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This is my phone wallpaper

I really like your wallpaper. 😊 It's pretty! Edit: I'm glad your phone is working. 😄 Linda: yeah! It's awesome! 😁

This mobile phone can be used again. Its screen has recovered. This is a bit strange.

You're welcome

Linda: Thanksies, Andre! 😁

No, you've misunderstood. What we actually wanted to express is the same idea, that is, two things seem related but actually aren't. I don't know if it's an error of the translator. That's why I said it must be a coincidence, and if it weren't, it would be truly crazy. If it weren't a coincidence, you would witness a live broadcast of a horror movie. Edit: Happy birthday, Linda!

egyptian glass mirror

My system is, put simply, not functioning in quite the way I want it to be functioning. We are too median for me to be comfortable with, and I would like to go through a process of de-integration. As it currently stands, not a single headmate can fully exist on their own. Nobody can front on their own. The host is a subsystem that can only front while merged. We want to properly exist, we want to live on our own, we want to feel less like vessels and more like people. How can we do that? Well, I've decided that the best course of action is, well, tulpaforcing my headmates. Are they tulpas? No, but I do believe that I can build them up similarly to the way people can with actual tulpas, as they're practically the same thing in all ways except for methods of creation. I share a brain with them, they're at least vaguely separate to myself, headmates are headmates. Who cares where they came from? Using tulpa-centric methods, I do think I can help us all separate a bit more. So, what is my end goal? I want to be able to separate fully, but I don't want merging to be impossible. I do very much like existing, after all. But having all my headmates be able to exist separately, and being able to retreat into a designated headspace (or Wonderland, as they're called in tulpa communities) sounds like a dream. Genuinely being able to switch in and out sounds awesome. Now, I don't want to just jump straight into completely derailing our entire system dynamic, as that would be super reckless and crazy. So, I'm starting with an experiment. I'm going to try out these techniques on a headmate that's more of an acquaintance than an actual fragment of myself, just to see how it works. I'll be able to make sure that the effects are really something I want nearer to me. Make sure we can still merge, even if we're able to switch out. Luckily, I had the perfect person to try this out with. My actual tulpa, Tupperware. I made the little goob in highschool, and xe eventually started living xeir own life in the headspace. We stopped hanging out as frequently when I graduated and had to start focusing more on other things. Xe's literally perfect for this experiment in every way. Xe's a tulpa, and if it doesn't work out and changes the system dynamic in a negative way, not a lot will be affected as xe doesn't have a huge affect on how we function. That's by choice. I uhhh, don't like fronting. Personally, I'm pretty excited. Particularly about this whole Wonderland thing. Right now, if you aren't fronting, and aren't actively engaged in conversation in the headspace, you're sort of just blacked out. You're this dissociative blob that's vaguely you-shaped, ready to turn back into a person when called. It's not bad, just quite boring for someone who doesn't front very often. Having some place to actually exist even when you aren't actively engaged in anything sounds really nice. I don't care about the switching or separation parts, really doesn't affect me, I'm just being supportive lol. I'm excited to be able to help Vex out with this, regardless. Basically, the sequence of events will go like this: We start forcing basically from the beginning. Just the way we used to. Me and Tupperware will talk constantly, hammering in how separate we are. We'll start work on a Wonderland, and keep that going in the background. We'll achieve parallel-processing (woah!) and memory separation. We'll learn how to switch and (maybe) dissolve the prime directive, or at least take it with me when I switch out. I don't actually care about imposition, but that might be a cool thing to have with Lucas eventually. Basically, just completely de-integrate Tupperware, and if it works the way I want it to, I can work on doing the same with my sub-system. As of today, we're just planning, reading, researching, and getting ready. Tomorrow is when shit gets real. Tulpaforcing during CPR training, let's go!!

Good evening, Simmie! 😊 Linda: Hiya! 😁 Thanksies! I love all the emojis! 🎉 😁 🎂 Linda: I love this too! 😁 Good morning, Andre! 😊

