Locked out of my wonderland?

[Carnivorous M.]

So I have two tulpas, both pretty young, who I alternate between focusing on each day. They seem to both agree with this and even enforce whose day it is when I forget, and while the other one might pop in now and then or come hang out for a little while, I think they mostly just hang out in the wonderland when it's not their day. I got a sense pretty quickly for whether one or both of them is 'present' or in the wonderland, and which one it is.

 

For the last couple days Rikki's been wanting me to come look at stuff she's built in the wonderland, but going into the wonderland and staying there for long is a difficult, disorienting task for me, and every time I've tried to put aside the time to do it something else has come up that I couldn't put off.

 

So this morning I reached for Rikki to say hi and start the day, since it's her day, and... she's not there. I can sense both of them in the wonderland, and they both feel excited and they're trying to get me to come see.

 

The problem is, I've been trying to get in for close to half an hour now and I can't. I can think of what it looks like, but it doesn't feel like the wonderland, just a remembered image. I just can't get in at all, and it's really worrying; wonderlanding is difficult, but it's never done this before. Can anyone help shed some light on this? Is it possible they changed it so radically I'm not visualizing the right place at all anymore?

[Guest amber5885]

When I first started imposition training Toby was fuzzy, even after seeing him for over 20 years I couldn't picture his face and it kept changing or it would become static.

 

He told me that I was trying to control it too much and instead of seeing him for what he really was I was seeing what I wanted to and it was causing translation issues so to speak. So I had to learn to let go and let him be what he was rote our work in imposition really began to take hold.

 

Maybe it's the same thing.

 

Maybe your tulpa changed it and your brain is trying to see what YOU think she might have done to it rather than what she ACTUALLY did and it's causing a rift.

 

The best thing you can do is talk to your tulpa, get her in focus and as her to walk you through the wonderland. It may take a few times before you let go of control but if your mind wonders or changes just start back at the beginning until you are following her lead rather than what you think it should be.

 

You could also have her explain what she did before showing it to you to give your brain and idea of what it needs to do.

[Einulf]

I completely agree with amber5885 about the likely cause of this. I actually used to have the same problem getting into my wonderland, especially after my second tulpa was created.

 

What I did to make it easier was to create an "entrance room" of sorts, essentially a place we all agreed to keep the same no matter what, and focus on that to get into the wonderland. I've found that it helps me to get in even when everything else is different, since the initial access is the hardest for me.

[raymond13557]

i've never really had trouble entering my wonderland, i just seem to be bound to it, but i have been temporarily "forced logged out" from my wonderland sometimes by snow, only because she was concerned about my well being and she has the abilities to make portals.. so i am often left in my own mind.. when "logged out" and like einulf said a entrance room is idea.. mine is a white waiting room that you can make whatever you want while waiting. so it cures boredom when you are waiting to enter endless.. and i may have to ask snow to not make portals.....