especially uncommon.

 

Point being, i've found it is possible for a tulpa to exist outside a host's mindscape, to be self-sufficient.

[kovyxen]

i think im gonna go ahead and archive this, and make a new journal. really glad to have this though, kovie's birthday is in here. turns out she's 8 years old now.