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Host just manifested a poster with my name and the word "consolation" on it. It's now on his headspace bedroom wall and I don't think I can convince him to remove it anytime soon...... It's such a weird thing to find funny but apparently he likes annoying me with weird humor. Ah well.

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Good morning, everyone! 😊 Still feeling a little bad but a lot better after sleeping and cuddling. 😄 @KarlYoshimura you're a good person and don't you forget that! 😊 I just want to make it clear that it really wasn't you. There was something IRL that triggered a really negative part of my brain before we saw what happened to you. Really, the only factor that actually related to you was the fact that I barely had any brain power to help, which made me feel worse because it's kinda my whole thing to do that. I can't really say that is you were in a happy mood, that I would have been better either. I suppose we'll never know what would had happened if things were a little different but I'm just glad to be feeling mostly better. Just for whenever you see it. ₊˚ つ つ つ つ *⁠.⁠✧(つ✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)つ ⁺˖ つ つ Thanks, I do feel a little better. 😊 No dreams but that's good too.

Good morning

You needn't apologise. I can't say I know the breadth or totality of your suffering, but I am familiar. I'm not a psychologist, but you're more than welcome to talk to us whenever you feel you don't have an outlet. Twi even says it's okay to send you her Discord account, as it would be more expedient than forums like these. Please take good care of yourselves. We'll be here if you need us.

i really don't think that lumi meant anything bad by the "handling invisible knives" comment. i think he was just trying to say that you're dealing with a lot of things that risk hurting yourself i'm not certain how much more dangerous walking at night is compared to the day. probably depends on where you live. if you're worried about it getting a self defense weapon isn't a bad idea; even if you have to deal with institutional racism, that's better than being defenseless. something less lethal, like pepper spray, might be better than a gun or a knife though

I offer my support in verbal form. Not really useful, but hopefully it can cheer up those who are unhappy at least a little bit. Good night, everyone asleep; may your dreams be kinder than reality.

thank you karl. i'm sorry about everything. maybe we'll post more tomorrow, or not. i'm not sure. have to go moment by moment whatever feels the safest and most productive. brain just is... a lot to manage so things that are nothing or no problem for most are hard for us so it is hard to explain or justify why we struggle or what the struggle even is i hope you and twi have a good night or day weird personal semi specifics i feel if laying in bed doing nothing everyday except sleeping and daydreaming is what is safest, we ought to do that. anything else is not so safe and leads to weird stuff happening. need pressure in life to go to less than 0 i hope everyone has a good time. i'm sorry. goodnight. i wish i was just fun and didn't have to say troubles in life and had a life with no troubles, or not public places to report them. don't really have IRL friends or family to bring it up to, and don't have much faith or trust in professional places goodnight

@Byakko we'd be very upset if you went away. But it's okay to take breaks and not want to be here. Sometimes I get very irritated by other hosts (different parts of the community, mind you) and I just have to limit my talks to a few friends for a while. I wish I didn't work today. I read what you wrote the last few pages and it seemed really unfair that you had a shred of respite taken away from you. I wish I could have kept your mind off the unpleasant and more attuned to good and natural things. Please take a long rest. You don't have to log in every day. Remember what I wrote yesterday? Never feel obligated. Socialising with you is a privilege, not something to be taken for granted. The next time you do feel lost or insecure, remember that there are at least two people here who think the world of you.

you too we might rest a long time. i can't predict feelings but i don't really want to look a .info tomorrow or the next day. i kinda want to go away forever. but i probably will, because the brain doesn't feel peace being left in limbo about how others might perceive us that's not who i am though. if i had my own body, i'd just go where i feel i'm meant to and not be so held down by wondering what anyone else thinks there are two options. they think something nice, and it's okay, or they think something bad, and it feels terrible the true byakko above that i am a fascimile of, feels okay either way, so they can move on and avoid feeling bad, because nothing is really that series. they also wouldn't care about walking at night, because the risk of danger isn't bad enough to create fear of joy of the walk. if danger came, that byakko would figure it out in that moment somehow. but i am not. it makes me sad. but i accept i'm different and have to find self actualization through different means. i guess that's why i like drawing. drawing for me is the other byakko's cultivation in spiritual martial arts, i suppose. just a less discipline more easily exhausted version. it's sort of pathetic, but as long as i smile and have best attitude i can, despite depression or echolalia or other terrible things, it's good. best part is, whatever good i do for myself helps my friends i guess the secret weapon of being a system. if i was a separate person trying to help my own mental state, but also cheer up friends (my system), making myself feel okay wouldn't make friends okay, and helping them might be at my expence, and vice versa. luckily, being a system, if i can help my mental state, it might make the others feel happier when they front. also, the fact they can not front when it is too hard for them, and have the pain ease, while i take it on. goodnight.