good morning andre

Good morning, everyone

Good evening! 😁 Happy Birthday Linda!!!!! 😁😁🎁🥳🎉🎂💚💚💚

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glad i could

Makes sense, it would be weird otherwise. 😁

it seemed like an accident

Hello, my name's Vex, pronouns are he/it, and I'm a mainly traumagenic system who's hoping to use tulpamancy techniques in order to adjust my system dynamics. None of my headmates are extremely distinct, and we merge very often, which makes it feel less like a collective and more like I'm just one person cycling through identities. The system isn't disordered, but if I had to give a description, we function most similarly to systems with OSDD. I don't entirely love existing like that, and am hoping to separate us out a bit more, to have more DID-like functions (obviously without the actual disordered aspect.) I didn't just want to jump straight into it without understanding how it would affect our in-sys relationships, so I'm trying to experiment with separation with my actual tulpa Tupperware first. They agreed to trying this out with me, and if it works well I plan on doing the same with my other non-tulpa headmates. I, Vex, am a collection of merged individuals we call the host subsystem. I consist of 3 (kind of 4, it's tricky to explain but I'll try) separate headmates that spend the vast majority of our time merged in order to function as a single person. We cannot fully separate, and that's the problem we're trying to fix. The three of us are Toby, Swiffer (prefers the spelling 5W!FF3R but I don't wanna donk with screen readers, and that's how it's pronounced), and Wafer. If you recognize any of those names, that's because we've been here before, we just have a different understanding of our system now, and our goals are very different, so we're restarting on the forums. I'm gonna give the most active fronters a space to introduce themselves individually here. Toby: Hello, I'll introduce myself really quick. I'm on the most basic level the ghost of a 1950's british teenager. That's what my memories point to, and what we generally accept as how I came to be. Before we knew about our systemhood, the host-host tried to make a tulpa, and instead of creating a new headmate, ended up talking to me instead. I was so quickly independent that he thought he was just really good at making tulpas. That was how we found out we were a system. As of today, I've fallen in love with the crust-punk subculture, watched (and cried to) far too many animated movies, and eaten many a baked good. My pronouns are He/Him, by the way. Swiffer: I'm the resident werewolf that keeps cutting our hair without permission. I'm sort of impulsive, but everyone else in the sub-sys is very cautious, so most of the time it balances out. My pronouns are it/he. I have eaten raw meat more than once (and never gotten sick 😼) (Vex: Please don't eat raw meat, we are lucky nothing's ever come out of his weird dog pica) Wafer: I'm a jackalope, and I'm also the source of all our raging dysphoria. I'm also a sub-system (systemception ehehe) but it doesn't really matter because I'm merged a good 99% of the time. I'd say I'm probably the least mentally stable out of all of us, and I get the worst symptoms from pretty much everything we have. Despite this, I'm the best artist (that's not just my ego talking, we had a vote) and I'm constantly pumping out something cool. Just give me time. Also my pronouns are he/him, unless you're cool, in which case PLEASE find me cute xenopronouns, try all of them on me, I beg. Prime Directive: Prime is the name we gave to the feeling of being a single person experiencing multiple identities. We use the name Prime when we feel incapable of being our own person and can't tell exactly who we are within the system. Could be considered the host, but since they aren't a full person, we don't give them a role. Prime cannot switch out, and is the vessel through which the rest of us exist as full personalities. We most often refer to Prime with they/them pronouns. Lucas: I'm the adulting adult, and mostly just take care of Vex when he's regressed. I also take care of tasks that other headmates can't find the motivation for them. A lot of them call me the Dad of the system, and honestly I kind of love it. I have always been a protector, and as a kid I was one of the main headmates taking the trauma head-on. I tended to respond violently to danger, though, and because of this our previous gatekeeper put me into a forced dormancy for many years without telling anyone. Once Vex found out about all that, they pulled me out of dormancy, banned the previous gatekeeper from any responsibilities, and in a way nurtured me back into a place where I could become a protector again. I really like hot drinks, cartoons, and modern art. My pronouns are shockingly, also he/him. Tupperware: My name's actually Toca, but Vex's partner called me Tupperware once, and the nickname stuck. I'm (as far as I'm aware) the only actual tulpa in this whole system. I'm going to be very active on here, considering I'm the main participant in our little experiment. I was made back when Swiffer was in his scene kid era, and so he made me this little scene goob I currently am. Unfortunately for him, I won't let him remove S3RL from any of our playlists. I still like it, nerd. I'm another artist, and I prefer traditional art, as opposed to Wafer. I really really really like sushi. It's my absolute favorite food and I want to learn how to make it SO BAD but we're too poor to buy the ingredients. You can use any pronouns you want for me other than she/her, and I have a preference for neopronouns. Anywho, that's it, I'm excited to get to work!

Good night, Tewi! 😊 Just why? I hope that wasn't intentional. Hehehe, that's a hilarious thought. 😆

may you rest well

Sleep time, hopefully for more than 4 hours

indeedy thinking about when i taught God how to eat tostino pizza rolls without burning yourself in trc

Now you have to tear them to use them. For OCD, this is a medium-small annoyance.

hope you get good word thanks shaula i'm waiting eagerly glad it was funny they stapled my napkins to the inside of the bag