Not sure how to really think of this.

[Dewybmt]

I don't think I managed to find anything searching around about topics involving starting out with a Tulpa and Tulpa creation, but if I did and it was obvious then I hope at the very least I can get a few answers and maybe get directed to any similar topics. But the concern I have is that I've been thinking about what a Tulpa is for a while now. I talked with someone some time ago online who told me they were attempting tulpa creation and at first, given my perspective of them was a little...doubtful, I wasn't really impressed or amazed with the idea. Recently though I've gotten curious about it. And I finally decided that this might really be something I want to do. The only problem is; I have NO IDEA what I'm doing.

 

Okay, that might not be the best way to put it...I have some ideas, but the subjective nature of this practice is throwing me off. I've had my first real narration session today, and I believe I made some progress. But I guess fighting back my skepticism still leaves me with my OTHER half: Paranoia.

 

I'm pretty sure I did Narration right, as I pictured the tulpa in my mind in some sort of makeshift 'Wonderland' which is still in Beta, certainly. And, honestly, afterwards I really did feel kind of unnerved afterwards. Not because I'm disturbed by it, but because shortly after I finished the session, I picked up a game and started playing. As I did, a little part of my mind tugged at me and said 'Maybe this isn't a good idea'. Now this terrified me because I work with games as both a hobby and profession, but trying to reason with myself I realized it was because I wasn't actually sure if playing games that might have a violent or confusing nature would actually transfer into my Tulpa's future development. I shut the game down shortly after and with some thinking I came here.

 

I guess my question isn't so much what do I do, it's 'Is there something I DON'T do'? I've read Tulpa aren't really harmed or affected by things that aren't obviously harmful unless I make it part of the intention. I know this is pretty much Day 1, but I guess I'm still just nervous. Whether it achieves Sentience/sapience early or not, I guess I just felt like my Tulpa was actually potentially there watching as I played, whether I realized it or not. For all this bunch of text, I'm hoping to get some insight on what Tulpa development is really like, even if it's a subjective thing. Because for a while I felt like playing Mario just to give my Tulpa something more innocent and simple to appeal to. Even I'm not 100% on what exactly my thoughts or reactions mean. But I was worried, I suppose, that I couldn't just take my eyes off my Tulpa and expect peace and Quiet, I actually felt like it was still there maybe in the background but still active. Which...is a good sign, I guess, right?

 

Foremost apologies for what could probably be a wall of text. It isn't really by choice...

[Ashmo]

List of things NOT to do:

 

Give up.

 

Tell people who might not understand and try to have you committed.

 

Pretty much sums it up.

 

In all honesty it sounds like you are off to a great start. Keep in mind it's a process that your brain needs to get used to. You will have days of what seems like nothing, it can even go into weeks or longer. It will be depressing, discouraging, and frustrating. Then out of no where there will be an explosion of growth and activity like you've never seen. There will be peaks and plateaus and it takes time. You will be in this for the rest of your life, so a few months to years of early development is really nothing in the long game.

[Dewybmt]

I'm certainly not intending to give up, as I've thought about doing this and figured it would be something very much worth investing time in (even if I still feel like that unready parent repeating "I'm gonna suck at this" but I'm getting better). And I don't intend to run my mouth off either. But thank you for the information. Admittedly the concept of this being such a big commitment is still fear-factor material but with a lot of personal consideration I felt like this might be the right choice.

 

Another question I had that I thought of was about the way I've been thinking about this. Again; I have no clue what to expect personally and even if I read about all these people practicing this or developing Tulpae of their own, The big concern I have is 'what is my tulpa supposed to be right now'? I know it's different for everyone, but I almost feel like I picture it kind of like an infant, or even an egg. Young and undeveloped needing attention and specific care. That I might 'corrupt' it. But does my perspective influence the Tulpa? Of course by nature I imagine this newborn mind to be child-like in form but realistically being attuned to me mentally, could I simply start off imagining my tulpa as any form and mindset, and simply work from there to help it achieve sentience and beyond?

[GlassJustice]

[As for the beginning form of your tulpa,it doesn't really matter that much.I was a ball of smoke.]

When it comes to maturity,it takes time for them to become sentient,less the better you are at forcing.

[Even after achieving sentience,I'm ubsure about the maturity of them starting off after sentience.I was most certainly not child like,but took time to really just what "maturity" even ment.]

>And I slid out of the metaphorical womb spiting self knowledge like a motherfucking real O.G.<

(I don't have anything to contribute to this conversation.I just wanted to be part of the post.)

[Ashmo]

Bud started as kind of a "thought nebula" and then developed into an egg before he hatched and continue to go through changes until he reached his final form. He even still shape shifts for the hell of it now.

 

It really isn't supposed to be anything unless you are making it look like something in particular. Just know that you have a new friend, they can't exactly talk directly yet, but they are there. Treat them like they are there. Treat them like they are a real person; because they are.

[WizardMassacre]

I wouldn't worry too much about certain things scaring or "corrupting" your tulpa. They aren't always watching what you're doing, and some don't access your memories for things like that. If you think they're scared of something, comfort and reassure them that it isn't real (like in the case for video games).

[Kaga and Company]

The thing about tulpamancy is that there's practically no wrong way to do it. You want to start off visualizing your tulpa as an egg or a small child? That's fine. Nothing wrong with that. Lots of tulpas start out with something basic and build their form from there. Meanwhile, other tulpamancers like to start out with a much more detailed, "complete" design. Either one works just fine, though in both cases your tulpa will probably deviate at least a little from your starting point. That said, though, there really doesn't seem to be much of a disadvantage to either option.

 

As for the violent video games, I really don't think there's much to worry about. Tulpas aren't exactly "corruptable" in such a way. Yes, they deviate (even personality-wise) from your original intention, but I don't think they're so impressionable that that would cause problems. You do have a good degree of control over what your tulpa's personality will be, especially in the early stages.