It's alright. It's really more like the last 5% of stuff that's been happening for a while. Good luck to you all, I hope you can get some at least ok rest like we should.

sorry to spread our suffering to you and shaula i thought i was really happy for a second and tomorrow would be back to normal for a while. i was too upset at the last second smashing of my jenga tower i guess. idk where to go when things like this happen i'll deal with it somehow. sleep well nightfall and shaula i think there are ways maybe to feel happiness and confidence that don't require thinking about or relying on reality or other people. some sort of solipsism type thing but not that exactly, i don't have a word for it. mitski had that when she first became, but it went away. we need to find it again, but for all of us. if we can, there will be no problem for any of us ever again. everything will be alright then =] sleep well. sorry for any trouble our system caused anyone else

TLDR, the way my brain works, the world, and a few other happenings have kinda caused Shaula to fall apart. Byakko, it's just me and other things, not anything you did. We should head to bed soon but I don't know. Maybe good night.

good morning, andre!

You guys have such a pretty artstyle, wow! Also it's so fascinating to hear the backstory behind your tattoos, I've never really considered how tulpas would need to design them with visualization in mind but that makes so much sense in hindsight. Really cool how you managed to get in so much symbolism and make beautiful designs even when keeping them simple!

Good afternoon, Andre! 😊 Basically Byakko trying to recover from something. I'm just having a minor issue with myself.

good afternoon! Oh, what's happening?

That was interesting to read but I don't have the capacity right now to say much. (IRL things.) I don't understand what he means either. Good night, Lumi. 😊 Same for the most part.

maybe mitski is right about us being low IQ 😅 still confused on what you said, but i guess you didn't mean for it to be offensive. i was trying to process emotions and come out clear minded and your post felt like a stab in the face, so i started over from scratch thinking of a new way to recover out of despair i thought i was finally getting us out of. i can't think straight now i'm glad you are avoiding AI well. we see tons of human art too because of following known human artists, but we also see tremendous AI art and it sucks. and is supposedly getting worse but at the same time, the AI bubble might be finally popping and hatred for AI is at an all time high, so that's sort of hopeful. though idk if it means an end to AI content. we don't use discord except to talk to friends, so dunno about there. Youtube suggest an AI slop video everywhere though. there were many we watched and didn't realize were AI slop. Also, there are non AI slop videos to watch out for. many layers. but yeah. i forget point i was making. i got disoriented by your comment so my thoughts are scrambled. goodnight though, i don't want to keep you up. i refuse to sleep until i find a the peace my system needs

Oh you added a bunch extra to your post, I was replying to having to be careful not to hurt yourself psychologically Somehow I am avoiding AI stuff across the board just fine, I guess by only watching people I'm subscribed to (and just not using twitter/etc.) Just occasional AI memes on Discord

this really gives the vibe of being at a friends house as a small child at least for tb. idk if it is relatable to other hosts experiences just watching a friend play a game and being screamed at by the parent when you get too loud. classic oh hope that is a good thing. i'm having fun. i'm not cutting people am I? oh, goodnight another classic experience. be vibing, someone comes in and says something you don't understand and makes you feel insecure about your expression and leaves with no explanation. about as fun as being screamed at when having fun as a little kid except less so because it is not as far away lol T_T but i'll live. i'm training to tolerance painful emotions better certainly autistic, since metaphorical language left us confused and uncomfortable. time to ponder how to navigate these uncomfortable feelings caused by ambiguity. i don't want to hurt others, so if us being knives means we hurt others with our posts, then maybe... i guess we need to find specific private friends to express ideas to and we cause damage doing so publicly. but we don't know who to share feelings with privately. i sort of appreciate people sharing art publicly, but i guess that isn't universal

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ninja'd edit by 2 minutes. the site is slow invisible mental knives?