Confused about initial Tulpa progress.

[InvadeGames]

So I have started to create my first tulpa. I wrote down a short list of desired traits though I am in no way attempting to force them upon the tulpa and for the form I am suggesting a green haired green lipped elfish like form. Very nature esque in form and clothing and she is female. I decided on the name Jayleena just so I could have something to refer to when referring to her before the name was decided by her. I tried at first to actively force but had a difficult time getting anything but the vaguest outline of her in my head. The visualization was not easy even though I have a very good imagination. I intended to do an hour straight but I barely made 15 minutes before I simply couldn't do it anymore. It was harder than I thought. I tried to talk to her in my head but got no response and didnt know what to say. As I was starting to get ready for work, i did a mix of passive and active forcing with my eyes open I tried to imagine her standing in front of me. Though my eyes saw nothing my mind slowly formed her outline and hair and lips but all other features were missing. then I started to imagine she was standing behind me and touching my neck or holding my hand/arm. While driving to work I imagined she was in the seat next to me and I held my hand out as if she was holding it. I noticed my hand seemed to increase in temperature 2-4 degrees and when I imagined her moving her hand to my forearm the heat moved with it. While I ws at work i continued to pretend she was behind me and periodically attempting a quick visualization. many times I pictured her holding my hand and about 20 percent of the time there was a temperature increase of maybe 0.5 to 3 degrees or a slight pressure increase in my hand though very vague. I kept trying to talk to her and many times i addressed her by the name jayleena hoping that would help make sure these thoughts were directed at her. At one point I got this sense to call her being Jay instead. I do not know if this was a response of her saying she wanted to be Called Jay and I told her that I would call her Jay. For the next several hours I kept passive forcing about her being behind or near me and kept trying to talk to her. then I ended up getting what Might have been responses but I have no clue if it was real or if I was parroting. It seemed I felt her get jealous (I am in a new relationship) and this sense of her traits starting to form somewhat and near the end of the night I noticed this wonderland had formed around her when I pictured her in my head. It was a waterfall, a stream and some flowers. i am certain I did not form that myself (I originally pictured her in a void) so I assume she did. But most questions were met with silences. though there was a series of times when if I was not parroting then she was telling me how she didnt want me to swear (I swear alot) that she doesn't want me to abandon her (which i promised not to do), and requested nature based music instead of what I usually listen to. When I changed it there was this unusual mild sense of contentment. Note that this was stuff I do not listen to myself. When all what may have been her communicating stopped, i closed my eyes and visualized her but she was sleeping instead of sitting as I had pictured her previously. However she never seemed to move on her own, movement of her seemed to be forced by me and not her. I noticed some details about her were slightly clearer and where my original images of her had no visible ears, pointed ears now protrude from her hair. At one point my thoughts adopted a higher pitched tone which i thought was her but then my own thoughts were in that tone as well so I have no clue. I do not know what to make of this. Is she really starting to form so fast or is this all in my imagination? What is your guys es interpretation of this? I have no idea what to make of this or what to do now. Any advice is greatly appreciated. I want to make sure I ma not fooling myself into thinking I am making progress if I am not.

[Guest Anonymous]

Dude break your text into smaller paragraphs! LOL

 

It sounds to me like you are making progress with Jay, but really only you can answer that. Jay is already nagging you not to swear, that sounds like progress to me. Signs of success -> a tulpa nag. LOL

[Bambi]

She's definitely developing this fast. It isn't unheard of at all for this sort of thing to happen with tulpa, so I'd be happy if I were you. :) Just keep on pushing for it!

 

(And, by the way, you might want to talk to Jay about your relationship. Her jealousy has the potential to be a bad thing.)

[Akinkinit]

Well, as you said, you have a very good imagination. And only you can say for sure if this is all just fooling yourself or not.

 

But if you really do have a tulpa (or at least the starts of one), then the key is consistency. Is the warm and pressure sensations on your hand reproducible, and do they occur based on what you see your tulpa doing in your mind's eye? Or if you can't see her when she does it, does your tulpa "feel" present? If they do, that should help dispel any self doubts you may have.

[Guest Anonymous]

Tulpas are imagination at is rawest form. The whole process of tulpamancy is developing autonomy for that part of your imagination. Food for thought is all I'm offering.