been feeling kinda sad for some reason..

[raymond13557]

Recently while tulpamancing with ari, i been feeling on verge of deep sorrow and i often find my self silently... crying about something, recently i guess in my wonderland trinity, my favorite cat pokemon red.. faded from existence,to merge with ari, ari didnt understand why i was crying and i told her i was just alittle choked up about something amoungst the line that red is from what i thought is ...dead.. i know it's not true, i mean i never cried much.. and i just felt heart broken to know that snow, moogle ari and red are gone... from what i understood about tulpas and mancing them.. it was like when i had the nightmare about the coroprates and they where trying to kill the meat golems... i felt.. outraged and sad.. i still blame myself.. i don't care if it was a dream.. i was a creator.. so it's my responsibility right? do any of you lot ever experience this.. sudden sadness sometimes? i' still alittle misty eyed... but i'll get over it .

[arduinoman12345]

I can kinda relate to this. Early on before our relapse I thought about losing sunset late at night while watching tv, I felt a great sadness wash over me. I felt kinda bad at the time for even putting that thought in my mind

[Spartanelete]

I'm sorry about your loss. I'm not really understanding your question though.

[raymond13557]

well it's really hard to explain.. i mean tulpas cant really die right? but.. i think my previous tulpas are gone.. i cant even seem to remember them now.

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I can kinda relate to this. Early on before our relapse I thought about losing sunset late at night while watching tv, I felt a great sadness wash over me. I felt kinda bad at the time for even putting that thought in my mind

 

what does it to me is anything sad.. or if i hear certian songs.. i guess it just gets to me.. i cant listen to 'tailor and the mouse" without crying.. or getting really pissed off. and it's not me getting mad.. i think ari doesnt like the song or she hates sad music.